Carview!

217.2

Oops.. guess the birthday cake, and the drinking Saturday night caught up to me. Up a half a pound.

216.7

Well... I'm down 2.3 which is amazing. I had one heck of a week, my mom ended up in the hosptial, and I've been running here there and everywhere. We had our night at the waterpark, and I just didn't have time to think about meals. So I paid attention to my points the best I could and hopefully next week it will be better.

219

Well.... I'm back and as you can see I've been a very bad girl. But enough is enough and I said I never wanted to see that number again! Grrr. I'm lazy. That's what happened and I can admit it. But I'm not going back to weight watchers for real... it's way too expensive. But my friends and I are doing this together. They're going to come here every week and we're going to weigh in on the wii fit! It will help us keep track, we'll have our own meetings and encourage eachother!

199.6

Gained 0.6 this week which is surprising considering what I ate and the fact that I got my period a day after I weighed in. Must try and work harder!!!!

199

Had a rough week. Busy and lazy all in one. I'm also ovulating this week and all this explains my 1.6 gain. Grrr. this is SO HARD!

Same

Stayed the same this week. Better then gaining. That will probably come this week, since pizza is the devil and so is sausage vendors and nachos at the ballgame!

197.4

Well here I am down 2.4lbs this week, I was up 1 last week and .4 the week before, and the week before that I was down 3.2. I'm just a human rollercoaster! I've still been going to weight watchers, I just haven't been blogging about it. Sadly I am up 10 lbs over the past year, but I'm on my way back down. I am not going to give up.

The summer months are so much easier for me to get out and be active, the only problem is that there is too many yummy munchie foods going on in the summer. Winter months keep me inside, and there are too many "comfort foods" that I just can't say no to.

I have to do something about that!

Still here...

Don't worry.. I'm still here and still at it... Just haven't quite gotten into the groove that I want to be in just yet, but I'm working on it.... I promise. I'll be back to updating again soon.

Somthing to think about.

Recently, in a large city in France ,a poster featuring a young, thin and tan woman appeared in the window of a gym.

It said, "This summer,do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?"

A middle-aged woman,whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.

To Whom It May Concern,

Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans.)They have an active sex life, get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp.

They play and swim in the seas,seeing wonderful places like Patagonia ,the Bering Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia .

Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs.

They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans.

They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.

Mermaids don't exist.

If they did exist,they would be lining up outside the offices of Argentinean psychoanalysts due to identity crisis. Fish or human?

They don't have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them, not to mention how could they have sex?

Just look at them ... where is IT?Therefore, they don't have kids either.

Not to mention, who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store?

The choice is perfectly clear to me: I want to be a whale.

P..S. We are in an agewhen media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my kids, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver, and a piece of chocolate with my friends.

With time, we gain weight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that when there is no more room, it distributes out to the rest of our bodies.

So we aren't heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy.

Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think,

¨Good grief, look how smart I am!¨

Now just to state here that I'm not giving up. I'm just trying to find a way to take the pressure that I'm putting on myself off. :) back to weight watchers Saturday. I'm expecting a few pounds to show up while I'm there. But I hope they won't follow me there next week.

195.2

I wasn't going to go to weight watchers today. I got my period yesterday and I feel blah. But I went anyway, and ended up losing. 0.8. I'm going to try harder. I am going to make 2010 the year I lose at least another 20lbs!

I've been stuck in this rut for far too long now. I have to find my motivation somewhere. Maybe it'll show up in my stocking? LOL

196

Yuck.

192

Lost two pounds this week. I don't really know how, I stuck to my points really that's all. But I'm happy with that. The trick however will to be to KEEP them lost ;)

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

194

Ugh.. up .6 this week. I have a stupid headcold and I'm cranky.

193.4

I lost a pound last week and then stayed the same this week. Which is actually a really good thing. I went to a baseball game, and man oh man the smell of those sausages and hot dogs with grilled veggies on them. Not to mention BBQ chicken nachos smothered in chicken, cheese, and grilled peppers and onions. Irrisistable let me tell you. It's just to bad the Jays lost that day lol. This week we had the 50th anniversary celebration at my kids school. Baking cupcakes and eating the leftovers ;)

But it's Monday and now it's time to get back on track. I did better the past two weeks with drinking my water, I'm going to continue to do so. Also now that the weather is cooler, it's time to start walking again. And when it's raining like it is today, I'm going to clear out the living room and do some exercise there.

194.4

Ugh I'm so frustrated with myself. It's been one really hard summer, and it's incredibly hard to get back on track. Now that fall is soon to be here I hope to do better. I've been stuck for way way way too long.

I'm going to have to give myself a small goal. I'm going to say 10lbs.. I want to lose ten pounds... then I 'm going to go from there.

Starting tomorrow :)

192.4

The weeks have been getting harder and harder. I hate summer for this. I never feel like cooking, we're always out and about, and usually end up going out for dinner. I'm down this week, but let me tell you it could have been a lot better.

193.8

Ugh.. this is getting so hard...

I'm not lost

I haven't been to weight watchers in a couple of weeks. I've been camping and traveling. While I was camping I sort of watched and stayed on track, but I haven't in the past couple of days. As soon as I get home though, I'm going to do my best to stay focused and shed the couple of pounds I know I have put on. So... I will be back!

190.4

I missed ww last week, things were busy, I was not feeling well, and so I didn't go. But I made an effort to stay on track this week and ended up losing 0.6 which I'm happy about. It's better then a gain right?

I'm going to miss next week too. It's our 10th wedding anniversary and we're taking the kids away for the weekend.

191

Up 0.2 this week. UGH.. out for dinner on Wednesday, another BBQ at a friends, and I'm getting my period soon. So all in all. Point two... not so bad.

But GEEZE I want off this rollercoaster already!

190.8

Well it's better then nothing I guess. I did so well this week too, then on Friday we were invited to a friends house for a bbq. Sausages and hamburgers on yummy big buns, nacho chip dip, corn on the cob, potatoes, not to mention a very yummy pie for dessert. Oh well. Whatcha gonna do. Life happens and you have to accept it and get back on track.

191.6

Ugh... don't ask.

