- About
This is a little project for me to wrangle with the repercussions of conscious and unconscious white superiority and aversive racism in speculative fiction – for me personally and how it’s affected my ability to write. Along with all the focus I find in books about femininity and food (denial of) and other needling tropes. So having had this journal empty a few years (Oct 27, ’07), it now has a purpose.The Conversations I Want To Have; are about being a writer and artist, of facing the blank page and struggling not just with the need to create and wondering what to create – but with the saturation in society that tries to say that certain people have no need to be reflected in the creation; in that reflection of the broader world in the first place.
All my life I’ve been a writer. All my life I’ve dreamed about professional publishing. And then suddenly there’s been this block, this grief at losing that dream because I don’t want to be a part of, or bend knee to, hollow, crumbling institutions holding on to a destructive, exclusionary, oppressive past.
Now I have all these questions and puzzles and need to find my way again. And it’s nerve wracking. If I do find the path that helps me write and still feel good about myself and like a positive force in my community, will I end up having to hide who I am? Right now I highly doubt there’s a professionally published book in my future under the pen name S.A. Willow.
- Comment Policy
Don’t fawn. Don’t talk to me about how grateful you are to have this Learning Moment or how grateful you were about Learning Moments in the past. If you’re not at the level of anti-racist Masters Degree; this is not the space for you. Your comment won’t be published.‘Isms aren’t tolerated here.
Status Updated: June 21th, 2010
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