We were so excited then shortly finding out we were pregnant we had another surprise of having twins!!! I was excited and scared at the same time, knowing that twins would be high risk. I had a very healthy pregnancy didn’t get sick once. We went to the doctors at 20 weeks to find out what the sexes were. We found out we were having a boy and girl, couldn’t get more perfect than that.

However, 5 minutes later the doctor looked at my cervix and our world came crushing down, my cervix was extremely short and was advised to get an emergency cerclage which stiches my cervix shut, I was put on bed rest and a week later after the surgery my cervix shortened even more and the contractions started.

I was hospitalized last February and was in there for a few weeks when I developed an infection (most likely from the emergency cerclage) and the only way to cure the painful infection would be to remove the cerclage and and deliver the babies since the infection was in the amniotic sac.

I didn’t really comprehend what was going on my babies were at 23 weeks and 5 days and were doing so good but my body couldn’t protect them. They cut the cerclage and I was already 6cm dialated, I delivered Sean and Grace shortly after. They were not alive when I delivered them on March 14th 2013( a week before my 32nd birthday).

We were told if the infection went any further I would have ended up needing a hysterectomy and that the infection did get into both placentas. We were also told I could never carry multiples again.

After months of mourning (still are), we went to a new fertility doctor who suspected I might have endometriosis (which was never said by other doctor) so after surgery they removed endometriosis and gave us a few months to try on our our to no avail.

And here we are January 20th, 2014 we are taking a gamble and doing IUI again since we cannot afford IVF, I am in the two week wait and cannot believe I am doing this all over again. I am scared and excited especially knowing I will need another cerclage this time earlier on where its not an emergency.

I just finally needed to share my story, I’ve been going on sites reading peoples stories of infertility, loss and both. But your story inspired me to share, so thank you for you sharing you story with me.