187.8

Well all things considering. I lost .2 and hopefully will do better this week. It's suppose to be sunny out all week, so I'm hoping to get a lot of exercise. My arms are killing me today. I cut and used the weed eater on the lawn yesterday, then I raked the entire backyard. Picked up all the pieces of dirt from when we aerated it. Also played badminton with the kids and some volley ball.

I'm still here...

I know I haven't updated in awhile, I've just been busy, and a little frustrated with my results. April 25th I was up 1.6lbs and then May 2nd I was down 0.8. I missed last weekend because we went camping. So this Saturday I will go and weigh in again. But don't expect to see much of a change. My last weigh in I was 188. I got my period yesterday, and McDonald's is just too easy of an answer when there's not much time left to make dinner with two screaming kids.

I have been walking some, and doing some yard work, but I don't think that's enough where exercise is concerned. The weather has warmed up though, and this makes me happy. It invites me to get outside. I've also started tracking again. It's amazing how important that really is.

187.2

I don't consider .2 a gain. I say it's "stayed the same" Which is really good considering the Easter bunny came to our house and the whole kitchen just smells of yummy chocolate. It's very hard to not take one everytime I'm in the kitchen. lol. I also got my period yesterday, so staying the same .2 I'm pretty happy with.

:)

187

Down 1.2 this week. Which totally doesn't make sense to me. The week before I tried pretty hard to stay within my points and do even a little exercise and this week, I was way off my points and did zero exercise but sit on my butt on the couch. But hey... I'm not going to complain as long as I keep bouncing up and down and the numbers still go down I'll be happy. You can just call me the human yo-yo :)

188.2

I'm so frustrated. I tried to be really really good this week. Then on Friday my grandmother had to go and have her 70th birthday. How dare she the night before I have to weigh in. I did my best to stay on track with points, and had a lot of salad, but when the serving spoon hit the macaroni salad, there was no stopping it from taking a large scoop. We also had meat balls, homemade to die for beans which contain bacon, and ground beef and sugar all that yummy fibre put to waste. I did not have cake, but I did have ham. Not a lot but ham is very salty and the body doesn't have time to adjust when you weigh in in the morning.

The weather has turned to crap too. It's been rainy and SNOWY! Look at my poor Daffodil.

So yeah...I haven't been walking. But that's no excuse! there's no reason that I can't do exercise indoors. I've just been lazy.

And yesterday... oh dear.. I totally blew it. I was cranky and miserable. Stupid PMS, and I refused to cook, and by the time I managed to convince my husband that we had to go out for dinner I was STARVING. So we went to Boston Pizza, and I had a Caesar Salad, Chicken breast smothered in a cream with mushroom sauce, mashed potatoes, and half of my Mom's Philly Cheesesteak sandwhich, stuffed mushrooms, and cactus cut potatoes... you know what those are right? Yeah DEEP FRIED potatoes and you dip them in a spicy fattening dip. Not to mention the piece of garlic toast and countless fries and gravy I swipped of the others plates. Oh and a diet coke. Like that mattered.

I'm just being hard on myself. Which is a good thing. I need to be. If I keep this up I'm never going to reach my goal. I need summer to hurry it's ass up and get here. I need to stop sitting around watching Y&R in the afternoon and maybe actually do some housecleaning, and jumping jacks?? I dunno.

I'm tired of being stuck. I know everyone around me keeps telling me how great I look, but I have a long way to go!

186.8

Well I tried really hard, but only managed to lose one of the two lbs I put on. The weather was amazing and I did A LOT of walking. I was happy with any loss, but it's getting SO hard!!

187.8

YIKES..... March Break! Adam was home with me all week, I had my daughters 5th birthday party which consisted of cake, pizza, chips and dip. Not to mention I had to eat the left over whole bag of chips and dip, and then the kids went away for three days. So of course I wasn't going to cook, and my sweet husband took me out for breakfasts, lunches and dinners! Yes Arby's... and did you know they have "loaded fries" now. Cuddling up on the couch watching movies and eating a twix or two or three. YUMMY! Oh yes, and Garrison subs. Grilled chicken deluxe with a side greek salad, because you know they are the best. Hey I did WALK there ;)

I need to move far away from Tim Hortons and McDonalds. Yeah like that's gonna help.

Oh and have you ever had a Dairy Queen cheeseburger and poutine. Well I did for the first time this week. It's a good thing the DQ near my house doesn't have them. They do have Turtles Waffle Bowls though, and I ate half of one!

Oh and of course my period came smack dab in the middle of March Break!

This week.. Back on track.

Drink more WATER
Do more EXERCISE
NO MORE DONUTS!!!!

although you know chocolate timbits are only 2 points ;)

185.6

I was down 0.6 this week. Not too bad. But not good enough

186.2

Stayed the same this week. Which really is a good thing. It was a tough week and had many nights out where I ate pizza, nachos, wings, big macs and fries, not to mention apple pies and yummy things!

But I did it with full knowledge and made the choices ahead of time. So it wasn't like I was mindlessly doing it. I also walked more. The weather has warmed up some and I'm taking full advantage of that. And with Adam having the van everyday... I choose to walk to get the kids to and from school if I can.

I'm going to try and do more exercise this week, and stay away from McEvils! Speaking of evil... did you know that 1 package of Mr. Noodles is EIGHT points!!!!!

186.2

Gained 0.6 this week....

oh well.

1 YEAR!!!

It's crazy how fast one year went by. I was thinking the other day about it, and thought I better check on my blog to be sure. It has indeed been a year today that I joined Weight Watchers. You can see my progress up there on the ticker. But it's been so much more then just numbers! It's been quite an experience. From the way people react to seeing me, the way I feel inside and lately on the outside! I have bones again people!! my energy levels... the excitement, the commitment. Everything it's crazy. Yes I'm very proud of myself for sticking with this. It's changed my life completley and I plan to keep it up.

185.6

Lost a whole pound this week! Wasn't expecting to since I have my period, but I'll take it! With Adam starting to follow his points, it's been MUCH easier on me. He's lost about 10 lbs already too! I wish I could lose 10lbs in two weeks haha. But.. like my leader said today. Men tend to lose faster. Go figure eh? Men just don't know how lucky they are.

This week I'm going to try and do more exercise. I've not been exercising at all. I did walk the kids to school on Tuesday though that was about it.

