The last day of the year is finally her and I must say this year was indeed a good one, it had it’s own ups and down but still every wave was worth like to learn from mistakes, getting to know the meaning of life and a lot more, this year was something that I would say was much better and than the last four years.

Hope the upcoming year is the continuation of this and new and better things align along the way so that the life I manifested can actually happen in real with less stress and worries

Hope everything is good on the other side!!

The one thing I learned in life till now regardless of whatever happened with is just ‘keep moving’, the moment you decide and stick to it life is actually gonna make sense. No matter what happens in your life, just don’t get stuck there, might lose your job, breakup with your love, losing someone or anything just push yourself and allow yourself to suffer, to endure and to move on..

If nothing good is happening and you feel like a downfall just remember that life is preparing you for something better and something you actually deserve so just keep grinding yourself, work hard or smart work whatever.

A little closer to the end of the year and I must say this year was indeed a good comparing to the last I went through, I learned a lot of things about myself, the people around, and the life itself and life actually gave a second chance with the woman I was longing for since a very long time, the woman who actually deserve a lot of love from me, I lose her at a time when I wasn’t mature enough and literally ended up hurting her to which I deeply apologies for my sin.

Now it makes sense why didn’t it went right with any person and so, life was actually teaching and making me prepare for her and I’m glad things happened this way.

Now I’ll make sure that I don’t hurt her anymore and just be there whenever she needs me and be the best man she actually deserves

Hope everything aligns accordingly!!

What can someone do or should react when the person you love doesn’t reciprocate enough? When you’re doing your best to keep the bond going and the other doesn’t even ready for the Bare minimum and you can’t figure out what to do or so?

Every situation has two sides, mine and theirs and actually I try to put myself in their shoes and figure out why they’re thinking that way or doing that thing but no matter how hard I try to I can’t fully understand their side just putting myself there so I need some confrontation from their side which they aren’t ready for and I don’t know why. Aren’t they ready for that commitment, are they taking me taking for granted or am I just overthinking and just assuming things without even knowing their side?

I just want my mental peace to be in place and order and I hope nothing attacks it or gets disturbed by anything as I got that after a lot of struggles and I’m actually trying to attain more peace and calm so anything that is a threat to it won’t be entertained under any circumstances, so I just hope the universe aligns things and people accordingly and I don’t end up in any trouble or heartbreak again please!!

Okay here I’m to the end of another month and I must say a little more learning, little more better and more of realisations than August, indeed a good month I would say and I hope the upcoming days would be more better and exciting than this.

Hope the universe aligns things and people who are actually meant to stay, I don’t want any confusion or second thoughts regarding anything so whatever is not meant for me or doesn’t vibe anymore just keep it away from me. Whatever is really meant for will simply find me without any chasing,desperation or so. So let’s what life has in store and I hope it’s something good out there!

What might be next is now actually making me anxious like for real,hoping for something better and something I really deserve but the way it’s happening is kinda making me scared now or is it leading me to something worse?

It’s been eight days into September and the way it’s behaving is kinda unpredictable, I really don’t know what is happening, I’m just trying to control my mind, protect my peace no matter what happens and on the other side I don’t want to hurt anybody anymore unless it’s a threat to my peace so I’m just minding my business, learning a bit more regarding where to react and where to stay silent. Right now at this point I’m not committed to anyone, just matching there energy and making sure I’m reciprocating it very well, even in busy days or the days when I’m in no mood to talk to anyone,I hope I have this control over my mind and not be rude to anyone who is being kind to me.

Still learning the better ways to live life and whatever is really meant for me will come to me so I’m simply deciding to live instead of just existing!

Pretty much in control I guess where I just know how much to react,what to say and what to not still sometimes I do make mistakes and it’s okay, I’m not perfect and I don’t want to be either. This phase which I’m now I don’t know why is that happening, what am I supposed to do and how to react, I can’t even figure out if universe is testing me or teaching me a lesson or giving me something I actually deserve. I’m not sure which one aligns to the line so I’m just aware, taking it very slow, no chance of making any mistake which I would regret or feel guilty about later so just going with the flow and seeing where it takes me.

Hope it takes me to something good, something better and something I actually deserve and need in life whether it’s a job, a new place, people or anything that aligns with the vibe!!

The circle of life is actually real,’ things, people,situation comes back again and again, sometime to repeat and some to evolve. After reading a lot of books I have now started seeing life from a very different point of view and it’s actually making sense in lot of aspects.

No matter how hard u try something’s are meant to be the way it should. So I just need focus on things in my control and just live accordingly, I don’t owe anyone any explanation. People did what they did and instead of pointing out that shit I just back off without much concern or strain. As healing is meant to be, after a period of time I just got used to these phase of life. Alone,peaceful,no drama. Just me and meh.

Well I’m still learning,making mistakes, growing at the same time so hope life’s got something deserving, something worthy ahead!

Pretty much survived it after a lot of storms, unexpected flooding and so on and here I’m still alive but still a mess here and there. Being an over thinker isn’t that easy . Am I right?

The state of mind where you think every inch of the details happening around you and create the perception of the ‘what’s next?’ In your mind and even after being prepared for the things that are already rehearsed in your head, still ending up in vain. Am i too complicated to be loved, to be cared for? Being an over thinker friend is a burden for the others or am I with the wrong people al this time and if I’m then where are those right people who can actually understand me without much explanation?

At this point being completely lonely, I know I can survive this and move on but this time moving on means I’m gonna lose a few more people, the people who actually stayed the longest comparatively. After this things won’t be the same or maybe better than this or worse but one thing I know is the table I’m sitting right now is pretty much lonely but I can manage not because others left or I ghosted them but I don’t accept disrespect and I don’t want to fit in anymore.

This too shall pass but I’m afraid if it’s gonna be more worse than this or what.

The least I can do is just wish and hope for something good to happen and things get better soon and I know it will for sure. The good scenario which I have seen and messing up in my mind, hope those happens in real!!