Got Milk???

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Yes!!! City Market (Kroger) got milk! I was on that US highway yesterday, going after it. It was a “getting back on the horse” thing, too. Last time I went to Alamosa for groceries was two months ago I fell bringing my groceries in from the car. Totally my fault. I was overloaded with junk and not watching where I was going. I’ve made that drive weekly since I moved here, pretty much. It was nice to be back on the highway, driving fast, listening to music, and dodging semis.

I got the whole dairy parade of my life: milk, yogurt, and cream. I know, I know, not a big deal in the grand scheme of life, in the face of the copious scary news stories, but wow. MILK! I was happy. I was also happy to see the young woman who brought out my groceries. It hit me; I’ve been doing that for a long time — six years. There’s almost no turnover in the people who bring out the pick-up orders. We’ve been through a lot “together,” COVID, the start of their families, and egregious politics. So what’s community? Driving home, I realized THAT’S community, too.

When I got home, I thought about what she’d done — and not the first time. She’d given me the biggest allowable bunch of bananas; 7. She’d put my groceries in paper bags, a minor “no, no,” but she knows I find them helpful for picking up the dog shit. She has dogs, too, and we’ve shared photos. Every perishable item — from coleslaw to cream — had a distant “best by” date. OK, it’s a good way to keep a good customer, but it’s also very, very kind and thoughtful.

At the store, when I checked to make sure I had her name right so I could leave a good review, she said, “We all know your name. You’re famous here, in a good way.” We’ve talked about that, too. I’ve been there when customers were loudly verbally abusing her or another of the delivery people, just because the store didn’t have something the customer had wanted. It wasn’t the fault of the person who brought out the groceries, but they were taking the shit from the customer.

I was there to listen when one of these kind people learned that his yet-unborn first child might be born with a genetic birth defect. It turned out not to be the case. I’ve been part of a young woman’s decision to go back to university even though it was hard for her the first time because 1) she was helping support her alcoholic mom, and 2) she’s black. Not a lot of black people in the San Luis Valley. She graduated this past fall. Another had discovered my paintings online and loved them. He wears a beaded bracelet, and one bead is lapis lazuli. I told him about how beautiful blue paint is made from that stone and showed him some in one of my paintings. His bracelet also had a malachite bead, and I told him that it made paint, too. As he walked back to the store, he was looking at his bracelet. All of this is a lesson in the power of kindness, two-way kindness.

I drove home listening to Talk-Talk and thinking about the mechanical improvements in my life since last year. Because of the electric snow shovel, I can open my back gate. It made it possible for me to get the snow and ice away from the gate immediately in the recent storm. I have an electric garage door opener, so I don’t have to get out of Bella to open the door, which enhances my safety. THAT made it possible for me to get my groceries into the house without braving the Yard Perilous. I also thought that 1) in the hundreds of times I’ve cleaned up dog shit, I only hurt myself once, and 2) in the hundreds of times I’ve brought in my groceries, I’ve only hurt myself once. Do I really want to let these scary moments curtail my life, maybe out of proportion? I don’t think that can be good.

I have loved this poem forever and posted it before, but here it is again.

Anyone who genuinely and constantly
With both hands,
Looks for something
Will find it.

Though you are lame and bent over
Keep moving
Toward the Friend
With speech and silence, with sniffing about, stay on the track

When some kindness comes to you, turn
That way, toward the source of kindness.
Love-things originate in the ocean.
Restlessness leads to rest.

Rumi, One Handed Basket Weaver

Now I shall take out my Bear and hope no one else has a similar idea. We need our moment…

P.S. Someone asked “What’s an electric snow shovel?” Essentially, it’s a small snow blower. Here’s a link if you’re curious.

https://ragtagcommunity.wordpress.com/2026/01/30/rdp-friday-junk/

Dairytarian Struggles

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Local stores appear to have been facing multiple challenges with dairy products, including cheese, butter, yogurt, milk, and cream. Not just that, the store’s online interfaces keep glitching. It’s OK. I’m sure the storm messed up the supply lines, but not being able to find milk, the staple of a dairytarian’s diet? You could’ve heard me snarling at the websites of BOTH local stores.

