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Hello, Love, Goodbye – in my eyes…

Heyheyhey! Eto na naman po tayo sa mahabang post ko. Syempre, mahaba ito kasi magkahalong pagiging fangirl at laman ng puso ko ang content. But whether you finish it, or not, thank you pa din for giving my post a chance to be read.

Actually, hindi ko alam paano magsisimula… This is my way of acknowledging the 4th blockbuster week of #HelloLoveGoodbye. It might be a little late, but never too late for this review. I have read so many reviews already and it all revolved around one thought – MAGANDA YUNG PELIKULA. (period!)

FYI: I have watched the film, technically, five times already (di ko lang na-save yung 2 tickets sa TriNoma kaya 3 lang yung nasa pic) –

1. TriNoma Cinema 1 (July 31)

2. TriNoma Cinema 2 (July 31)

3. SM North Edsa Cinema 4 (July 31)

4. Vista Mall General Trias Cinema 2 (August 8)

5. Venice Grand Canal Mall Cinema 2 (August 15).

Konti pa siguro ito compared to other fans, but I still have plan of watching it in the cinema habang showing pa. Ganun sya kaganda! Hindi nakakasawa panoorin kahit alam mo na ang story! Maybe sa 6th time ko, with a stranger para no judgement! 😜 At iba pa din experience pag sa Cinema ka nanood. Mas maaappreciate at mararamdaman mo. Kaya sana, please stop piracy! 🙏

Well, it’s obvious to most of my friends (if not all) that I am a fan of Kathryn Bernardo. I have posted several reviews about her previous movies. I have said a lot of times “no bias” MAGALING SI KATHRYN. And allow me to say it again in this post, “No bias. MAGALING SI KATHRYN, MALUPET SYA DITO!!!”

Yung galing ni Kath sa pag-embody ng role, samahan pa ng revelation ni Alden, tapos yung amazing (as always!) direction ni Direk Cathy at palpable storytelling ni Ms. Carmi (na lagi tayong dinudurog), pati na din ang sipag at galing ng lahat ng casts, staffs and crews here in the Philippines and abroad – these all sum up the reason kung bakit so far, naka-5 times na akong nakanood sa sinehan, at gusto ko pang ulitin.

So eto, punta na tayo sa movie itself. Bakit maganda at kaulit-ulit panoorin ang HLG? Let me answer it in 5 points like I watched it 5 times (DISCLAIMER: HINDI PO ITO SPOILER AND THESE ARE BASED ON MY OWN OPINION):

1. It depicts the life of ‘modern OFW’. I experienced being an OFW in UAE for quite some time back 2016. I know how it feels to be far away from your loved ones just to save hard-earned money. Though swerte pa ako kasi kasama ko sa UAE yung kapatid ko, pero may sariling buhay din sya, ganun din naman ako, kaya hindi pwedeng lagi lang ako nakabuntot kay Ate. I have learned how to stand independently. Along the journey, I realized na isa na ata sa pinaka-unbearable na sakit ang HOME SICKNESS. Yung physical pain, ipahinga mo lang nawawala na, pero yung pangungulila sa pamilya mo na nasa Pilipinas, pabalik-balik kang dudurugin nyan lalo na pag times na mag-isa ka na lang at iniisip ilang buwan o taon ka pa magtitiis. The modern OFW knows more how to handle difficult times. This movie is not a typical OFW story that we used to watch before. Napakita dito how the OFWs of our generation pursue to achieve their dreams. And take note, they are more of a dreamer nowadays. Mas madami nang kayang gawin para maka-survive. In this fast-paced world, kailangan mabilis ka din kumilos, kung hindi maiiwan ka.

