
that’s my hubby. he’s a cutey, huh!? he likes to act like a kid sometimes. i like that about him.
right now, that hubby of mine is somewhere far away… i don’t know where. i spoke to him on sunday afternoon (about 4pm my time, here in charlie-town, about 10pm his time, in germany)… his crew was set to fly “down range” (in layman’s terms: to the desert– iraq, afghanistan, etc.) and return in the early morning hours today. i expected to have an email from him this morning when i woke up… and i hoped that it would say “i’m coming home on wednesday”. i had no such email this morning… and no such email this evening. i have no idea where he is and i have no solid idea of when he’ll be home. i am strangely okay with this. don’t get me wrong. i love my husband VERY much. and i miss him TREMENDOUSLY. there are a three reasons why i am okay with not knowing the whereabouts of my air force pilot…
- i am choosing to trust (by God’s grace and strength) that he is safe. and believing that “no news is good news”.
- justin is the most trustworthy man i have ever known.
- i have dreamed of being “an air force wife” for a very long time. i believe God wove this into who He has made me to be. He knew i’d be here one day, and He wanted me to be ready for it.
i am incredibly grateful for the man i married. it is no small thing that i have full confidence in him. it is an incredible testament both to God’s grace and to the kind of man justin is, that i can sit on our couch watching the celtics/lakers game, 54 hours after the last time i spoke to him–the day before he flew into a war zone, and say that i am peaceful.
this will not be the last time that i have no idea where my husband is. this is not the last time that his return will be uncertain. my prayers will always be for his safety and for the grace to take it one day at a time. i have no doubt right now (and i can only hope and pray that i never will) that every moment of not knowing is worth it… worth have justin, my best friend, as my husband. i am so proud of him.