Last night, I remembered the challenge of milk in Guangzhou back in the early 80s. OK, milk and milk products are NOT a thing with the Chinese, partly because of the genetic reality of lactose intolerance, AND because cows eat food grown on land that could be used to grow food for humans. Goats were everywhere. I didn’t hear of — or see — anyone milk them. They were little, black pygmy goats, just a little bigger than Teddy! The only bovids I saw were the beautiful and tame Chinese water buffalo, the plow-motors of South Chinese agriculture. They, pigs, geese, chickens, and goats wandered the streets of Shi Pai, our village — now a fancy suburb of Guangzhou (thank you divine powers for putting me in China when you did, thank you, thank you, thank you)

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Grandmother with grandchild on her back. Her buffalo and ITS baby.

The only milk we had in Guangzhou was Nestles powdered milk which was pretty useful, though not (IMO) great cold in a glass with cookies. Once in a blue moon we’d get the word that there was milk in downtown Guangzhou, six miles away, and if we hied hither posthaste on our sainted Wu Yang bicycles, we might be able to get some!

It was milk and not milk. It was BETTER than milk. It was yogurt, really, really tasty yogurt in small bottles. We were allowed 3 bottles each. The Good X and I would down one bottle right then and there, with everyone watching, of course. The Westerner’s love for diary was legendary in China, and we were an ambulating tourist attraction anyway. We took the other four bottles home to make…

Yogurt.

To do that, I mixed up a big batch of powdered milk with the boiled water we drank every day. When the mixture had cooled, I poured two of the bottles into it as live cultures. The first time I didn’t know for sure if it was live yogurt or not, but boy howdy…

On the Tropic of Cancer, keeping it warm was no problem. I also made granola using oatmeal we would buy on our ventures to Hong Kong, Hong Kong, that paradise of hot showers, cheese from Denmark, butter from Australia, cocoa, white flour, canned tuna, and mayonnaise. Seriously. And mango milkshakes at Mickey D’s. Yep. It seems to me we went every three months, basically to grocery shop. Yeah, it was a fascinating city, too, fascinating and beautiful with some amazing hikes and beautiful beaches on the outlying islands, but I digress.

I wouldn’t mind making my own yogurt again from powdered milk. It was good yogurt. I’ve explored the idea and the problem is counter space! I’d need to get a “machine” to keep the culture at the right temperature in this cold place. I don’t know if I’m up for that kind of commitment, but I’m thinking about it. As a dairytarian, this is a thing I have to solve, though really, probably it’s the stores’ problem to solve.

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Pastel drawing (mine) of a water buffalo on Hainan Island. You might have gotten the idea that I really loved these bovids, but I love cattle so there’s that…

Featured photo: Water buffalo family and their person walking past the market in Shi Pai.

https://ragtagcommunity.wordpress.com/2026/01/29/ragtag-daily-prompt-thursday-snarl/

Eternity

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There has been a lot to be hysterical over in the past year. It seems that the “powers” want it that way. Amping up hysteria keeps the attention where, uh, some unnamed person wants it, you know, king — or daddy (🤮) — of the news cycle even at a very high, very immoral cost. Like everyone else I know, I’ve thought a lot about it and figured some stuff out. I don’t want to share it, though, because my thoughts — though not hysterical — are pretty irrelevant. We all approach everything from what we know, and sometimes we don’t even KNOW what we know.

Yesterday, my Bear and I escaped the ambient hysteria pretty early. The temps were low — not even 20 F/-7 C — but we like it like that, particularly if the sun in shining and it was.

As we arrived, a Marsh Hawk was flying low, hunting. It might have found something because I could see some small varmint tracks where there was snow and hiding places. The Refuge did not appear to have gotten much of the white stuff — that’s kind of normal considering the double rain shadow in which this valley sits. Bear still found a couple of spots to roll in to her satisfaction — and she’s easy-going. I joke around with myself that when Bear and I are out there “climbing,” she climbs lead because 1) she has four feet and 2) they have crampons she can implement if necessary. Of course, our mountain is a flat, gravel road, but we’re open-minded. The altitude is decent, though. 7500 feet/2300 meters.

