So I'm back!

It's been 12 years since I first started blogging and over 5 years since I gave it up. It's crazy how much can change!

I'm now over here... https://kdoll87.wordpress.com check me out.

Oh wow I can't believe how long it's been since I last posted. So much for me getting back into it.

Well now it's 19 days until my wedding. Everything is coming together now. I got my wedding dress luckily. However 1 of my bridesmaid dress's did turn up and the stores response was 'It won't make it'. They did refund the money but I felt quite angry as I had ordered it 6 months before and they never called me. It was only when I asked that I found out where it was. Luckily though we were able to find that dress in floor stock in the size we wanted.

I can't believe it's just under 3 weeks. I don't think I've really realised yet that it's almost here.

I will definately put photos up. I'm also contemplating starting a new blog from afresh. We will see.

In other things I am in the process of getting myself organised to start my own business. I want to become a Virtual Assistant. A Virtual Assistant is someone who is like a personal assistant but they work from home or remotely. They network and gain clients etc that they work for. Virtual Assistants arn't just restricted to your everyday administration work. They can be web designers and do all sorts of specialised things. A Virtual Assistant is great for a small company who cannot afford full-time administration staff. Instead they can contract work out to a Virtual Assistant.

I went to a Virtual Assistant Conference on Friday and since then I have just known that it's what I want to do. After the wedding I will be looking to start.

My goal eventually is to have enough work and clients to be able to resign from my current full-time job and just work for myself. It's all very exciting. At the moment I am designing my website etc.

Well I look forward to seeing what everyone else has been up to.

Well it's just under 8 weeks till our wedding. I am really getting excited now. I went to the wedding of my cousin on Saturday and it totally reminded me that in like 8 weeks it'll be our turn and it made it seem all so much more real.

We have been getting alot of the details ironed out and getting things booked and organised. My biggest biggest stress is ofcourse my wedding dress. Supposedly it's suppose to be in by Friday and I'm going to have a major panic attack if it's not in on Friday as it's only 2 weeks till my dress alterations...and I don't even have a dress....and it'll be hard after this saturday to find time to actually go and pick it up. I don't have alot of faith in this dress company after they basically yelled at us when we phoned them mid July when it was meant to be in and said 'It will be in, when it's in'. And they were really rude about it. The thing about having a solicitor for fiance is that he would cause them alot of trouble if they don't get the dress in soon. Normally I hate the whole confrontation thing, but I don't think companies that do this should get away with it. Being in the Wedding business they should have alot more integrity and realise how stressful it is for a Bride when her wedding dress (which was ordered in January!!!) is delayed. I can understand delays, but one's where it means you could not have it by your alterations appointment...is bad. Especially when it was booked for the dates THEY suggested it should be booked.

But I'm trying not to think and worry about that too much until after Friday. I don't know what I'll do if my dress doesn't come in AT ALL. Arrggh!!

8 weeks to go! It'll probably go really really fast.

I had a car accident this morning in the city less then 1km from H2B's place before work. I ran through a red light! :(

It was completely an accident. I don't know what happened but I just didn't see the red light until I was right on it. I feel so stupid because I only drive that way like every day. I went through the red light and hit the brakes just as I realised but it was too late. I hit a car coming through the intersection. It's true like in movies how time seems to slow and you can see the people in the other car and hear the crunch etc. It's really horrible. Luckily noone was hurt. The guy I hit was like my age and was so lovely and was so nice about it and came to see if I was okay. I was just really shaken up and so I was upset. His girlfriend in the car was also upset. We were able to pull up to the side of the road to swap details. And my car was still slightly drivable. It felt okay at first but then I could here scraping of the body on my tire. It sounded like I had a flat. Luckily I was so close to the apartment and was able to drive it there and park it in my carpark. I was really worried that H2B would be angry at me for running a red light because he always lectures me on being more careful etc. Although most of the time he's just being a worrysome passenger. But he is right, I do sometimes get too confident/comfortable driving and this is a good lesson for me. He was really lovely about it and just hugged me and told me it wasn't that big of a deal. He's really good in big crises'.

My lovely h2B is doing what he does best and sorting it all out for me. He's been on the phone with the insurance company etc so that we can get my car fixed asap. I am also really hoping that the police don't get involved. I only have like 2 weeks until I'm on an open license and if I get a fine and lose demerit points then I could lost my license. But they may let me appeal so that I just go on a 6 month probation. I'm still freaking out about it though. But h2B says that it likely won't come to that.

