I have lived a life of sin and I am not worthy of you but I have read of your promise to those that knock and it shall be opened unto them and I humbly stand at the door knocking.

Lord, thank you for the life you have given me and may I please find a way to make you proud with what life I have left.

Your child,
Lonnie

My employer has had their fill of me and has put me in the situation that I now have to bring legal action against them. This is where I am torn it is not good to fight a battle with other human beings, but this battle would not be for just me. There are others that they wish to do away with also. Business is business but when you are dealing with evil, and I am, it has to be put down.

Lord please guide me,
Amen

Lonnie

Ozzie has been fighting the fight of his life but it does not look good for him. I would like to offer my prayers for him and I ask if you could please take a second to pray for him as well.

All I have to offer are my prayers. I believe in the power of prayer but I also know that our Lord has greater wisdom then we will ever know and he has a plan for each of us.

Dear Lord, Ozzie is a good man and I pray that your will be done here on earth as it is in heaven.

amen

My heart is heavy now, one area of my life has gotten out of control and that has left me full of hate and animosity.

I would like to ask for your prayers and advice to help me cleanse this hate away.

I know it’s not good for this to live in me, but I just can’t shake it.

Help me Lord,
Lonnie

I am currently being tested, I brought it on for the most part myself. I let my mouth write a check that my *** is going to have to cash.

Forgive me Lord for not talking to you first.

The worries are eating at me and I have lost both my strength and my wisdom.  My faith is barely hanging on.

Lord I pray for strength, wisdom, and guidance. Help me survive these stormy waters.

Amen

Lonnie

Matthew 6:25-34: Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life ?  And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, `What shall we eat?’ or `What shall we drink?’ or `What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Today I return to St. Rita’s Medical Center in Lima, Ohio. I underwent some testing for PVD / PAD artery disease.

Dorothy and I entered their chapel and I was overwhelmed at the site of this crucifix.

St. Rita’s is the place that saved my life. Every person that works for this organization I am indebted to.

I stood before this crucifix and tears welled up in my eyes because I felt the presence of God in all his glory. He chose to spare me and I need to figure out why.

After I snapped this photo I turned and there was an elderly lady in one of the seats. She came in while I was shooting these photos. I couldn’t help but notice that she had tears in her eyes’, I only hope that our Lord offers her the same grace I received.

God works in ways that are beyond our mental abilities, and we always question when things don’t go the way we think they should. Whatever life offers us, whether we know it or not is in some way in our best interest.

My entire life I have been a control freak, it’s hard for me to turn over control to anyone else but this is exactly what I need to do, turn over my life to God. I should know by now that he has my best interests at heart.

God bless you each and every one, as he has me,

Lonnie

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Every day we wake up we have been blessed.

All of the pressures of life are self inflected, we are not meant to toil and stew over every last detail of life.

Meet the needs of life and enjoy everything else.

Air to breath, food to eat, comfort from the elements, sleep when needed, and there are some that would argue the next, but I believe that love is required. We may need to spend the good part of the day working to meet these needs, but there will be time left to relax and enjoy.

Above is a photo album, this is my creative outlet. This is how I escape the pressures of life. I am at peace with God and life when I am lost in a photo of what my heart believes to be beauty.

Beauty is not the same for all, but I’ll bet that what ever direction your nose points if you look hard enough you can find something that you would consider beauty if you lose the conflicting pressures of life.

Find an outlet for your beauty inside and thank God for all that is given.

For the love of life,
Lonnie

I apologize if I have become repetitive but this blog however is all about December 14, 2007 and a matter of just a couple of minutes on that morning.

I have become all consumed with this day and with what some would say are a series of chance happenings. I know better, I know miracles when I see them.

Any little delay or different decision made and I would not be here typing this tribute to God.

This is the eve of a new year and as we all like to do I am reflecting on the year that almost wasn’t. I have started to call every day that I wake up one more day in the “Bonus Round.”

I don’t want to sound morbid but if you only knew how easy the transition from life to death really is it would both give you piece of mind that it is pretty much painless and it can also scare the hell out of you at just how easy it can be.

What a glorious year it has been. I am surrounded by love. I have taken a wife and this woman is the reason our Lord spared me. I have become like Dr. Dolittle in that I am surrounded by animals that seem to understand my every word and offer up their whole hearted love.

I went from just a few short years ago of being a lonely man that didn’t really care if I lived or died to being what I am today, a man that has found happiness and is scared that irony will catch up with me now that I am happy and take it all away, including my life.

This blog was started with a purpose, to find a way to help others. I have strayed in a million other directions, but they have all been inspired by one single thing, “LOVE.” My early post’s I always included what I thought was an important point so on this New Years Eve I would like to close with what I have learned over the last year to be the most important point of all.

Closing Important point:

Pictured at the top of this post is a little puppy named Matilda Lou, this photo is a symbol of what I have learned in the last year.

Surround yourself in love, drink it in, live it, anywhere and everywhere you can find it.

Make memories, share them, tell your story, hide nothing, we are all the same and we are all different.

Love – love – love – love, you can never love too much. Find it in a mate or find it in a pet or find it in a friend. Don’t be too picky, love is love, no matter where it comes from.

Dorothy, family, friends, and my little zoo, I love you and thank you for the love you give to me.

Lonnie

One year ago today you intervened on my behalf and chose to let me live. I want to tell you what a great gift this was.    “Thank You God”!

Amen

A visitor and “Internet friend of Maggie Mae’s blog” posted a personal discussion of her churches sermon from last week, “God’s grace” was the topic. It is amazing how the miracles in life work, because I happened upon this post at just the right time in my thought process for it to have it’s maximum impact on my life.

This is exactly what I received “God’s grace.”

• I had done nothing to deserve God’s intervention and most favored status. I had lived a life of sin and selfishness.
• There was no visible reason to expect a payoff for saving my life. I probably will not find a cure for cancer.
• I had not lived a life of peace, love, and charity. Almost all of my time was spent on finding ways to please myself.

“God’s grace”

Dear Lord,

Please allow me after one year of new life your intervention and most favored status.

I am still a sinner and not deserving of your grace. I am trying harder now to be a better person and I most definitely appreciate the gift of life much more now.

Amen

As we are all sinners and we all are allowed to draw a breath of life, we are all recipients of Gods grace.

I feel this is the best thing about the blogging community, both as a reader and also the fact that I get a chance to share my feelings. “We share our hearts, ideas, and innermost thoughts.” Sometimes this is just to get things off of our chests and sometimes we feel the need to help or educate. It may sound pompous or lofty to think that our written words may have an impact on someone else and the truth is you just don’t know which words may make an impact, but sometimes they do.

I would like to offer a special thanks to Maggie Mae’s internet friend for writing the words that have help me thru this emotional anniversary and to have a better understanding of our Lord.

God Bless,
Lonnie