When I started The Rambler back in 2003, blogs were a relatively new phenomenon. They weren’t yet commercialised, they weren’t homogenised, they had a Wild West feel to them. I came to them slightly naively, searching for commentary on the Iraq War, which was then just beginning its ghastly unfolding. Most of what I read then, under banners variously libertarian and/or anti-mainstream, was, I now see, a kind of proving ground for what would become the American alt-right, and then …
But at the same time I found a community of music bloggers, many of them centred around London’s nascent grime scene. The writing ranged from the scattergun realism of heronbone and somedisco, to the deep intellectualism of Simon Reynolds and Mark Fisher, to the concrete poetry of Ian Penman. I loved all of it and wanted to be a part of it.
So I started The Rambler, first on Blogger, when that was still a thing, and then a little later here on WordPress. The name was a gag: I was studying for my PhD and at some point would become a Dr Johnson, like the great Samuel. In search of some reflected glory, I looked up the names of the various journals he had started and picked The Rambler. It seemed to suit the ad hoc, stream of consciousness approach to what I thought I was doing. Of course, when I got married a year later and took my wife’s surname, it stopped making sense. But it stuck.
Within a few months of starting, as I found my voice writing about modern composition rather than grime and dubstep, I began to diverge from that original community, though I still owe it a huge debt for those first seeds of legitimation and for the inspiration to begin at all. Now, blogs about contemporary and classical concert music were beginning to spring up – Kyle Gann’s blog had got there just ahead of mine, but other critics were beginning to enter the scene: Alex Ross, Steve Smith, Jessica Duchen, as well as other independent/amateur efforts like mine (shoutout here to to the long-running aworks).
I owe most of my writing career to The Rambler. It gave me community, visibility, a little bit of authority, maybe. The existence of both Music after the Fall and The Music of Liza Lim can be traced pretty directly to what I was writing here. (In the case of MATF, straight back to a single post.) Most importantly, it was a place for me to experiment with voice and style.
Which is why I am gently drawing it to a close and starting a new venture, over at Substack. While I love all the writing that I do, I’ve been feeling the lack recently of spaces in which I can write what I want to write. For a long time, I’ve been looking for a way to refresh my ears and refresh my words. I have also felt for a long time the need for some discipline around that. And while I love this place, it has never been a site for discipline or order. That has been part of its charm (for me, at least). It’s time to stop Rambling, and become more Purposeful.
Hence Purposeful Listening. The name is borrowed from David Dunn’s Purposeful Listening in Complex States of Time, a work introduced to me by another writer I encountered first through blogging, Jennie Gottschalk, and still I think one of the most interesting conceptual works around listening (and other things) I know. But it also gets at, I think, a drive I’ve always had, to go beyond surface-level aesthetics in search of meaning, contextual resonances and so on.
I intend to publish a couple of times a month (with the odd bit in between), with a mix of interviews, deep listening dives, reviews (live and recordings) and other things as they take my fancy. The first issue – an embellishment of my Leo Chadburn review published here last week, plus reviews of new discs from Mark Fell and Michael Finnissy – goes online today. Future issues will include interviews with soprano Stephanie Lamprea on female vocality in new music and with pianist Cheryl Duvall on long duration works for piano and her new Linda Catlin Smith edition; a close listen to Antti Tolvi’s remarkable 70-minute interpretation of Feldman’s Intermission 6; reviews of discs by Jason Eckhardt, Natasha Barrett, Arlene Sierra; and more. There may also be a chance to read previews/early drafts of extracts from (what I hope will be) my next book – an experimental memoir on Schubert, new music, listening and chronic illness.
Finally, it is just left to say a huge THANK YOU to everyone who has contributed to making this blog what it was. To those whose CDs or concert invitations gave me things to write about; to those whose comments have kept me honest; to those whose shares have grown my audience; and to those of you who have read and made the whole thing worthwhile. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
And I’ll see you next door …











