Unspoken

Unspoken
Prayers can mean the most --
What's at bottom in my heart,
Deeper than words could ever express,
Most profound?

On another note, I’m seeing my ex-boyfriend, who is still my friend, tonight. I need to give him his Christmas present. There is an unspoken mutual attraction between us still. But I know he’s not right for me in that way because he’s kind of a commitment-phobe.

For JusJoJan.

Favorite Saying?

The SoCS prompt is “favorite saying,” and of course I can’t think of any good sayings right now.

Well, I can think of one: “Forget love; I’d rather fall in chocolate.” I don’t know if I agree with that, though.

I love Valentine’s Day. I just bought 100 Saint Valentine’s Day holy cards to pass out to literally everyone on or around that day. Romantic love or a relationship can be an idol, but love itself is the whole point of life.

Yummy Snack

Today I went to Paris Baguette with my friend Jen. I got a salted caramel pretzel cold brew and a salted caramel pretzel croissant.

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Not much about it was chewy, but it was delicious! And I just realized that you can see my last name in the photo. I don’t think I’ve revealed that on my blog before. Fun fact.

This post is brought to you by JusJoJan and some money from my wallet to pay for my expensive snack.

Intentionally Single

I’m kind of all over the place lately. Despite saying I wanted a new boyfriend in my recent post, yesterday I started reading the book Single for a Greater Purpose. I’m kind of tired of dealing with romantic relationships, to be honest. And things have never worked out for me. So maybe God wants me to be intentionally single. Thanks, God. 😑 That’s scary to think about because I do want a husband — I told God, “If I can’t be a nun, at least don’t let me be forever alone” — but it’s all one day at a time, anyway. I’m not particularly lonely right now.

In other news, I cut myself while slicing a bagel this morning. At least it is something to “offer up,” as so many Catholics say.

Star Shining

Star
Shining
In the dark,
Brightness showing
The way to the Babe --
The One who saves is born,
Only the Herods will mourn
On this wholly glorious day:
The Magi by Mary choose to stay,
To worship the newborn King, gifts giving.

I wrote this etheree this morning for the feast of the Epiphany. We celebrated it at Mass today, even though technically it is not until the 6th.

NEW Word of the Year

I forgot to choose a “word of the year” before the New Year started, but I came up with one this morning: my word for the year 2026 is NEW! That might seem like cheating — having my word for a new year be New — but it feels right to me. I already kind of messed up, but it’s never too late for a NEW start!

I am hoping for a NEW job this year, maybe a NEW boyfriend, probably some NEW habits (there are some old habits that need to go in the trash).

I don’t want to be a totally NEW person, since I usually like myself (not today, but usually), but I can be a better person.

Mindfulness

Deep breath.
Pay attention
To what is around you,
Not in the future, not the past,
But now.

Today being January 1st, we are starting JusJoJan, which I forgot about until 5 minutes ago. So I wrote this cinquain. I need its reminder.