186.6

I was up 0.6lbs this week. I stayed on track with my points so the only thing I can figure is that it's because I'm getting my period in a few days.

186

Finally!! I'm down three pounds this week. I worked really hard at it. I tracked everything I ate, and did 15 minutes of exercise. Which I'm still recovering from. I will never go ahead and do a high workout again without really warming up first. I jogged on the spot for 15 minutes and my calves are just KILLING me, that was like 4 days ago.
Summer is right around the corner! Something that's going to help me out for sure is that Adam is starting to follow his points too. It's good that we'll work together. Only trouble is that he gets 10 points more then me! But that's ok. ( well sort of lol)

189

This is getting quite frustrating. I'm stuck. I've been bouncing around this 189 mark for some time now. Ugh. Yeah I lost .6 but jeesh.. a half of a pound is nothing.

189.6

I'm really starting to feel like a yo-yo. Up and down up and down. This week I was expecting to be up, I got my period and that's just what happens. But UGH!

This week I'm going to commit to drinking more water, because I definitely have not been doing that.

187.8

Well there goes the two pounds I put on over my vacation :)

Things I've come to realize

1. Shovelling snow is not as fun as it use to be when I was younger
2. My boots aren't as warm as they use to be
3. It's easier to move around and stuff out in the snow now that I've lost weight
4. but colder
5. Winter will be over and before I know it I'll be into higher exercise mode :)

189.8

Well two pounds isn't all that bad. Conidering New Years and my trip to the Dominican is what I've been doing for the past two weeks. The Dominican was amazing and how can anyone really be careful when all you have to eat for 8 days is Buffet! Mind you it wasn't the greatest food in the world but it was ok. And because it wasn't the greatest... I mostly stuck to breads. So 2.6 lb gain for the past two weeks isn't anything I'm going to worry about. Do I know I could have done better? For sure.

Today's my birthday. And I'm going to enjoy a piece of cake too :)

187.2

I missed last weekend. I was away in Michigan for a family Christmas get together. What a trip that was! Snow storms, sleepless nights, excited children, but very well behaved children which was sooooo good. Food choices weren't easy. McDonalds in the states still have the "Big Extra" they call it the Big and Tasty. And boy oh boy were they ever tasty! Wendy's, lil restaurants with yummy cream cheese filled raisin french toast. Needless to say I didn't choose wisely the entire trip. However we did a LOT of swimming, and I did use the exercise room. Did some weight lifting and had fun with the stationary bike while I watched the kids and Adam swim in the pool below. Then after we got home there was birthday parties and Christmas Eve. Yummy foods that go with that and I figured what the heck I've already blown it so why not just enjoy. Well Christmas Day I woke up fine, went to my grandmother's for brunch and had yummy potato broccoli casserole, croissants, bacon, shrimp, cheese, quiche and apparently none of that agreed with me. I know I can't eat eggs I don't know why but ever since I had my oldest. Eggs have been my enemy. Usually I just get an upset gut wrenching tummy. But this time. It got the best of me. I was vommiting and it felt like someone was twisting my stomache like you wouldn't believe. So I didn't eat a thing after brunch all Christmas day. The next morning I was brave and tried a bagel, and then for dinner I had some turkey and potatoes and carrots. So Saturday morning I weigh in and find out I've lost!! Wow was I ever surprised!

Last night I attended a wedding reception. Since I had weighed in in the morning it was my " day off" I ate well though, and the 5 hours of constant dancing surely made up enough activity points for the 4 or 5 drinks and the yummy food I ate :)

My next obstacle to over come is New Years, and then I'm off to the Dominican for a week! So I won't be weighing in again until I return on the 10th. But I will do my best to be aware of how much I eat, and how much swimming I do.

Happy Holidays everyone!

189.4

Now really what is .2 of a pound. I'm just going to say I stayed the same this week. Because .2 could mean so many different things. Wet hair, socks, a fart, a burp... LOL.

I had a few challenges this week.

1. Wednesday night we attended a pot luck dinner. I think it would be rude if I didn't take a taste of everything that people brought. I mean that key lime whipped pie I'm sure took a lot of work to make. And the incredible meat balls. I know those take time and effort. Bread is my enemy and when people put yummy bread on the table there is no way I can refuse a slice or three.

2. My son has become quite the social butterfly. Friday night he had a friend sleep over and the boys mom brought us dinner. How nice was that! A yummy bakery pizza. Sure I could have had one slice but four just seemed so much more appreciative don't you think? She also brought a tin of yummy chocolates she made. Chocolate covered pretzels, turtles, chocolate coated candied cherries. Oh and chocolate "haystacks" (pretzels and peanuts) I was good and put them straight into the fridge for the next day.

I did an hour of high cardio work out and I drank lots of water, after my four slices of yummy bakery pizza. I give my self a pat on the back for that one. This week I only went for one walk. A half hour in the freezing cold. Winter sucks for that. Walking the mall just doesn't seem all that fun especially so close to the holidays where everyone is cranky and grouchy and don't care who they push out of their way to get that last person on their list crossed off.

I'm going to try harder this week. I set a goal of 100 sit ups a day. And to kick up the cardio a notch. The week after is going to be difficult with Christmas. But in only 18 days I'm going to be swimming, and walking the beach and swimming... certainly swimming and tanning will do me a world of good :) I'm not going to even think about the all you can eat buffets, snacks and drinks that are included :)

Have a great week!

189.2

Not bad at all!! I have my period and I ate pizza last night and a very small piece of cake it was my brothers birthday. So I can live with a one pound gain this week.

I also tried his wii fit... I would SO love to get one of those. So much fun. Even if it said I was like 42 years old hahaha. You just wait you wiifit... you just wait and see! HAH!

188.2

Yeah I don't know how that happened. Last week I was a walking and exercising machine, ate not to bad and gained two pounds. This past week I've been so sick with a nasty head/chest cold, did nothing much more then occupy my couch with a blanket, and ate like a crazy girl. McDonalds, Pizza and wings, Swiss Chalet and who knows what other garbage. And I lost 2.8 lbs and I still haven't gotten my period yet. So I don't know. I just know that hey I lost 2.8 lbs and I'm happy with that!