2. It gives you sense of reality about life’s uncertainties. Sabi sa trailer, “May mga lugar na pangmatagalan, may mga lugar na dinadaanan lang, parang Hong Kong, kaya dapat sulitin mo, kasi walang nagtatagal dito.” Ang dami kong feels sa linyang ‘to! So many questions that you either: a) know the answer but you don’t know how to accept it; or b) doesn’t really know the answer at all, at syempre mata-touch sa movie yun. Sa totoong buhay, may mga bagay na posible at imposible. Yes, libreng mangarap, walang pumipigil na gawin mo lahat ng makakaya mo para ma-achieve yung dream mo. Pero paano mo ba malalaman na para sa’yo yun? I guess, you wouldn’t know unless you tried. If it is for you, then good! But, what if it’s not? And what does it take to carry on kahit nalaman mong hindi para sa’yo ang isang bagay? ACCEPTANCE – for me, it’s a way of freeing yourself from the disappointments of not getting what you want, while still looking at the beauty of everything.

3. It tells you that there’s nothing wrong about being selfless for your loved ones, but it’s also okay to be selfish sometimes for the sake of your own happiness. Ang love hindi lang naman naipapakita thru sacrifice. Love can be defined and shown in so many ways. Hindi ibig sabihin na hindi mo na mahal porket at one point of your life mas pinili mo yung sarili mo kesa sa taong mahal mo. In fact, bago ka makapagbigay ng love sa ibang tao, first thing you should learn is self-love. In a spiritual point-of-view, God sacrificed His life to save all of us. But you’re not a God. You’re just a human being saved by Him so love yourself, for in that way you will give justice for God’s sacrifices.

4. It opens up (in a good way) a battle between LOVE vs DREAMS. Kailangan ba talagang isa lang? Sobrang swerte ng mga taong hindi kailangan mamili between these two. At isa si Kathryn dun! May magandang career na dream nya, may Daniel pa na love nya at love sya. But for some people nowadays, there comes a battle between love and dreams. Mahirap na daw makahanap ng true love, same as opportunity for your dreams knocks once in a lifetime. Going back to #2, life has so many uncertainties. You wouldn’t know if it is worth it unless you tried. And if time comes that you have to choose, setting your priorities can help you decide between love and dreams.

5. Finally, it helps you realize that not all SAD GOODBYES are BAD GOODBYES. May mga taong hindi itinadhanang mag-stay sa buhay mo. Dadaan lang sila for weeks, months or years, pero aalis din at tanging ala-ala na lang ang maiiwan. Sa mga ganitong situation, tanging solusyon naman ay acceptance. Free yourself from the disappointments of not getting what you want and look for the beauty of this situation. Baka nawala sila sa atin para magbigay-daan sa mas magandang opportunities. It might also take weeks, months or years for you to accept. Pero dadating ka din sa point na yun, tiwala lang! Nevertheless, goodbyes are not always forever, kasi may mga taong nakatadhanang bumalik sa buhay mo. Sila yung mga taong meron pang purpose sa’yo. Some of them are meant to come back and who knows, stay forever.

And there you go, for me, those are just 5 of so many reasons why you should watch Hello, Love, Goodbye. Relate ka siguro kung nagstay ka sa cinema hanggang matapos ang credits kasi akala mo hindi pa tapos. Believe me, sa ilang beses ko na napanood yung movie, hindi ako umalis agad sa cinema hanggang sa matapos ang credits. For an idealistic person, siguro sasabihin mo, “hala tapos na!”. But for a realistic person, sasabihin mo “MAY TAPOS, PERO WALANG TAPON”. And that’s what the film turned me into – a realistic person. Someone who became more open to all realities of life.

To Kathryn, you inspired me again. Your journey for the portrayal of Joy is never easy but life changing. You are so amazing and I love you even more because of this.

To Joy and Ethan, thank you for being so real to us.

To Direk Cathy, thank you for interpreting the love story of Joy and Ethan.

To Ms. Carmi, we all awe it to you! Naniniwala ako na ginamit ni Lord yung mga kamay mo para makapaghandog sa aming lahat ng story na babago sa pagtingin namin sa life. Honestly, this story makes me wanna crave for more in life. Thank you for giving life to Joy and Ethan! Sobrang bilib ako sa story telling mo. Mahilig din akong mag-sulat ng stories. I actually dreamt of being as brilliant as you in writing. And yes, now I really know that I can coz this movie made me realize that I CAN BE MORE. 😍

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ANG PAG-IBIG SA MATA NG EKONOMISTA! (Bow!)

