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Bring it on

I love my daughters smiles.   She is so beautiful, I can’t believe the bond I have with her already, and I know it is just going to keep on growing!
Everytime she smiles at me or coos while making eye contact with me I could just explode, she is so precious!

I am LOVING being a mom lately.  It has its challenges, and 90 percent of the time I am worn out, but the joy I’m feeling is ridiculous.

I can’t believe that I missed out on most of these things the first time around.  I know I am alot more relaxed with her, less uptight or worried about doing everything perfectly.. or being the perfect mother.

I’m just extremely thankful for my gift … i know for sure that I don’t deserve it.  No matter how good or bad of a mom I am, it doesn’t make me any more worthy of being given this precious life to look after.

Now that my babygirl is 3 weeks old, I think it is about time that I document her birth story.
My day on November 13th started out a tad bit rushed as I was trying to get out for a 10:20 doctors appointment all the way over at NAS JAX.  It was my normal scheduled 38 week appointment.  Sean had duty so he was unable to come to my appointment and I had a slightly cranky goober that seemed to have a hidden agenda to not allow me (for once) make it to a doctor’s appointment on time.  But despite the delay, the poopy diaper, the whining and the long drive, I was impressed that we arrived at my appointment only 10 minutes late.
Shame that the receptionist at the OB clinic was not nearly as impressed with my accomplishment of arriving in one piece as I was.  She ignored my worn and weary expression and simply told me I was late, and was going to have to reschedule my appointment.  I’m not going to lie, I nearly cried.  I was feeling exasperated.
I agitatedly left the naval hospital, stopped to get some gas on base and then headed out for the drive home.  Just as I pulled out of the gate my cell phone rang.  It was receptionist Glinda, informing me that if I could turn around and come back I could still have my appointment with the doc.
Good thing because when I finally made it into the doc and she checked my cervix she started making all kinds of shocked statements.. “Oh!” “wow!”  Hesitantly I asked her…”whhatt?…”  What do you know my cervix was dilated 5 cm and she sent me straight up stairs to the fifth floor to labor and delivery.  I was still in denial at this point and just did not believe that the time could actually be here for me to meet my daughter.  The next three hours were a crazy experience.  Jacob was petrified of the doctors doing anything to me, taking my blood or hooking me up to monitors.  He was screaming in horror “Mommy, I’m scared!  Mommy, I love you!” over and over again.   The poor kid had a poopy diaper and hadn’t been fed since breakfast.  The doctors were doing anything they could to appease him, which meant I got to watch Barney while I was in labor.. (not recommended), and Jacob ate about 4 lollypops that day. I remember one of the doctors trying to ease my mind by telling me, don’t worry if it gets to be time to push we will watch him in the hall for you!!!  That’s when I starting feeling a little panicky, I was NOT going to birth this baby on my own while my son was being watched by strangers in the hallway!  Luckily eventually Boyd came to save the day and took Jacob home, and I had about an hour wait after that point until Sean finally got there.  He was busy getting out of work and stopping at home to get our bags.  He was really really excited to say the least… Everytime he called he sounded soo excited.  very cute.
Once Sean got there my labor slowed down and I seemed to be stuck at 6 cm and not making any new progress.  Sean and I went for a walk around the hospital hoping to help me progress.  We went to the cafeteria, as I was starving to death at this point, just so I could lust over the food.  When we got back I asked them to recheck my cervix, but still no progression so they broke my water.  I had still had no pain meds at this point, but after they broke my water things got rougher and I made the fabulous decision to get the epidural.  The epidural gave me a nice 3 hr break with absolutely no pain, but then I started getting dizzy and my blood pressure dropped to 70/30.  They had to stop the epidural and as soon as pain started becoming a problem again it was push time.  The pushing ended up just as painful as if I hadn’t had the epidural, but it was ok because I enjoyed the 3 hr break from pain so I wasn’t fully exhausted by the time I had to push.  When she started coming out Sean said something about her having dark hair, like I thought she would. I started blubbering and crying and could barely push during my next contraction because I was so emotional.  When she came out and they placed her up on my chest I never cried so hard for joy in my life! I was so overwhelmed with  so much love for her and we bonded right away!  I know she was not as cute as I probably thought, all smooshy and wet, but all I could think was she is soo beautiful!  and I remember just saying that over and over again.