It's a good motivator to do a bit better this week now that I'm on my way to feeling better. It's cold and yucky out winter is going to be hard for walking but my exercise tapes really help not only to drop some pounds but I'm positive the inches fly off too.

I noticed in the shower the other day while shaving my legs that my calves are very defined now. That was exciting. I don't really pay much attention to details like that. I'm more aware of how my clothes are fitting. Or lack there of for that matter. I sure hope whoever is thinking of getting me Christmas presents think ** gift certificates** to buy clothes!

191

Here's what I think. I think the human head can hold at least two pounds of mucus, not to mention that I blow at least a pound an hour out of my nose. That and when you're sick you're body is working on fighting off more important things. So that's my story this week and I'm sticking to it.

I have however been SUPER busy with the school, and worked out a lot this week. It's coming around to that time every month where I gain and then lose, and even though it's frustrating. I'm not going to beat myself up about it.

189

WOOO HOO!!!! That's all I gotta say!

190.4

I was a little frustrated this morning weighing in. I though I had lost a little more then .6 but I have excuses and I'm going to use them. Why because I can. First I had to weigh in on a different scale. I don't care what anyone says, no two scales are the same. So that could have had something to do with it. When I weighed myself at home before I went my scale said 189.5 . Secondly I'm not 100% finished my period yet, so that too has some effect.

But I've been stuck for awhile now between 193ish and 190. So I talked with my leader about it, and we agree that my body has hit it's plateau. It's normal and expected really. So I just have to work harder to tell my body that no... you are not happy at this weight and I'm taking control back and will start to lose again. You will be happy when I'm happy... got that body! Good.

Hoping that all goes well this week and I will finally get below 190 according to their scales and will reach at total of 50lbs lost. Even though I've only lost 44.2 since starting to pay weight watchers.

191

Up 0.4 this week. I mean really what is that? That's not even a half of a pound. That could have been my freaking wet hair for all I know. However when I got home from weighing in I did get my period. So considering that.... I think I did OK this week. Right?

Halloween has come and gone and the house is loaded with chocolate bars, which I have every intention of letting the kids eat as much candy as they want until it's ALL gone! I'll do my best to limit myself to one or maybe two bars a day ;)

190.6

Just shy of 50lbs lost. Did a bit more exercise this week, and really made better choices in what I ate. Not having thanksgiving dinners here helped since there were no leftovers :)

Saturday there was a Halloween day at our campground so that was a good walk, then Sunday I sort of took the day off. Ate a yummy bag of Zesty cheese Doritos and was happy that I could not eat the entire thing!

But today is Monday and it's back on track. My friend and I just spent an hour and 20 minutes walking the mall. It was funny when we were being passed by old people, but I highly doubt they did the 6 or so laps we did. It's rainy today so that's why we went to the mall to do our walking. And will probably continue to do that on the rainy days. It wasn't as nice though, then it is walking outside in the fresh air and the unlimited amount of scenery. But we'll do it again.

So I'm just shy of the 50lbs mark, and that will be half way there. I'm not sure if I'm going to make it down to 141lbs, I'm going to set smaller personal goals now and see how I look and feel from there. I'm just not sure medically that I can get that small. But it might be possible, I'll just have to wait and see. And keep working hard to achieve it.

Now if someone would only come and eat all my kids Halloween candy! We still have REAL Halloween to do! haha

193

Gained 0.6 this week... I have two words to explain that.....

Happy Thanksgiving!

192.4

That's better. I knew it was just my period that was adding to my numbers. But this week I'm going to try and walk more, drink more water, and do some more exercise. I've been a couch potato lately without the snack of course. But we're almost finished Stargate SG-1 we're in season 10 now.

Sadly I don' t know how grocery shopping is going to go. My husband has lost his job and I don't know what we're going to do. I have 26 weeks still paid of weight watchers, so I don't have to worry about that.

195

A very hard week
EPMS (that's Extreme PMS)
Woke up feeling crappy
Went to weigh in anyways
Go home and do some yard work
Get my period

Sucks being a woman

192

I have to tell you I was not expecting that at all. Lets just say that the Mc Donalds twice, Ballpark fries, hotdog (who can resist a dog at the ballpark?), and Nachos, the 12" subway sub to go with my French Fry Truck fries all in the same freaking day, I knew what I was doing I enjoyed every bite thinking oh so what if it's like a gazillion weight watchers points. I want it and I'm eating it. Sure a tiny part of me said that I'd do some exersise to work for it. But I never did. Well except yesterday when I walked to the school to join in the Terry Fox walk ( once around the field) and then back home again. But other then that it's been sitting on my butt watching the TV. However before when I was sitting on my butt watching tv, I'd be snacking on cheese and crackers, or chips ( oh wait I had some of those too ( reduced fat pringles) or cookies... oh wait I had those too ( chewy chips ahoy) but needless to say I haven't been really snacking while watching tv.

I do know, I feel great, I think I got the hang of this and it feels good. Now if I could only find my slider... anyone know where that went?

193.4

It's starting to get harder and harder to shed the pounds. I knew this was coming. I'm working on it. Walking a lot with my friend really trying to avoid certain foods. Next week I renew my membership. Amazing how quicky 6 months have gone by!

194.4

I don't know why... I'm guessing the fries and gravy on Monday got to me, and having ham two nights in a row probably?

Oh well. Try harder this week.

193

I can't tell you how many times during this week that I so easily could have made unhealthy choices. I went to McDonald's twice, it was purely because of laziness and not wanting to cook. But I went and chose a chicken fajita or a grilled chicken sandwich with a salad. I did my best to stay within my points and I exercised. Losing 2.8lbs in a week is very exciting, and it gives me just the boost I need to continue.

It's incredible the amount of energy I have. I have now lost 41.6lbs on weight watchers for a total of approximately 47 lbs all together. Yes I still have a long way to go. And sure it seems to get harder and harder, but I think that reason why I'm still going, is how great I feel. Well that and the fact that I'm forking out the money and stepping on that scale in front of someone every week. My membership is up on the 27th of this month. It's very tempting to just quit paying and continue to do this on my own, but I know that will not work for me. So I will sign up again.