In economics, utility is the satisfaction or benefit derived by consuming a product; thus the marginal utility of a good or service is the change in the utility from an increase in the consumption of that good or service. (Thanks Google! 😉)

Ihalintulad natin sa pakikipagrelasyon. Ang happiness mo with someone ay katumbas ng kung gaano ka ka-satisfied sa relasyon nyo. Kapag daw mas nag-invest ka ng masidhing emosyon para sa isang tao, tumataas ang satisfaction, mas tinatangkilik, mas nagiging masaya. Pero dahil sa naimbentong kataga na “individual differences”, meron din ibang tao na hindi tinatalaban nito. Instead, they feel exactly the other way around.

Marginalism explains choice with the hypothesis that people decide whether to effect any given change based on the marginal utility of that change, with rival alternatives being chosen based upon which has the greatest marginal utility. (Credits to Google again! 😉)

At the end of the day, yung taong may ari ng pusong tumitibok pa rin ang magdedesisyon kung ipagpapatuloy nya ba yung pinasukan nya o hahanap sya ng ibang makakapagbigay sa kanya ng greater satisfaction.

In the context of cardinal utility, economists sometimes speak of a law of diminishing marginal utility, meaning that the first unit of consumption of a good or service yields more utility than the second and subsequent units, with a continuing reduction for greater amounts. Therefore, the fall in marginal utility as consumption increases is known as diminishing marginal utility. (Thanks again Google for the Nth time! 😉)

Eto na yung sad truth na part ng analysis ko. Pag sinabing ‘diminishing’ ibig sabihin unti-unting nawawala. Aw! Siguro iniisip mo, ‘sana bigla na lang para di masyadong masakit!’ Well, dahil pa rin sa “individual differences” iba-iba pa din ang pagtanggap ng mga tao sa idea ng law of diminishing marginal utility. Kahit ano pa man ang pagtanggap mo dito, iisa lang ang idea nito – na totoong nangyayari sa tunay na buhay na sa umpisa pabibo si Kuya pero habang tumatagal, nababawasan na. Bumababa tuloy ang satisfaction ni Ate, nagiging mapaghanap sya. At pag di nya pa rin nahanap yun sa’yo, posibleng hanapin nya yun sa iba. Kabahan ka na! 😱

Pinagaralan ng husto yung pinagbatayan ko na mga terms at law. Connect naman diba? Nangyayari sya sa totoong buhay. So alam nyo na, para magtuloy-tuloy ang consumption, kailangan maging satisfied ang customer. In this way, lalago ang business, magiging loyal and happy ang customer! Di nila tayo iiwan! (Drops the mic! Boom! 💥)

⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠️
This post is inspired by a convo I just had few minutes ago by my friend (I will not reveal the name!)…
You’ve reached this point, thanks for reading tho! 😉

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Happy Birthday Kath!

HAPPIEST 23RD BIRTHDAY KATHRYN BERNARDO!!! 🎂🎉🎈

Sobrang blessed ka & u deserve it! Madaming nakakaalam nyan, pero madami ding hindi, at bilang fan na all-eyes on you, I can testify!

Madaming nagtataka why I spent time for this lady. We all have our idols. Pwedeng international artist, professor mo, parents, ate or kuya mo, someone you look up to. Dahil birthday ng idol ko today, hayaan nyo akong i-share paano at bakit ako fan! #fangirling101

DISCLAIMER: Eto na naman ako sa mahabang post. Pinilit ko paikliin pero eto na talaga yun eh. Haha! Desisyon nyo naman kung babasahin nyo o hindi. 😉


Ako ung tipo ng fan na discrete lang. Hindi wild! I’ve been a silent fan since Mara Clara days. Simpleng manonood lang ako nun na natutuwa at simpleng nagagalingan kay “Mara”.

Until magkaroon ng Growing Up. Nakikinood lang ako habang kinikilig kay Ella & Patrick si @iamkimymae. Simpleng napapangiti lang ako kasi teenage years ko din un.