She weighed 7 lbs and was 19 inches long.  I am in love with her dark hair, long eyelashes and chubby little thighs..  I love this girl to death.

Still can’t believe she is here.  God is pretty amazing.

Babygirl is working on making her way into the world!  Thought I would tell you about her 1st try.
Nov 5 around 10 pm I started contracting, and contracted every 8-10 mins all night til the morning.  In the morning we went for a walk to see if the contractions would get closer together (a way to tell if it is true or false labor).  They did!  They got to be 7 minutes apart and then 5 minutes apart.   But then as soon as I got in the shower to get ready to go to the hospital they stopped all together for near an hour.  CONFUSING!
So I figured it couldn’t be anything real since it seemed to stop.
Then they started back up again but not nearly as consistent, but I had a low dull backache, which apparently I found out from a few people that some people experience contractions as a backache. . . So I was worried that I might be having contractions and not really be able to feel them.   We decided to just go in, and get checked and find out what was going on with babygirl.
I figured if I was having that much action in my uterus I better make sure she was ok.
So we went in and got hooked up to the monitors. They said I am 2 1/2 cm dilated, and that she is already really low which is probably what explained my lower back pain.  She is in -2 position.  Her heart rate and movements were perfect so she is fine and dandy in there.  The doctors said I could walk around a bit and try to see if anything happened  or just go home and expect to be coming back sometime soon.
“sometime soon” is just torture!
I am so excited to see our little girl.  It was kinda nice getting a practice run at the whole thing.  I think it got alot of my nerves out.  Next time we go I will feel like a pro.  I never wanted to be that girl that has the “false alarm”, but I REFUSE to be that girl that goes in twice on false alarms!  Sean and I were joking because I said next time I will not go in until I am for sure that she is on her way out.  Sean will be like “Krista I can see the head we NEED to go in!” and I will still be in denial and wont go in!
Oh boy, hopefully my post titled 2nd try will have a picture of my baby bean and not be another story of a failed attempt.

I am working on putting together a special day for Jacob.

I love the little guy so much, and I know he is about to go through a big transition.  From our only child to the big brother of a needy little newborn.  I am SO proud of everything that he has been accomplishing lately, just the normal 2 year old stuff, but it is amazing to watch him grow.
I want to plan a WHOLE DAY dedicated to everything Jacob!  Every meal, and every activity completely scheduled around him.

If you have any good ideas, based on what Jake likes, let me know-

Question-  what provider do you use for TV and or internet?  Who have you found to be the cheapest?  We were lucky enough to have TV and internet included at our townhome and are now being pretty shocked by the costs as we are looking for a cable and internet provider.  Is $110 a month really the best there is!?!?!?  That’s ridiculous..

Just wanted to let you know that I am really enjoying our new house… Although everything is still in complete disorder, and there is still much work to be done I know we are going to have lots of great times here, and I already just love coming home to this place.
What I like the most about this place is the complete silence at night!  I never thought our other house was noisy, until we spent our first night here.  ABSOLUTE dark, and ABSOLUTE silence.  It made for a good first nights sleep!  Actually my first night sleeping here was the first time I slept straight through the night in probably at least a month.  (didnt even have to get up to pee!) WOO HOO !  If you are a pregnant mom you know that is something to rejoice over.

5 weeks to go until our nameless little baby girl arrives!  I am so o  o  o ready for her to come, but also can’t believe she is almost here.  I have a feeling she will come early, because I have been contracting so much, and she feels so low to me.  Looking forward to my apt on the 28 to find out if there is any progress going on down there.
I can’t believe I am going to have 2 kids.  Sometimes I still look at Jacob and go wow, I am that human beings MOM!??!?!? I wonder if it is something you ever get over.

Painted the baby girl room today!   The color is called sprinkle… not like the kind on your ice cream… more like a sprinkle of TEALY RAIN!  I love it!  It looks really pretty, girly, and nice.
Tomorrow I think that I will do Jacob’s room!  I am nesting x 10~~~

I had such a great day today.  Let’s recap:

Perfect weather
Boating with my favorite floridians
walking around at the art show
20 minute catnap
Baked Ziti dinner date with my favorite son
Finger painting
Jake and I set up the baby swing over at the new house and put a lot away (starting to feel more like home over there which is good! Until tonight I still felt awkward there.)

And now I am eating a bowl full of whip cream with cherries on top… like a HAPPY HAPPY FATTY!