I have had a LOT of compliments this week. Kids are back to school and I have not seen many of the parents since June (what's funny is I don't think I look much different now then I did in June) but they seem to think so. It feels good to get the compliments, but at the same time people do tend to go a little overboard. We celebrated my in law's 40th wedding anniversary yesterday, and a lot of family who I've not seen in a long time were there.

The cooler weather has arrived and this makes for a much more pleasurable walking/exercising environment. My walking buddy and I want to start walking again, and as soon as we can fit it into our schedules we'll do so. It was too hot the other day to walk, so we jumped in the pool and worked out for a half hour that way.

Have a great week!

195.8

Well as you can see, I'm up another 0.6 but really it's ok. Just so happens that mother nature paid me a visit today and handed me my monthly gift. Isn't she so sweet? I just got home from a week of camping. Did lots of walking and lots of eating :)

195.2

This was pure dumb luck I think that I only gained 0.6. I "took the week off" I know you don't have to have "off days" because you can eat anything you want anyway. But I in no way stayed within my points. McDonalds twice maybe three times, Wendy's, Tim Hortons donuts, fries, gravy, garlic bread, pizza galore! It was nuts. A lot of it was pure laziness and a lot of it was I just wanted it. Happens every month. Mother nature is cruel that way. But I only gained .6 which I know can catch up to me, but it's ok... it's not a race.. I'm still committed to what I'm doing and well aware of it all. It's not like I'm going to eat like that always.

I'm camping right now. The kids and I are nice and cozy in a cabin, and Adam is joining us on his days off. I'll be home Thursday or Friday or maybe even Saturday morning :) Depends on how good the kids are being. HA.. which means I should have left yesterday!

Ah well... it's the last days of summer can you believe it!

194.6

Stayed the same this week

194.6

Down again this week. It was a tough one though. Left over cake from Sunday when we had friends over. I knew I should have sent it home with them! lol. Going out for Chinese food... And more importantly the lack of groceries is what made it pretty difficult. But I did okay. I also fit in a bit more execercise this week. I really did not feel like it, but did it anyway. I've now lost a total of 40lbs on weight watchers! And 45 or so altogether :)

196

Down another 2.4lbs. I worked hard this week. I'll say it again, summer is freaking hard! Burgers and hotdogs on the bbq, because it's fast and easy and who wants to think or plan or cook when it's hot out! Potato salad is just evil ( unless it's homemade) and again... who wants to cook? Not me!

But when I think 240-196= 44 lbs that I've lost... I am a happy girl :)

198.4

Yep... I managed to stay the same this week. I think I've come to the point where I might have to work extra hard to shed those pounds. Which is okay. I know what I have to do and I'll do it. Summer is a bit difficult for me, and it's been so rainy out that I've not had much time to be outside. That and if it isn't raining it's too damn hot to be outside. But all in all I'm okay with this week and I know that 98% of that result has to do with the fact that my monthly visitor is about to show up any freaking minute now, and that always has and will always be an issue every few weeks or so ;)

198.4

Well a loss is a loss I guess. Even if it is only .2 haha. I'm happy with that though. Summer has been exceptionally difficult. And with Adam's new schedule even more so. I'm still up at 11:30pm when he gets home and since we haven't had the kids for two weeks, we'd just go out to eat when he got home. But the kids are home again now, and I'll have to make regular meals again. So I'll hopefully get back on track and try and at least lose a pound or two a week. I could also be slowing down. I've lost a LOT of weight, and I knew at some point it was going to start getting really hard. It's also been super hot outside and so there goes much chance of going for a walk. Or even cutting the lawn. But I'm trying. And I'm determined not to give up. That's gotta count for something right?

198.6

I'm finding summer really tough. Especially since my kids have been gone. I gained 0.8 this week, and that is because I've had one not so healthy choice meal per day. It's also because I'm getting my period soon, and it's because I really really like yummy food! I knew I shouldn't have went out for dinner last night. Then maybe I would have stayed the same. But I'm not upset about the gain. I mean really... point eight is nothing! I had a good loss last week and it's not a race. I'm going to take it easy and do my best that's all I can do right?

197.8

It's been awhile I know. Tuesday being Canada Day there was no meeting where I usually go. So I had a few extra days to work hard and behave. A lot has been happening here in my world that I've not been writing everything I eat down. I honestly can't remember the last time I journaled. But I have been calculating my points in my head. * which is pretty funny if you know me and my math* anyways... I'm back on track that ugly number two is gone again and I'm a very happy girl.

We're well into summer now and it's been rough. I like to snack in the summer. Chips and dip, bbq'd little potatoes smothered in oil, big fat juicy steaks on the bbq. Yum. but I've been doing my best not to over indulge. It seems to be working.

I'm going to have to change my days that I weigh in too. Adam got a new job and he's going to be working 3pm-11pm starting tomorrow. So when I find out his scheduled days off I'm either going to pick one of those, and or go in the mornings somewhere local. I traveled 15 or so minutes to weigh in yesterday but did not stay for a meeting. Which I really enjoy doing.

My children are gone on a two week camping trip with my grandparents * their great grandparents* so cooking has also been off. I do have to remember to eat breakfast though. I've been slipping on that one. Breakfast at noon just isn't good for me!

Look at the tracker above to see the numbers today.. cause I'm not even going to put it here!

I know that that awful number came back, but It's okay... I knew this was going to happen. I let it. And I'll tell you about it, and I won't worry about it because it will be gone again next week. * which will be next Friday as ww is closed next tuesday for Canada Day*

. Nachos
. 6 pieces of pizza and 5 chicken wings... ( Okay!! YES I know I'm crazy)
. Kelseys for lunch with a four cheese spinach dip to start!
. chips and dip
. Fine Kettle of Fish for dinner
. alcohol
. Doritos
. Dairy Queen
.special desserts made especially for us
. wine tasting tour
. Mandarin for dinner
.family picnic

30 sit ups and a short walk to and from the Dairy Queen. Does not justify any of that. I'm well aware of that :)

I had a friend visiting from out of town. No that's not an excuse. And No I'm not losing my mind.. I'm right back on track as of tomorrow morning, I'm a day late for my period so that has some to do with it too. I still went and faced their scale, I stayed for the meeting and am surprised really that I only gained ONE pound not seven! lol

199.6

WOW see that.. That there is the number ONE in front of my three digits :) YAY!!!! I can not tell you how long it's been since I've seen a number one in front there. I can tell you how amazing it feels. It feels flipping amazing. Yes I know that it's only .8 down, but still a number one up there :) See it! The other numbers will go down too. I'm not worried about that.. but that number one.. I never want to see leave again!