Tapos nag-boom ang KathNiel at nagkaroon ng Princess And I. Aaminin ko di ko masyadong nasubaybayan yung PAI kasi busy pa ko sa love life nun. Haha! Pero ang alam ko, ginaya ng pinsan kong si Kimy ung bangs ni Mikay, at bilang mini me ko si Kimy, muntik na din ako magpa-full bangs. 😂

Meron pa silang mga naging movie in between like Sisterakas at yung 1st movie nila na sila ung bida – Must Be Love. Nung una sinusuportahan ko lang talaga si Kimy sa pagiging fan nya. Pero unti-unti na-hook na din ako sa KathNiel.

Eto na, dumating yung Got 2 Believe. Nagkataon na malabo na love life ko nun. Kinailangan ko nang humugot ng kilig sa ibang tao kasi matamlay na relasyon ko sa ex ko. (Ooops! 😁) So ayun na nga, sa madaling salita, sinubaybayan ko yung G2B dahil tulad ni Chichay, madami mang problema sa buhay, kailangan magpaka-positive! Eto din yung panahon na naging channel of coping up ko si Kathryn (credits to Nescafe). Tapos di ko namamalayan nakikitulong na ko sa pagpapatrend sa Twitter gabi-gabi. Dami ko na din ni-follow na fan accounts ni Kathryn at Daniel. At eto pa, kumpleto ako ng DVD ng G2B!

I can say that time na nagsimula na talaga akong maging fan ng dalawa (KN). Muntik pa kong sumama sa event ng Pagpag: Siyam Na Buhay sa Star City. Pero di ako nabigyan ng chance eh.

Tapos nagkaroon ng She’s Dating The Gangster! Waaah! Isa sa pinaka-timeless classic love story na di ko malilimutan. One great love! Lalo akong naging hopeless romantic in a good way (thanks to KN).

So ayun na nga, nagtuloy-tuloy na ang pagiging fan ko, lahat ng mga sumunod na projects ng KN syempre inabangan ko – Crazy Beautiful You, Pangako Sa’Yo, Barcelona, Can’t Help Falling in Love, La Luna Sangre, The Hows Of Us, Three Words To Forever at lahat pa ng mga endorsements.

Una ko sila nakita ng personal sa blockscreening ng Barcelona. Biglaan pa yun, humabol lang ako, muntik pa ako ma-late. But I guess it’s meant to be.

Tapos year 2016 nagpunta ako sa UAE. Nabasa ko sa Twitter yung pa-BS ng KBBuddies for CHFIL. Nakilala ko si Ate Violet. She introduced me sa fans club ni Kath. Dun ko din na-realize na solid Kathryn pala ako. Siguro dahil feminist ako. Maka-Daniel pa rin naman ako. Pero ibang level ng suporta ang kaya kong ibigay kay Kathryn. Kakaiba ding inspiration bilang babae yung nabibigay nya sa akin.

2017, pagbalik ko sa Pinas, I became an active member of KBBuddies Main. At dito na dumating ang chance na mapili ako na isa sa sinurpresa ni Kathryn for Nescafe #ParaKaninoKaBumabangon documentary. Teh, sobrang personal na nakausap ko sya! Sobrang surreal! At eto pa, may bonus pang pa-Coron getaway sa amin ng Mommy at Daddy ko.

See? Alam kong madaming kumwestyon sa akin kahit di nila ako dinederecho na bakit ako nagsspent ng time sa pagiging fan ni Kathryn. Kasi worth it. Kasi she inspires me. Kasi masaya ako. At very evident naman ang nagiging result para sa akin ng pagiging fangirl ko.

