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Redefining Self
On a search to find my religion and what it means to me
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I am a Muslim or so I’ve been told all my life. I know the kalima (pretty sure of that) and occasionally actually offer 5 prayers a day (GASP!).
I fast during Ramadan and yes on and off sometimes on Sha’ban etc because I have seen my father do so or because I’ve been told to. I have performed Umrah and Hajj and know nothing about the significance of what it means to be who I am…
Everything I do, is because I have been told to. Not because I know what it means and what it stands for.
I am a Muslim because that’s what I’ve been told I am, as are my parents and their parents before them. My family has always been Muslim because I’ve been told we are descended from Saa’daats (descendants of the Ahl-Al Bait May the blessings of Allah be upon them all). But I don’t know what that means.
And it has to mean something. It isn’t just about being born, living and dying. There is a purpose to it. I am distinct from so many, yet so similar. But what those differences and similarities are or should mean, I do not know. I am at that point where now something inside me is screaming with discontent and chaos.
I hope this blog will allow me to learn what it means to be Muslim, not because I have been told, but because I know…
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Redefining Self 
asqfish said,
December 8, 2010 at 07:12
Alhamdollillah! may your search be fruitful!