Oh Look It's Me Again

I hate winter. I never used to. I think it’s because we have mini Maxx. She’s at nursery now and winter is the time when kids are indoors all day and passing germs between themselves ALL THE TIME. So since before Christmas Mini Maxx, Mrs Maxx and me have been pretty constantly ill between us. Mini Maxx now has foot and mouth disease, which I have to say, I thought was reserved for cows,  but apparently not. Although I’m sure she already has mad cow disease, which I’m also sure she inherited from her mother.

Its a weird time again at the minute, as although I’m still employed doing this contract in London, I find myself in a sort of limbo. I can’t yet start to look for my next project, as I don’t know my end date here. I could be here a few more weeks, or another few months. And I want to change my car. I think I’d like a new landrover discovery sport, but I’m not sure I can afford it. If I could start a new project quickly after this one ends, then I probably could, but if I burn through my buffer, I cant. We also want to book a holiday, but if these are my last few weeks, I need to rack the money up. These problems are nothings in the overall scheme of life, but to tell you the truth, that’s about as dramatic as my life gets. Which is actually great I guess if this is all I have to worry about.

So here we are, yet another new year started, not that much different to the rest. These years are of course what you make of them. If you’re attitude towards a “new” year is that it’s all bollocks and nothing will change, then guess what’s going to happen?

Maybe you think that I’m going to start spouting about being able to make anything happen that you put your mind to, but I know it’s nowhere near that simple for most of us. I’ve been very lucky, in that I’ve managed to bumble my way through almost 2 years of having my own company without really having a clue what I’m doing. That’s not modesty either, just the plain old truth.

So I start this year with just 2 main goals for the year. My current contract, whilst having been extended by maybe 6 weeks ish ( my 4 week clock starts ticking when my replacement starts, and he’s not been looked for yet ) is now on a countdown, so my expectation is that I’ll finish some time in Feb. Therefore the first goal is to secure another contract. I have maybe 6 months buffer when I leave this contract, but I’d rather not burn it all, so my goal is to secure another contract by the end of May.

My 2nd goal is more challenging. Some of you may remember that a few years ago ( yes it really is that long ), I went into the recording studio and co-wrote and recorded 3 tracks. The aim was always to use that as a springboard, and eventually go back and record an albums worth of material. Well I’m getting itchy feet, and I have an urge to get back into the studio and finish what I started.

so there it is, my year planned out already. Just have to make it happen now…

I’m very sex starved right now. Even the below is enough to make me horny. Sad. Dirty. Old. Man.

Stormy Daniels

It’s been an absolute age since I was last here. Blog updates, it seems, don’t come easy anymore. Just like jobs really. I didn’t get another contract role until January this year, and that was only for 3 months. That finished at the beginning of May, so I’ve had 5 weeks so far at home again. I am more focussed now, and I think I know what I want to be doing, but even that hasn’t helped me get another contract role. But I think I just need to have a little patience, and it will work itself out. Annoying though, as this is the perfect time for a holiday, but I can’t because I don’t have enough of a buffer yet. I need another 6 or 12 month contract, and then I can start doing things without fear of where the pay check is coming from.

…and music ? – Forget it. My Dad and Sis are doing the rock experience again this year, and they asked me to do it, but as usual, Mrs Maxx hit the fucking roof, and so I ended up making some piss poor excuse why I couldn’t do it. I could do with winning the lottery and telling Mrs Maxx I have a new job, just so I can go and spend a few months in a recording studio making an album. 

But I guess life is pretty good. I took most of last year off without having to claim poverty, and I’ve already had two months off this year, and I’ve got another couple of months again before I’m panicking about having no money. Meanwhile I get to spend time with my little girl, who is now three and a half.

So there we are. Really short update. But words don’t flow properly. Haven’t done for a while now. 

It’s been so long since I’ve been here. So much has happened and yet so little. I took redundancy in March, and have since set up my own business, but I’ve only had two jobs, both from people I know, and I think I’ve now used up my friendship quota of work. 

We’re getting visits to the website, though not many, and we’re not converting any into sales. It’s difficult as there is no pricing on the website, as there is no “standard” type job in this industry, so everything is on a per contract basis.

Mrs Maxx isn’t sleeping, and says she is getting bothered by spirits again. It’s getting out of hand and driving her insane. Our redundancy money runs out at the end of November, seeing us just through until Christmas, but doesn’t give us any money for Christmas presents. 

I’m struggling and I’m not sure I can be this strong anymore. Just a sign that things are going to get better would be enough….

It’s a bit of a rollercoaster this job hunting milarky. As said previously, I spent a little time wallowing in self pity and feeling pretty shit about my abilities. But then things started to pick up and I had, at one point, at least 8 job applications going, where people were saying positive things. So obviously my mood got better, and I thought, hey, maybe people do want me, and maybe I do know what I’m talking about. But then I’ve seen each one of those opportunities slip away one by one over the last week or so, and now I’m left with about 2 or 3 again. And there’s no guarantee any of those are going to produce the goods.

I have less than a month to go, and I hadn’t heard anything from HR since our consultation last year, so I chased them up. I now have to go to London this week to discuss what happens next. How about just give the money ?? – That would be a good start.

In other news, our little girls nursery / school is under threat. When we decided to send her to nursery there, it was because the school itself was a private school. But they have been applying for free school status, and all was going well until about a week ago, when the rug got pulled from beneath their feet. Which is bad, because they have their intake for september, and now these kids have nowhere to go. Also, we didn’t realise before, but they can’t afford to run as an independant anymore. So upshot is, if they don’t get free school status, they close. This is a school that has been going for over 40 years, and has excellent reports. So the parents are up in arms, the school has been mentioned on Prime Ministers questions by Nadine Dorries, and the parents currently have a working group, trying to get a turn around by the government, which we all know, is highly unlikely, but we have to try…