Sana mabigyan pa ako ng maraming chances para makita ka ulit Kathryn. Forever na akong fan. Siguro kahit magkaanak at apo pa ako, palagi kong sasabihin sa kanila na choose the best person na iidolohin nyo. Yung someone worthy. Yung marunong lumingon sa pinanggalingan. Yung someone na magtuturo sa’yo ng mga bagay na di natututunan sa school like ang pag-accept ng mga flaws mo kasi ikaw yan. Ang mahalin at tanggapin ang sarili mo. Someone like our birthday girl Kathryn! 😍

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THE HOWS OF US (Movie Review/Fangirl Confession)

DISCLAIMER: This is a long post na sana mabasa din ng mga DOUBTERS ng KathNiel!!! 😁✌

Let me start it by reposting this data I saw in one post…

FYI: (KathNiel Movies 1st Day Gross)
She’s Dating The Gangster – 15M
Crazy Beautiful You – 32M
Barcelona: A Love Untold – 23M
Can’t Help Falling In Love – 33M

And now…

The Hows Of Us – 35.9M 👑👏👏👏💯

Historically for Philippines’ local movies, 1st day gross is one big thing dahil dun makikita kung gano karami ang sumuporta sa unang araw ng pelikula. 35.9M gross is not a joke! It doesn’t just mean NOTHING! Therefore, we can say that KathNiel IS NOT JUST SOMEBODY… 👌

Sabi nga ni DJ sa TWBA interview nya, marami mang nagagalingan, marami pa ding nagda-doubt. Di naman maiiwasan yun sa mundong puno ng isyu! Baka nga ikaw na nagbabasa ngayon at one point of your life nagduda ka sa husay nila. 😁

Honestly, di ko pa napanood ng buo yung movie dahil palabas-labas ako ng sinehan. Nagaassist kasi ako sa FC ko na KB Buddies (Kathryn Bernardo) Official Fanpage dahil kami at isa pang FC na KATHTropa yung host ng block screening.

Pero beshyyy wait lang, baka iniisip mo di ko pa pala napanood ng buo pero sino ako para mag-post nitong “movie review” na to!

Anyways, di na ko magpapaligoy-ligoy! THOU for me is a “must-seen movie of the year”! No bias dahil fan ako, pero sana ituloy mo pa yung pagbabasa nitong post kong mahaba para malaman mo kung bakit… (Ilang kaibigan kaya ang makukumbinsi ko! Malalaman natin! 😂)

Naalala ko yung moment namin ni Kath kahapon sa 1st block screening sa TriNoma Cinema 1. I tapped her shoulder and said “Kath, congrats!” Kath just smiled genuinely and squeezed my left hand. Waaah! Ang saya! Ang feeling closed ko! Para kasi akong ate na sobrang proud na proud sa younger sis ko. (We’re on 5 years age gap kasi.) Hindi ko pa man napapanood yung movie ang dami ko nang nababasa na pang-BEST ACTRESS yung level nya dito.

Ako, as a fan, nasubaybayan ko yung pag-grow ni Kath as fine young lady and one of the best artist of her generation. Sobrang galing na galing ako sa natural na acting skills nya, very versatile! A lot of people may say that, yet what’s more amazing is that she remained humble. Syempre walang echos! Alam ko yan dahil I’m following her everyday life! (#fangirling101) 💋

Ano na ba narating ng fangirling ko kay Kath?! Well, isa na dyan yung documentary ko sa Nescafe na alam naman ng marami, pero bukod dun, di alam ng iba how Kath helped me nung time na sobrang down ako emotionally. (Di ko na ie-elaborate baka magka-iyakan pa!)

Syempre si DJ din ang galing at no doubt din ako! Isa pa, he takes care of Kathryn so much kaya love ko din sya! They complement each other. Pero Solid Kathryn talaga ako eh kaya nga ako nasa KBBuddies! 👸

A lot of people may also say na ang swerte ni Kath kay DJ. No wonder naman kasi ang ganda din ng upbringing ni DJ, pogi na mabait pa, talented din at totoo. Pero isn’t it unfair that it is not reciprocated to Kath? DJ and people who knew them, lalo na ang totoong fans, can attest that DJ is also blessed to have Kathryn in his life. What more to say, maganda na, mabait na, well-raised by her parents, very decent, talented at very sweet pa.