So now I am back to busing it into work. And I will have to bus it to H2B's place aswell. Hopefully my car will be all drivable again in 1 week. And I also have no laptop/computer at the moment because it had a problem and it is covered under my warranty, but ofcourse I have to do without it for awhile. So my life is very much full of drama at the moment. I suppose there's never really moments when it isn't full of drama.

Well after all the health problems that I've been having for the last 2 years, it is finally looking like I am getting better. Just to update (because I don't think I've mentioned it on my return). I had Glandular fever last year and even though I got better, I havn't been 100%. I keep getting sick and picking up bugs and virus. Luckily not Swine flu.

I have been getting worse and worse to the point where if I start to get back into my exercise routine, then I get sick again. It is incredibly frustrating, especially considering that I am trying to lose another 3kg's before the wedding. I went to the doctor last week and told him I keep getting sick and he told me that a blood test I'd had three years ago (that I was never told the results for) showed I had an Iron Deficiency. He told me to go and get a blood test. I read about it after that and they mentioned all the symptoms (including low immunity, weakness, exaustion, worsened breathing/asthma) and I thought 'That's it! Finally we're at the bottom of it and now I can get medicine and get better'. But when I went to the doctor after my blood test results he told me I had a couple other minor things but not an iron deficiency and put it down to stress.

I was very unhappy with this result. Yes I have been a bit stressed lately. But the stress is because of how sick I have been getting and I don't believe stress was causing me to get sick. It was more the other way around.

So anyway. Out of concern H2B rang around 20 different places to book me into a Naturopath. I have never been to one before and thought they might be all hippy like and ooky spooky. Lol. But it wasn't like that at all. I basically told her all the things wrong with me and she asked me questions and did a few tests and came to the conclusion of a few things being wrong. The main one being that I have no immune system and that since I had Gladular fever last year, that it hasn't had a chance to build itself up without another infection getting in the way. She also talked about a chemical in the body (can't remember what it's called) that normally goes to the brain and maintains stress levels. She said that when the immune system is low, it sends all that chemical to fight off all the infections, hence why I have had increased Stress, depression and anxiety. And even though I'm low in the main iron I am low in trans saturated iron and zinc and magnesium. So she gave me a few different things to take a couple times a day.

I have only been taking them since Saturday but I think it's already making a difference. I am feeling normal today. I have a bit more energy and I am feeling alot more relaxed and happy. I feel like I am very chirpy. Poor H2B has gone from having a depressed, moody and sick fiance to a Hyper, talkative, joke making fiance. He said to me today 'You're like you were when I met you!'. Haha. That's a good sign.

I have been told to take it easy and only do light walking for exercise until I really feel great. I will do some light exercise and see how I am feeling in a week. If I am feeling great then I will be able to ease back into my exercise-to-lose-weight routine. By then I will only have 5 weeks to lose 3 kilos or so, but if I'm 100% well then that won't be too hard. 3 kilos and I will be in my healthy weight range. Then after the honeymoon I can focus on losing the final 5 to be well within my healthy weight range.I

I would also say that having a positive attitude would be of great help.

I know I have talked about this many times, but I am thinking of looking for a new job. Things just keep happening at work that really upset me. I have been here for almost 5 years and feel attached as I started here as soon as I finished school and only 17. But like my H2B said, I need to be more mature about this. I can't just keep feeling like a peice of crap to them and they're never going to pay me what I should be paid. We could really do with an extra 12-15k per year above what I'm on now. Maybe I really have outgrown this place. Why should I be loyal to a company when they're not loyal to me. I work at a private company and and looking at going to a government owned organisation etc. The money there is alot better and it's alot more flexible and alot easier to work at if you're pursuing things outside of work. And you don't get as terrorized as I do where I am. And government owned organisations arn't as subject to mass lay-offs. Because the government like to spend spend spend.

So I think that there's no hurt in atleast looking for other jobs and seeing how I go. If I get offered something then I will cross that bridge at the time and perhaps my current work will want to match my job offer and pay to keep me. But I can't see that happening. And I have made really really good friends at my job and I know we will still be good friends outside of work.

So pray for me to have bravery and make mature decisions regarding my job / future.

Hello Everyone.

I am sorry I have not been around. I really have neglected the blog as of late. Thank you for your comments and for your nice comments and messages on facebook. I love hearing how you're all doing.