200.4

I'm down another pound! Yay.

Had my cousins wedding this week. I thought for sure I was going to either stay the same or gain, but I didn't. I lost one pound. I think that's pretty good after losing 6 last week!

201.4

I couldn't believe my eyes!! And at first it didn't click or add up. We were chit chatting and celebrating and the leader said I lost 3 pounds! She wrote down that I lost three pounds. After while I was sitting waiting for the meeting to start, I look at my book again. Last week I was 207.4 this week I was 201.4.. then it clicked in. That's not three pounds???... that's SIX pounds!!! I didn't believe it. I asked the lady sitting next to me. I asked my cousin when she came in. I went back up to the leader and showed her. I know the scale read 201.4 My friend L saw the scale read 201.4 and even the leader wrote down 201.4 but when she did her subtracting.... Sure enough.. she just did her math wrong! I was just so excited to hear her say down three pounds after my gain last week that I didn't even pay that much attention. But no I'm down SIX POUNDS!!!! woohoo! That is a totalif 33.2lbs... and now I'm excited to say the 7 or 8 pounds I lost before joining weight watchers brings me to 40 lbs lost.

Also... today I bought a dress for my cousins wedding on Saturday and I was SO thrilled when my friend L looked at me when I walked out of the change room and said.. Um.. you need a smaller size! I tried on an 18 and she went and got me a 16 and it's a nice roomy fit! Here's the dress. I cut my head off because my hair was a complete disaster... lol.. but here I am

+1.8 back up to 207.4

I'm not surprised at all, nor am I mad at myself. I knew exactly what happened and I'll tell you. It was the 2 pieces of pizza on Friday, then Saturday it was the crunchwrap supreme and supreme fries from taco bell * I just WANTED it* then saturday night it was the 7 martini's, 2 shots of grand marnier and blue somethingorother, 2 smirnoff ice twisted coolers, hamburger, two hotdogs and chips, and smores. I was camping and as you can see very drunk! Then Sunday it was the half of delissio pizza I ate! On top of all that I have my period and badly too. So there you have it 1.8lbs up in a week. Which really if you think about it, is not all that bad. I knew exactly what would happen. I allowed myself to do it and accept it.

Now... I just have to get back to buisness and that is that.

205.6

Yay for another two pounds gone! Walking really saved my ass this week. I snacked more then I thought I should, but it was a lot of healthy choices, carrots, home made tortilla's, salsa, but it's okay though, because I managed to stay within my points and I got a lot of activity points because I've done a lot of walking, mowed the lawn, and haven't really sat around all that much.

I just don't want to get too comfortable snacking the way I have, and I really really have to try and get all my water and eating in by at LEAST 9:00pm!!

207.6

Well I'm very happy with losing another two pounds this week. Why was this week any different? Well because I had a huge honkin grilled chicked sub with mayo and bacon on it, another night I had Harvey's for dinner, another night I had McDonalds, and I went to the movies and had popcorn WITH butter on it, let's see what else, oh mother's day we went to Applebee's for dinner. But I made healthy choices every time I went out (besides the popcorn and butter) lol.

also.. I changed my goal on the ticker up there. After speaking with one of the leaders today since I have passed my 10% she asked me to pick a goal weight that was in between the suggested weight for my age/height. So I changed it to 140 I don't know if I'll actually get that far down, or if I want to be that weight. But I'm going to wait and see how I look and feel when I get to about 150lbs. If I want to change my goal, all I need to do is see my doctor and get a note.

209.6

YAY!!! I lost another 2.4 lbs this week :) I not only reached my 10% goal, I surpassed it!! I have now lost 25 lbs since joining weight watchers! I feel great!!

From left to right is my 10% keychain, a ribbon, and a medal weight that has 25lbs stamped in it.

My booklet that they fill out each week.

25 lbs in 11 weeks!

212

UGH!!!! I needed .4 more to reach my 10% goal. I've lost 22.6 lbs so far!!! My 10% is 23lbs. So next week I should have a nice shiny keychain to show you all :)

I have a tough weekend coming up. I have Connor's birthday party on Saturday and we're hopefully going to the movies, I have a bridal shower on Sunday, and then Monday is Connor's actual birthday, but I will save the birthday cake for Tuesday after I weigh in :)

Wish me luck!!

216.6

I only lost .4lbs this week, but I'm not going to worry about it too much. I lost a lot last week, and I had two birthday parties this past weekend. My monthly friend will show up in the next few days as well, and I know I haven't been drinking enough water. But it's still a loss and I know I can't expect to lose big every week. I'll just be happy that I've lost 18 pounds total so far.

I have a friend that has been walking with me. Which really really helps. It keeps me motivated even though my feet are killing me. We walked for an hour and forty minutes yesterday and an hour and ten minutes today. What I really could use is new shoes!

217 lbs

Well that certainly feels a lot better then .8 :) I lost 3.6lbs this week! I really watched what I ate. More salads, and fruit. I tried my hardest to get all my points in in a day. Only managed to get them all in 3 days total, but I also made sure I got some exercise in. Now I've lost a point too!

I'm much happier this week then I was last :)

220.6lbs

Well thank goodness for all the walking I did this week, because if I hadn't I wouldn't have lost anything!

I haven't really watched what I ate this week. I was busy running here there and everywhere. My mom cooked dinner one night, my grandfather cooked one night, and a few other times I was either out, or had something I shouldn't have. It's much easier when you make your own foods and plan ahead. I'm going to try and do better this week. I was a little bummed after hearing I only had lost .8 but my total now is 14 and that's what I'm going to focus on. And I'm going to be proud of myself for not having three pieces of pizza at the stag and doe I went to, and the entire bun, and I didn't even touch the desserts! I'm going to stay away from Mc Evil's and well like I said.. walking. I've been walking every day and as long as the weather keeps co operating.. I'm going to walk!