She saw me again yesterday sa 2nd block screening sa Robinsons Galleria and I saw her staring at me like mga 3 seconds tapos sabi nya sakin “kayo ulit!” Yes, we are just also reciprocating your efforts to this movie. Ganun kaming mga fans sumuporta. Eto lang yung tangible thing na magagawa namin eh. Kaya kahit ako personally, walang tulog, RAK LANG! 👊

Bukod sa pagiging fan, based kasi sa mga nababasa ko, sobrang worth it ng movie! Kaya kahit puyat at may pasok pa after ng BS, lalo pa akong na-excite!

So what about this movie nga ba? Eto na… 👇

Etong THOU yung tipo ng movie na sa sobrang malaman ng bawat eksena, at sa sobrang totoo nya, kahit ilang eksena pa lang napapanood mo parang naintindihan mo na sya agad. Lalo na kung napagdaanan mo na to minsan sa buhay mo.

Sa totoo lang momshie, yung mga eksenang napanood ko, di ko maiwasang mapatulala at mapatutok sa screen ng cinema. Eto yung movie na may kilig, may saya, may lungkot, may sakit, may pait, may hapdi, pero sa huli, MASAYA

Ganun tayong mga Pilipino eh, gusto natin na nasasaktan tayo dahil dito tayo mas natututo. Pero sa huli naman, ang mga mas nagwawagi ay yung pinipiling maging masaya.

Etong THOU yung tipo ng movie na kahit ilang taon na kayong break ng ex mo, parang sa dalawang oras na yun magiging fresh lahat ng alaala nyang hayerp sya! (Joke lang! Haha!) Makakarelate ka kasi eh!

Sabi nila marami daw mag-ex ang magkakabalikan! But let me clarify, hindi laging ibig sabihin nito na pagkapanood mo, gugustuhin mong magkabalikan kayo ng ex mo! Pano kung magising ka na hindi pala kayo si Primo at George! Eh di nasaktan ka na namang gaga ka!

Kasi etong THOU yung movie na hindi kukunsintihin yung pagiging hopeless romantic mo… Eto yung pelikula na tuturuan kang tanggapin ng positibo yung destiny mo gaano man kasakit ito…

And let me quote this to you “THOU will give us a vibe that it is so magical to live in an idealistically fairy-tale love story, BUT! Wait there’s more! It is better to ACCEPT AND LIVE IN REALITY than STAY AND BE FOOLED BY ALL YOUR FANTASIES…”

Boom! Original ko yan teh! Ang sakit diba? Pero ang sarap! Ang sarap imulat ang mata sa katotohanan… Sa totoo kasi, alam mong safe ka.

Hindi po ako bitter kay Primo at George kasi ang perfect ng kanila eh! It all turned out happily ever after pero aminin naman natin na hindi kasi laging ganun! Uulitin ko, hindi kasi kayo si Primo at George! (Catch?! 😏)

Etong THOU yung tipo ng movie na lalabas ka ng sinehan na nakangiti. Minsan may luha, pero tears of joy yun! Kasi mai-inspire ka sa dalawa. Mai-in love ka sa idea ng pagiging in love. Yung walang bitterness! Yung positive lang! 😍

Salamat sa bumubuo ng #TheHowsOfUs sa napakagandang materyal. Kay Direk Cathy Garcia-Molina na nagtahi ng kabuuan ng istorya ni Primo at George. Kay Ms. Carmi Raymundo para sa malalamang linyahan at script. Sa producer na si John Leo Garcia para sa hindi pagsuko sa pagsasakatuparan ng pelikulang eto. Sa masisipag na mga staff, casts and crew sa napakahusay na collab with the major people in this movie. At syempre sa KathNiel sa pagsasalamin ng realidad ng buhay sa katauhan ni Primo at George.