Wow. I don't even know where to begin. So much has happened in 6 months. 3 months until the wedding. The clock is ticking now and I really can't believe how quickly time is going. It is so exciting, but also scary because the to do list before now and then is quite overwhelming. Never mind, my fiance is a lawyer and so he's good at making sure things are organised so they go smoothly on the day. He did up a task document with person responsible and date due for each item. We are just working our way through it.

We bought a new apartment. The 1 bedder apartment that H2B owned was just a bit too small for the both of us and without a carpark was proving to be a challenge. So we found a great 2 bed, 2 bad + car and storage space in the same building. We put his 1 bedder back in the rental pool instead of selling it. Rental income is great at the moment, and as he was on a fixed interest rate, it has worked out cheaper to rent it and buy another property. I love the new place. I get my own bathroom. I have decorated it with my pink things. I can't wait until I get to live there after we're married in October. It has so much more space and a decent closet for all my clothes and shoes.

I have learnt to cook and now have a few basic meals under my belt aswell as 1 big cooking disaster where I put brown rice in my $40 tupperware rice cooker in the microwave for too long and it burnt through the bottom.

In other things. I've lost about 8 kg's now(17.6 pounds). I want to lost another 5kg's (11 pounds) before the wedding. I have like only 2 months to do that as I have to have my wedding dress fitting. The problem is that I keep getting sick whenever I start up my exercise. I went to the doctor and it's possible I have an iron deficiency. I have to get a blood test next Monday. I am hoping that is it so that I can get iron tablets and fix this problem. I have so much motivation and drive to lose the next 5 kilos but I don't have the health for it. I just want to be normal and not get sick every couple of weeks.

Sims 3 came out June 4th. I have to say that I was slightly disappointed with it. But once you play Sims 3 there's no going back to Sims 2. The biggest drama for me in Sims 2 was the load times between starting the game and moving to different lots in the town. In Sims 3 it's all open and no loading screens. And it takes like 40 seconds for the game to load up as apose to 10 minutes as the old game did. I think the thing that disappoints me is that even though they have these awesome customisation tools now, there's less objects and less clothing / hair choices etc to choose from. You can buy points and download some from the website. But why should I have to buy to download more content when I paid $120 AU for the collector edition when it came out. It seems like a bit of a rip off to me. But like I said, once you sample Sims 3 there really is no return for the Sims 2.

The economic downturn really hurt my company hard in February. We retrenched 10% of our staff (600 globally and 100 in my office). It was quite a difficult time. And it still is. I don't want to bitch and moan because I know I am lucky to have a job. And I certainly would prefer to work here then not have a job, but I think that sometimes Management use these times to boost their profits by freezing pay. This last 2 years I have been working my arse off to prove that after 5 years of working here, that I deserve to be recognised for the job I do and that I shouldn't be at the same job/pay level now as I was 5 years ago when I started. And finally it was looking like this was the year I finally got the pay that I deserved for someone of my experience etc. And then they go and freeze pay. So as you can imagine staff morale is low and many people including myself really stuggle some days to find the motivation and drive to get through yet another day here. It's depressing when you know your company is ripping you off. But ofcourse what can you do about it at the moment. Nothing. It's not as easy to find another job now as it was 18 months ago. Anyway sorry. I just had to get that out. That's the end of my bitch and moan about work. To change my work problems I am looking at starting my own Virtual Assistance business and work remotely for clients from home. It's my dream job, I have 5 years experience and I can start working and getting paid more on top of what I get now at my job. It's a good time to be looking at future goals. I am looking at being up and running and client ready either after H2B and I get back from the honeymoon or early in the new year.

I look forward to stopping by your blogs and seeing how you're all going.

I'm sorry. I have been very neglectful of my blog lately. I have been very busy. I have just realised that it's been over 6 weeks since I last posted. I am still alive.

Alot of progress has been made on the wedding. We have booked our photographer and hair and make-up. I have also found and ordered my wedding dress aswell as the bridesmaid dress's. The bridesmaid dress's will take about 4 months to come in and my wedding dress will take 6 months to come in.

I have also lost 3 kilos and am well and truly on track to reach my Goal Weight by the final dress fitting in August. 3 kilos down, 10 to go. I am confident that I can get there and I have set myself mini-goals to focus on to make it easier.

