i SHINE so BRIGHT :DD

Pwede bang tatlo yan na sabay sabay ko nararamdaman?

Seryoso ganyan eh.

Ok naman ako.

Promise.

Pero hindi ako ok,masakit.

Pero magiging ok ako. Syempre.

Kung ano nakikita nyo sakin, eto yun.

May kasama ako o wala, pag nalulungkot ako, nalulungkot ako.

Pag nanahimik ako, hindi rin naman ibigsabihin nalulungkot ako dahil dun.

May ibang bagay akong iniisip.

Oo minsan iniisip ko sya. Kung ok lang ba sya, kung gusto nya ba tong nangyari, kung umiiyak din ba sya, kung umiyak sya, o kung lagi nya ko iniisip.

Minsan naiiyak ako, hindi pag magisa lang ako, umiiyak ako kahit may kasama.

Pero bakit pa ko lagi iiyak? Maibabalik ko ba sya?

Siguro. Pero sana.

Hindi natin alam.

Pano kung hindi na.

Hindi natin alam.

Basta, hindi ako magmamadali.

Hindi ako magmamadali.

Kasi baka hindi nya ko mahabol.

At hindi ako makabalik..

You know how sometimes it feels like the stars are aligning to lead you towards your happy ending, creeping up on your unsuspecting self and taking you by surprise, and your happiness level is slowly rising and it’s not the Ohmigod-I-can’t-believe-this-is-happening kind of happiness, but the warm, steady, comfortable kind, and you feel like you can do anything? :)

Lahat yan galing sa book na pinahiram ni Maymay, noon pa lang college ako, nakita ko na yan hawak ni Dapdap, hiniram ko saglit, pero sinoli ko, kaya pala, kailangan ko pala syang mabasa sa tamang panahon. At eto na yun :)))

EVERY GIRL’S GUIDE TO HEARTACHE..

Ang story nyan,

Isang babae na galing sa 1 year and three months relationship. Tungkol sa break up nila. How to cope up, how to move on. Meron syang friend since bata pa sya, na kakahiwalay lang din sa partner nya, pero opposite yung reasons nilang dalawa, in the middle of her agony, that guy and that girl found happiness in the arms of each other. Parang rebound ganun, pero she really is happy with him. She just still couldn’t stop herself from feeling the bitterness ng break up na naganap. Then, that guy realized that while he was trying to win her, that girl was still trying to win her ex back. Which of course is masakit, so he decided to go away. Nakapagusap si girl at yung EX nya, she wanted to tell him how hurt she was and everything, the ex finally told her why he broke up with her, it ended well. She then realized how important her “friend” matters to her. So there, they accidentally met again, and the story goes on ♥.

Yung book ay may ibat’t ibang chapters, steps on how to move on.

Rule number 1: Find comfort in your family.
Rule number 2: It’s okay to NOT be okey.
Rule number 3: Know that despite your heartbreak, the world revolves without you, and does not revolve around you.
Rule number 4: Cut off all forms of communication with The Ex.
Rule number 5: Realize that anger is a waste of time.
Rule number 6: Distract yourself.
Rule number 7: Go easy on The Next Guy.
Rule number 8: Watch out for the aftershock.
Rule number 9: Know that you are not alone.
Rule number 10:Just live.

So ok. While reading the book, various things were running through my mind. It’s as if ako yung babae, and dinadama ko na ready na ko sa paghihiwalay namin.

Pero naisip ko na naman yung situation ni E, J at L. Pero kung ibebase sa story, E and J separated, L came into the scene, but E and L went on to the next chapter. But their story is another story to tell. haha, akin muna ha :D

So ok, I’m having a hard time deciding what to do next.

At natutuwa ako na option ko na ngayon ang makipaghiwalay. Ang galing ko diba.
Ngayon kasi iba na ang situation, tanggap ko na yung totoo na kailangan nya ko kaya mahal nya ko, I WILL NOT ELABORATE ON THIS. All of us have stories which we will never tell :D

Pero on the other side of my mind, pano kung mahal nya naman ako kaya kailangan nya ko? Pano kung iwan ko sya? Wala ng makakaintindi sa kanya? Pano kung iwan ko sya? Pero puro na lang sya? Pano naman ako?

Unconditional love? Putang inang Unconditional love yan! Haha!

Pano kung magbago na sya? Pano kung hindi nya naman ako kayang mawala? In this case, We’ll never know unless we give it a try.

PERO, pano kung kaya pa naman ayusin? Eto na eh, nasamin na eh, hahayaan pa bang mawala ulit? Hindi ba pwedeng irepair na lang? Hindi ba pwede ayusin na lang?

Pero eto na nga sinasabi ko eh, TAKE THE RISK. Whatever it takes.

Pano kung pag pinakawalan ko sya eh mas maging ok ang situation.
Pag naghiwalay kami eh mahahanap namin ang daan pabalik, at makakapagsimula kami ng bago.
At sa time na yun, better person na kami.

Or pwedeng makapagsimula kami ng bago, pero hindi sa isa’t isa.

Isa lang yan eh, kailangan kong gumawa ng desisyon,
desisyon na dapat kong panindigan. Na dapat kong harapin.

Hindi ko naman to haharapin mag-isa eh,
nandyan si Bro ;)

At sa desisyon na gagawin ko,
ewan ko. HAHA!