Big dream pero sana sa post kong ito, maraming doubters ang makumbinsi ko to give this movie a chance. I promise! Worth it money nyo! Gusto kong sabihin na “I can guarantee a money back kung mali ako”! Pero hindi kasi ako mayaman. Kaya magpa-promise na lang ako na sobrang worth it!👌

Thank you din pala sa mga nagrespond sa panawagan ko sa block screening. Kay John Arnold Flores, Jenaz Uy, Char Lang, Ryza Dayne Lenon Docog at Ninang nya, kay Ate Řemeðios Ťinăpąn at anak nya, at Sir Antonio Capiral. All of them pagka-meet ko after the movie tuwang-tuwa at nagte-thank you sa’kin. Ako po yung mas dapat mag-thank you sa inyo dahil you also trusted me na mae-enjoy nyo ang movie na to! I’m happy that you also went home happy yesterday.

Definitely, uulitin kong panoorin etong THOU ng buo. Siguro sa weekend. Kagaya kasi ng natutunan ko sa mga eksenang napanood ko sa movie, “dapat at kailangang mahalin natin ang sarili natin.” Ilang araw na kong puyat sa work at sa pag-antabay sa promotional campaigns for THOU. So babawi muna ako ng tulog dahil yun yung kailangan ko sa ngayon.

Kaya di ko na pahahabain pa, dahil mahaba na talaga sya, baka masobrahan, masama din yun, baka maumay ka tulad ng ex mo!

Kung isa ka sa nakaabot sa bandang ito ng post ko, maraming salamat sa time na binigay mo. Pa-like, share and comment na din ng point of view mo sa movie, sa post ko at sa mga natutunan mo sa THOU para masaya tayo pareho. 😊

#TheHowsOfUsMaramingSalamat

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Paalam Gitnang Silangan

Nagsimula ang lahat sa pag-aasam ng kaginhawaan,
Na maiahon ang pamilya mula sa kahirapan.
Nilisan ang bansang aking kinagisnan,
Para dito’y kumayod sa Gitnang Silangan.
Hindi man ako tubo dito sa magarang bayan,
Maraming aral dito’y aking natutunan.
Pakikisama sa ibang tao na turing ay kaibigan,
Hanggang sa maging katuwang sa pangalawang tahanan.
Tiniis ang gutom para sila’y mapadal’han,
Salaping kinikita na sa kanila ay yaman.
Dugo at pawis ang aking tanging puhunan,
Kung mapikit ang mata, sana’y di malimutan.
Dahil sa hating isip, nais kong maliwanagan,
Tama bang pamilya ko ay aking iniwan?
Sa pagiisip na ito aking napatunayan,
Na pera’y nauubos ngunit pamilya’y kabaligtaran.
Kaya’t sa kabila ng mga maaaring makamtan,
Nawari kong mas mabuti pa nga ang lumisan.
Pitong salita ang sa iyo’y bibitawan,
“Hanggang sa muli at paalam, Gitnang Silangan.”

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After 15 months…

August 10, 2017 – 1:19pm, Sharjah, U.A.E.

Sa mga oras na ito, hindi ko alam kung ano ang nagdala sa mga daliri ko para isa-isang pindutin ang mga letra sa laptop at makabuo ng isang kwento ng katotohanan. Yung kwento ng totoong nangyari sa akin sa loob ng 15 months na 'yun.

I resigned from my longest work ever as contact center specialist in one BPO company.  Hindi naman secret sa public yung pag-punta ko dito sa U.A.E. I have been posting a lot on my social media accounts about my stay here. Like other OFW, nagbaka-sakali ako na kumita ng mas malaki lalo pa at meron na akong binabayaran na sariling bahay. Apart from that, I have been to a situation long time ago and I have also been longing to rebuild myself somewhere I have never been. So nung nagkaroon ng opportunity, I grabbed it kasi baka eto na yung matagal ko nang hinahanap.

Since then, I was so dependent of my parents. I had so many travels but this is the first time I'll be out of my comfort zone for a long period of time. I know when I decided to go here, marami akong maiiwan sa Pilipinas – family, friends, career, yung mga organizations where I am a volunteer, at lahat ng bagay na kino-consider kong part of my life. I was half-hearted but I still decided to go dahil walang kasama si Nanay at ang pamangkin kong si Adrhiane pagpunta dito. Besides, naisip ko, "malay mo swertehin ako, eh di jackpot!"