221.4 lbs

Another 1.8lbs lost! I should say gone, not lost things that are lost tend to be found ;) haha. But WoW I am just amazed how easy this has been. I'm not saying it's always going to be easy. It's just I've lost 13.2lbs in five weeks and I've not found it difficult at all. I guess being ready to make this life change has helped. The fact that this is not a diet helps too :)

I had an okay week. I didn't necessarily eat all healthy foods either. I had pizza for dinner one night, and ate some of the kids Easter chocolate, and the worst part was I didn't eat all my points a few days in a row. I had my period and a nasty cold, so I just gave myself some slack and it worked out okay.

Now that I'm feeling better, I can work a little harder making sure I eat enough food, and drink all my water and get some more exercise in. I've not exercised at all this week. Well unless you count coughing and sneezing as exercise :)

223.2 lbs

Another three pounds down! YAY!

This was quite a surprise really. I thought I didn't do so good this week. Thursday I had McDonalds for lunch * chicken mcgrill and salad* I went out for dinner to a buffet on Friday night, Saturday I had a Roast beef dinner, and then Easter dinner (ham, scalloped potatoes, corn casserole, green beans and apple pie) also since it was Easter I had one or two foil chocolate eggs! But I drank all my water * three or more 500ml bottles/day* and I did some (not a lot) of exercise. I stuck to my points and apparently it paid off :)

I've lost a total of 11.4lbs since joining weight watchers! and close to 22lbs since I've decided I wanted to do this. Today I tried on four pairs of pants that I couldn't even come close to doing up and I DID THEM UP! I can even wear two of them comfortably. I have not worn those pants since before I had Connor. And the one pair I've never been able to wear, they were on sale for three dollars and I bought them anyway telling myself that one day I'll lose weight and wear them. I just really liked them. And I did the button up on them today!!! By summer I'll be able to fit into them if not have them too big on me and need to buy new ones anyway!

I have to tell you I'm so excited and people have been complimenting me all the time on how good of a job I'm doing. I really like that. It helps so much.

Tonight I bought coupons to go instead of paying the $17.00 every week. I paid $299.00 and got 26 weeks worth. So I saved... I think $140? I don't know my math isn't so good. So now I'm committed for that long for sure and I saved money ahaha! AND if you thought it couldn't get any better, I got a free cookbook!! Yay me again!

226.2

YAY ME!!! I lost 2.4 lbs this week. They say that one to two pounds a week is a good healthy weight loss. I'm sure if it's more that means you've worked extra hard, and if it's less not hard enough haha. Well my 2.4 loss was pretty good considering my daughters birthday party on Saturday. I even had a hotdog and cake! Then had cake the next day too! I know I didn't get as much exercise because my couch is so nice and comfy. But I made a conscience effort to drink all my water. ( three bottles a day) I am also very close to that time of the month so I thought for sure I'd had stayed the same. If not gain...But nope!

Tonight was my very first night going to weight watchers by myself. (this was my fourth week) I can't thank my cousin enough for going with me the first few times. So now I have the hang of it, where to go what to do what to expect. She was sick today so didn't go. But I was comfortable there by myself. I'm a real people watcher I don't mind sitting and not talking to anyone. I participated in the meeting and listened.

It's been four weeks, and I still am really enjoying this. I guess it's because in my mind I am not on a diet and I've already committed myself to the lifestyle change for instance at that birthday party I would have had a big piece of cake and two or three hotdogs and some chips. Not the one hotdog on a ww bun, and a slice of cake no wider then an inch. * which I really didn't know how many points that was, so I just guessed 4pts. The other night for dinner we had a stirfry, I had measured out how many cups I had, but I didn't measure the rice and the veggies/beef separately. I had 1 1/2 cups and I added that up to 12pts.

OH and one more thing. The other day I was wearing my jeans. These same jeans I only wore when I went out and as soon as I got home I'd have to change cause they were tight and uncomfortable. Well... the other day I was wearing them and I was able to pull them down WITHOUT undoing the zipper and button, and I kept having to pull them up all day!!! I haven't checked to see how many inches yet. I'm saving that for my 10lb weigh in loss.

228.6 lbs

It's amazing really how quickly a week goes by isn't it. I lost 1.4 lbs this week. That's a total of 6 pounds since starting Weight Watchers! If you haven't already noticed my fun little ticker up there at the top, you can see easily how much I've lost and how much I have yet to go. My own personal goal is 150 but according to what my card at ww says it's less then that to reach lifetime or something. I dunno.

I found this week a lot easier. I didn't worry so much about points every minute of the day. I ate what I wanted and just counted my points as I went along. I did plan meals. If I knew I was having spaghetti for dinner so for lunch I ate soup without crackers, and a sandwich. Last night we were out and it was dinner time and the kids were starving and I had nothing out at home to cook. So we went to Taco Bell for dinner. Without worrying too much about it. (remembering if I went a little over I could use some flex points for that day) and I had three chicken tacos (one was fresco style) which was only 3 points! The other two were 6points each, and I had a quarter of the fries supreme. I ate three because I knew that this was dinner and I wasn't going to snack later on. I also grabbed the nutrition guide on the tray liner and brought it home and calculated my points. Turned out I had two points left for the day! Which I didn't bother to use. I did some sit ups and leg exercises, and today I walked up and down our stairs 20 times. Not to mention all the snow shoveling I did this week. So I wasn't too worried about what I ate. That does not mean I didn't pay attention. I did. I wrote it all down. I just didn't stress over it.

I really enjoyed the meeting tonight. It's definitely good for the motivation. I enjoy hearing people's ideas. It's nice just to get out of the house for an hour too! We had a different leader tonight. I enjoyed listening to her. She threw out some good ideas too. Like on weigh in days.. don't NOT eat just to weigh in. It's not only unhealthy, but it's throwing your body off too. She was just fun and energizing and I dunno. I just felt better after leaving. This week I am going to be extra careful because it's just that time in my cycle where I want to eat more.

230.0 lbs

230.0 lbs!!!

It's been a tough week. And I'm amazed at the loss of 4. 6 lbs. I've felt like all I do is think, sleep, eat, drink points points points. I'm sure I've been quite annoying to everyone around me with points this and points that. But I'm trying to learn them. So that I won't have to think about it as much. I will just sorta know. It's not that hard, but takes a lot of figuring out. How many points in a chicken breast, how many in a potato, what about pork tenderloin. I'm having cereal for breakfast how many points will that take up. I've also had trouble eating up all those points. I'm allowed 29 points/day. That's a lot of eating.

