After having written out the post-that-wasn't last week I was reminded how the act of writing (or even better, talking) out/through the myriad thoughts rattling around always helps to force a linear path, and through it some conherence and understanding. My thought processes aren't really tangled so much as convoluted helix(ices?) at times, and forcing it external forces a certain amount of logic. Sort of like having a difficult conversation with someone in public -- it helps to prevent "unpleasantness." :/
So, blitzkrieg update:
Work is Suck. Unsurprisingly, my department got eliminated, and in perhaps the most meta/surreal act of my life thus far I processed my own severance packet early last week (this actually entertains me to no end). This kicked off 10 straight days of work, which will end late next week (although we did get a quick breather today for Thanksgiving). I tried to sleep in today but woke up at the normal time (lame), and then fell back asleep into some righteous anxiety dreams (doh).
So my milestones for the next 60ish days are:
Dec 1 -- Massive project due.
Dec 5 -- Job interview at a consulting company that works with Boeing. Fingers crossed!
Dec 17 -- Semi-massive second project wrapped up.
Dec 25 -- Xmas, and 30 days left at work.
Jan 16 -- I'z goin 2 Hawaii bitches. Yeeaw.
Jan 29 -- last day at work.
Jan 30 -- The Fuuuuturrre...!
I'm hoping that the gig at the consulting firm will pan out, but if not I'm starting to seriously consider packing up and moving to either NYC or SF, depending on job leads. Frankly I've not really enjoyed living in Seattle these last two years, and I'm starting to get a little itchy about the next step of things. Grad school plans have firmed up, but requite more work experience to make it into the program I'm salivating over, so the goal is 2010 with an awesome job and lots of studying in the meantime.
So there have been a lot of "sweet jesus I have NO control over anything and I'm about to LOSE IT" moments this last month, and when I'm not feeling totally raw I'm pretty bruised (emotionally, that is). I'm going to the gym to try to at least keep it together physically (and hey, the stress and gym-going has gotten me down about 5lbs -- I finally weigh less than I did at graduation!) but there's only so much that can do. There's more processing that needs to happen, and more sanity that needs to be regained.
I wonder what things are going to look like on the other side of all of this?
...made glorious summer by, um, well we'll just have to find out.
So, blitzkrieg update:
Work is Suck. Unsurprisingly, my department got eliminated, and in perhaps the most meta/surreal act of my life thus far I processed my own severance packet early last week (this actually entertains me to no end). This kicked off 10 straight days of work, which will end late next week (although we did get a quick breather today for Thanksgiving). I tried to sleep in today but woke up at the normal time (lame), and then fell back asleep into some righteous anxiety dreams (doh).
So my milestones for the next 60ish days are:
Dec 1 -- Massive project due.
Dec 5 -- Job interview at a consulting company that works with Boeing. Fingers crossed!
Dec 17 -- Semi-massive second project wrapped up.
Dec 25 -- Xmas, and 30 days left at work.
Jan 16 -- I'z goin 2 Hawaii bitches. Yeeaw.
Jan 29 -- last day at work.
Jan 30 -- The Fuuuuturrre...!
I'm hoping that the gig at the consulting firm will pan out, but if not I'm starting to seriously consider packing up and moving to either NYC or SF, depending on job leads. Frankly I've not really enjoyed living in Seattle these last two years, and I'm starting to get a little itchy about the next step of things. Grad school plans have firmed up, but requite more work experience to make it into the program I'm salivating over, so the goal is 2010 with an awesome job and lots of studying in the meantime.
So there have been a lot of "sweet jesus I have NO control over anything and I'm about to LOSE IT" moments this last month, and when I'm not feeling totally raw I'm pretty bruised (emotionally, that is). I'm going to the gym to try to at least keep it together physically (and hey, the stress and gym-going has gotten me down about 5lbs -- I finally weigh less than I did at graduation!) but there's only so much that can do. There's more processing that needs to happen, and more sanity that needs to be regained.
I wonder what things are going to look like on the other side of all of this?
...made glorious summer by, um, well we'll just have to find out.
grr
pleased
giggly
enormously entertained
thinky!