Jono and I went away to the coast on the weekend. We stayed with his parents at their apartment down the coast. It was so nice to go to the beach and swim in the pool. It was very relaxing. Jono and I took the Friday and Monday off work and drove down Thursday after work. My brother stayed at Jono's apartment and took care of the pets.

Sims 3 was suppose to come out last Thursday but I was dismayed to discover that it's be delayed till June 5th. I am very dissapointed but also a little bit relieved as this semester is the final semester of my Cert IV in Information Technology (web design) and I won't get distracted by the Sims 3. This is a good plan. This semester's subject is Communication. It is quite boring and I can see I will struggle alot with procrastination. This reminds me that I need to do some homework tonight.

It feels like it's been ages since I last posted. The last few weeks have been a whirlwind.

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR to Everyone. I have everybody had a happy and safe christmas.

I've had two weeks off work and go back Monday coming. *Sigh* I could really do with more time off. The last two weeks have been anything but relaxing. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining because Jono and I have had ALOT of errands that we have got out of the way. I got all the tyre's on my car replaced aswell as the exhaust on the car replaced. We also got the dog de-sexed amongst other many things. Errands like this are also rediculously expensive. Did I mention that weddings are also expensive??

Jono and I have had a good time organising various wedding things. We have the church and reception booked for the 24th October. We are also in the process of booking our honeymoon. We were quick to get on-top of things. We had the ceremony and reception booked a week after getting engaged. We don't want a long engagement, hence why we wanted to be quick to get onto things. It's all very exciting.

We're both very happy.

*Yawn* I'm very tired so I think I will go to bed now. It's almost 11.30pm. I will definately stop in and visit you all when I get back to work...It looks like I don't need to do Jury Duty which is a relief. That's another story I don't think I've mentioned. I was was summoned to a second ballot to be selected for Jury Duty for three whole weeks starting 5th of January. I was suppose to hear by today if I was picked and I havn't heard, so I'm assuming that means I got out of it this time.

I can't wait until this day is over and the weekend begins.

Work has been crazy the last few days. I've been working on this big defence proposal that needs to be complete today. It is briefly calm at the moment (hence the post), but it will be the calm before the storm. Everything is going to hit the fan this afternoon. I've been alot more involved with this proposal and been pulling various parts together. While I am enjoying the extra responsibility, it makes me nervous aswell. The lady running the proposal is fairly unorganised and that's what makes me nervous. When work finishes for today I will be able to breathe. And hopefully I'm not here any later then 6.

The weekend will be good. Jono's brother is getting married tomorrow night and so we have lots of preparations for that. Jono is best man and still has yet to write his speech. I got a new dress the other week and it's the kind of material that shows bumps easily and I feel like I've put on some weight since then and I'm worried I'll look bad in the dress. I probably not eat alot until then so that my belly is flatter. That will make a big difference. It's a blue cocktail type dress and I will have silver shoes, bag and shawl.

It's kind of funny actually because Jono's uncle is the CEO of my company and I'm seated at the same table as him....I'm really scared about that actually. The CEO scares me. I've only seen him like 3 times in the 4 years I've been at this company. He's always travelling all over the world to our other office's and things like that. The first time I met him like 4 years ago I made a bad impression. I had heard he was sticlar for Staff wearing appropriate business atire. So one casual dress friday I had to set on reception at the last minute due to the receptionist calling in sick. I wasn't prepared and was wearing jeans and a jumper. I didn't look horrible, but I definately was not 'corporate' enough to be on Front Desk reception. It was that day that the CEO actually decided to come into the office. And ofcourse he has to go through the big fancy 'special entry' glass door behind the reception desk to get to the Board Room and Managers area. He gave me this very disapproving look. It was that day, that I decided to go out and get a Corporate Suit Jacket to keep on my chair in case of Reception emergencies like this. The 2nd time I saw him, I was wearing my suit and I was very happy that I got to fix the first impression. I don't like being thought of badly by managers. Anyway that's my story.

We're staying at his parents house tomorrow night as the wedding is ages from my place and I don't want to drive back late at night. Jono get's worried when I am tired and driving. So the ease everybody's stress we will stay at his parents which is alot closer to where the wedding will be. I Believe also that his brother and fiance are having a breakfast the next morning. So there's no point driving all the way home when we have to drive all the way back the next morning.

Then next weekend it is my work Christmas Party. I am wearing a black cocktail dress. It's hard to explain what it looks like. But it will be a very fun night. This time of year is so busy with functions and dinners. I love it!