Because Bear is what she is, and because she’s an old dog, we didn’t hurry. My phone is going to tell me my walking steadiness is “very low,” and we did only walk 1.9 mph, but considering that it was an ascent, that’s pretty good (haha).

What I love about walking with Bear — besides everything — is the focus is on BEING there. Yesterday’s walk was that. There was a moment, as I looked at the ring of snowy mountains, felt the morning sun on my face, my dog leaning against me as she paused to rest? For pats? In appreciation? I don’t know, but when she does it, I surrender completely. “Look at this, Sweet Girl. It’s perfect. The mountains, the sun, the cold, the sky, everything, and we’re here. Oh, Bear, it’s perfect.” I leaned down and wrapped her in a hug. She loves that.

We were suspended in eternity — only for a moment, but maybe that’s what eternity is, moments like that, in the beauty of nature with a kindred spirit. I don’t think I want any other kind of eternity.

To see a world in a grain of sand
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand
And eternity in an hour.

William Blake, “Auguries of Innocence”

Still, I’m very sad and scared about the situation. Last night it hit me very hard, and I kind of lost it. Bear — sensing my emotions — came and stayed beside me where I could feel her presence and hug her if I wanted to. Dogs have an uncanny sensibility in any case, but in my life with dogs no dog has been quite like this big, white, livestock guardian dog. The traits she possesses are breed traits, though all dogs have a sense of empathy. I’ve seen videos of livestock guardian dogs feeding orphaned baby goats along with their own litter of puppies and calming terrified lambs. I guess for Bear, last night, I was one more grieving lamb who’d lost its mother. That was fine with me. But the lesson? And there is one — love can fix things. Malice, sadism, egoism, and hatred break them.

https://ragtagcommunity.wordpress.com/2026/01/28/rdp-wednesday-hysterical/

Meditation on the passing of time…

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I’ve been watching Don Matteo, an Italian cop show shot in 2000. When I started watching, I thought it was from the 80s or something. It looks so OLD. But no…

2000?!! WHAT?

Then I thought, “Wow, that was 26 years ago. What was going on?”

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Well, my friend Sally (San Diego) was freaking out about Y2K and hedging her bets against the apocalypse. She’d built a victory garden in her yard and a barrel to catch rain in case the water system broke down. “How do I get the water out, Martha?”

“Put a tap near the bottom, Sal.”

“Wow, you know things!”

I went to Italy — a trip that didn’t turn out to be the trip I’d signed up for. Still, it had its points — many of them. Here’s one…

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Vernazza

I got my job at San Diego state that fall after I returned from Italy and learned that my boss at San Diego City College had forgotten to schedule me for my usual Saturday class. SDSU hired me to teach Rhetoric and Writing. THAT was the BEST thing that ever happened to me. Because of it I have a pretty good retirement and excellent health benefits.

My computer used floppy disks. I was fighting the idea of getting a cell phone. I just didn’t want one. As for the Internet? I had a Yahoo email address and dial up Internet at home.

Then I thought, “If 2000 looked like this TV show, what did the 80s look like?”

Then I thought of a friend in her 50s who has a niece who’s 30-something with kids. I could be a great-grandmother. WTF???

What did I do for fun? I ran, hiked, hung out with friends, wrote a novel, taught 7 classes — I dated???? OK, not often or well, but I did. I was only 48 years old and pretty damned cute.

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Pinzolo, Italy, 2000

2000 WAS a long time ago!!!! And… it was one hell of a peregrination!


Quotedium update: the watch arrived. It was easy to set up. I will have to change cell phone companies, but that’s OK. It has GPS and other emergency features that my other watch didn’t have. I guess I like it fine, so far. I ordered groceries and realized that being stuck in one’s ways is counterproductive. I’m happy with how it worked out. I realized that since my accident last year, I hold on pretty tightly to things that are certain. That’s no way to live because your store might not have milk, but you have half a gallon and change. Get over yourself, Martha.

https://ragtagcommunity.wordpress.com/2026/01/27/rdp-tuesday-peregrination/