Any other time I've tried to lose weight all I ever thought about was how hungry I was. Now I'm saying to myself.. I'm not hungry but I have to eat up all those points. I'm going to work on getting in all my fruits, vegetables, whole grains, proteins and dairy. Going grocery shopping will help I'm sure. We're half way into a pay period and grocery day isn't until next Friday!

I got a lot of great tips from the meeting tonight. Writing right on the container/box of food how many points it is so that I don't need to get out my slider or book every time. That tip caught my attention because you have no idea how many times I calculated how many points my cereal is.

I got four stickers and five paper clips. I'm thinking five paperclips because of the .6 ? I don't know. But how fun. Now I can hang those paperclips up and remind myself of the great job I'm doing. And well heck.. who doesn't like to get stickers!!!

My first meeting

Starting weight : 234.6 lbs

I joined weight watchers today! Yay me! I've been wanting to do it for a long time now. I'm paying the money. I'm motivated. I can do this. I will do this.

I'm lucky too, because two of my cousins go. It just seems to help. For me anyway. So I sign the papers, and hand the lady $42.00 and then go to the next lady and hand those papers to her. She welcomes me and then tells me when I'm ready to go ahead and step on to the scale. And for the very first time. A complete stranger watched and wrote down my weight. I stepped off the scale and she says and you will never see that number again. :) With a smile.

Then we went and sat down and the same lady who just wrote down my weight starts talking and I'm listening. It's so nice to hear people share about their week. Instantly I feel I'm not alone. It's wonderful to hear how many pounds they lost and I truly feel happy for them and I've never even met them. I listen to their tips and see how I could adapt them into my life. I look around and there's a few new members as well. That was one of my worries. I don't know why. I didn't want to be the ONLY new member sitting there.

Then off we go. I wanted to stay to listen to what else she had to say. Which was to teach me how to use my points, how to calculate them and so on. But I already know all that. Remember two cousins.. and a LOT of research on my own online. But my husband had to get to work so I had to get home to the kids.

I allowed myself to save points all day too. As my first reward. I gave myself McDonalds for dinner. I counted every point too! But I will not do that every day. Maybe once a week depending on how well I do. We'll see.

So that was that and I'm looking forward to next week. Right now. I have to get my butt to bed cause 7am comes way too early.

Beginning

I have been big for my entire adult life. As a child I was very active climbing trees, skipping rope, running, swimming, skating... I took gymnastics even. I was always one who did very well in track and field. As a teenager in high school I wasn't one of the most skinny people, but I wasn't fat either. In grade 9 I even lost so much weight I was 99lbs. However at that time I did not do it right. Throughout high school I was comfortable with myself though. Also in high school I met my husband. I was 15. Since then I have continuously gained weight. Now don't get me wrong I am not in any way blaming him. We went out to eat a lot.

By 19 years old I had gotten what I thought then quite big. I lost some weight and felt better. The years went on. And then we were married. Not long after we had our first baby. During that pregnancy I gained something like 75 or 80lbs. I did not have an easy delivery, and the weight even though I lost it all. It was just distributed differently. Things didn't go back to the way they were. My hips, tummy, legs.. were just shaped different. Time went by and we had our second baby. During that pregnancy I only gained 27lbs, and I lost that quickly, but was again left with a different body shape. Exercise has never been my thing, and now with two kids to take care of. I find little time for myself. Again... don't think I'm blaming anyone for this. It's my own doing. I'm well aware of that.

I turned 30 years old last month. I know my body is changing again. I know the older I get the harder it is going to be to lose the weight. I'm not happy with me and I want to be. I want to be able to run and play with the kids. I want to be able to cross my legs again. I want to be able to bend over to put my socks on without having a little trouble. I'd LOVE to look down and see my toes again! haha. But most of all I want to be healthy.

So this is where my journey begins. I last shocked myself at 240lbs. In the past two weeks that I've been trying to be careful of what I eat I have already started to lose. I weighed myself yesterday at 228 lbs.

I start Weight Watchers on Tuesday. I'm very excited for this. I like the points system. I've already been following it giving myself 28 points/day. I'm not sure if that's what they're going to give me, but I've been doing good on it. I'm not hungry. I'm eating healthy. I'm alot more conscious of what goes in my mouth. And I've already seen some results. I know I will do well this time because I am not on a diet. That's where so many people don't quite understand me. It's not a diet. It's living. It's living healthy. Without all the cookies, and chips, and junk. Of course I will still eat those things. Just not the whole bag!

I've decided to write down my journey here for myself to be able to look back and see what I've accomplished, to record my thoughts and my feelings and if you'd like to you can "wait with me"
and see what happens!

Weight With Me

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

217.2

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

216.7

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

219

Sunday, June 20, 2010

199.6

Saturday, June 12, 2010

199

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Same

Saturday, May 29, 2010

197.4

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Still here...

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Somthing to think about.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

195.2

Saturday, December 12, 2009

196

Saturday, October 10, 2009

192

Saturday, October 3, 2009

194

Monday, September 28, 2009

193.4

Saturday, September 12, 2009

194.4

Saturday, August 8, 2009

192.4

Monday, August 3, 2009

193.8

Saturday, July 18, 2009

I'm not lost

Saturday, June 20, 2009

190.4

Sunday, June 7, 2009

191

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

190.8

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

191.6

Saturday, May 16, 2009

187.8

Friday, May 15, 2009

I'm still here...

Saturday, April 18, 2009

187.2

Saturday, April 11, 2009

187

Saturday, April 4, 2009

188.2

Saturday, March 28, 2009

186.8

Saturday, March 21, 2009

187.8

Saturday, March 14, 2009

185.6

Sunday, March 8, 2009

186.2

Saturday, February 28, 2009

186.2

Thursday, February 26, 2009

1 YEAR!!!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

185.6

Sunday, February 15, 2009

186.6

Saturday, February 7, 2009

186

Saturday, January 31, 2009

189

Saturday, January 24, 2009

189.6

Monday, January 19, 2009

187.8

Sunday, January 11, 2009