Life in a different country is really hard. Kailangan mong sumunod sa mga rules nila, mag-adjust, mag-adapt, makisabay. We call ourselves 'expatriates' or in Filipino layman's term 'dayo'. I was lucky enough that my biological sister and her husband are living here. I was guided and I must say I was able to gradually absorb the culture here. Pero kahit pa nandito sila, na-realize ko na mahirap pa rin kasi may sariling buhay din sila. I should learn how to stand alone. I should build my own life here in order to survive, and that was even harder.

Ang sabi ko bago ako magpunta dito, gusto kong work ay related sa course ko – which is teaching. Kaya lang, mailap ata ang swerte sa akin. Na-experience ko pa mag-exit sa Oman kung saan kasama ko yung maraming OFW na may iba't-ibang kwento. Yung iba sa kanila pinaasa lang ng company na bibigyan ng employment visa, yung iba naman niloko ng agency at itinakbo ang pera, maraming nanghihingi na lang ng tulong pinansyal sa mga kabayan na nag-exit din. Dahil sa experience ko na yun, mas na-realize ko na napaka-swerte ko pa rin dahil may pamilya ako dito na matatakbuhan. Kung wala siguro baka nabaliw na ako katulad ng iba.

It took me three months before I finally got a job. I was thankful enough na nakahanap ako ng work kahit hindi ito yung pinangarap kong trabaho dito. I worked as a secretary in one trading company nearby. But like anybody else, meron din akong saturation point. I know it's too early pero madali ako nagsawa sa work environment ko. I had friends at work and madali lang naman sana ang work ko, pero may mga forces na nakakapagpa-bigat ng trabaho. I tried ignoring, and actually I can still ignore, pero I decided to just leave.

More importantly, na-realize ko din na 'OMG! Matanda na ang parents ko, kung uubusin ko dito yung time na dapat kasama ko sila, that might be the biggest regret I will have for my entire life!' Nung pumunta ako dito, part sila ng dahilan kung bakit half-hearted ako. Pero di ko pinakinggan yung kalahati ng puso ko na nagsasabing 'hindi naman sila naghahangad ng sobrang gara na buhay. Nakaka-survive naman kayo basta't sama-sama.'

Kagaya ng palagi nating naririnig na kasabihan – 'Ang pera hindi natin yan kayang dalahin sa hukay!' So more than the money I can earn here (which I can actually earn din naman sa Pinas), mas pipiliin ko na makasama ang pamilya ko. I won't go much into details, but to sum it up, I decided to resign from my work and just go home after 5 months of service.

May mga nagsasabi na 'Sayang naman. Nandyan ka na din eh. Maraming gusto makapunta dyan pero ikaw bibitawan mo lang ng ganun.' Believe me, I told that to myself, too.

People may think I'm so impulsive, but of course I considered a lot of things before I decided to do that. Ihinanda ko na din yung sarili ko sa mga consequences na pwede ko harapin.

So far, I'm still waiting for my visa cancellation. Once done, I will immediately fly back to the Philippines. I know this is not yet the end and I'll be facing more when I go back to my comfort zone. Pero this time, iba na. I am not the same as I was when I left the Philippines few months ago.

Kapag naiisip ko yung pag-uwi ko nagpe-playback sa isip ko yung mga linya sa kantang "They Can't Take That Away From Me" ni Mariah Carey.

"They can say anything they want to say, try to bring me down but I will not allow anyone to succeed hanging clouds over me. And they can try hard to make me feel that I don't matter at all. But I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams. Cause there's a light in me that shines brightly. They can try but they can't take that away from me."

May halong takot yung pag-uwi ko kasi I know for a fact na di natupad yung plan ko dito. Sabihin na nating 'hindi ako nagtagumpay sa journey ko dito'. Takot ako sa pwedeng isipin ng ibang tao sa akin or sa pinagdaanan ko. Part of me is saying 'okay lang yan! Wag mong isipin yung sasabihin ng iba dahil buhay mo yan!'

Pero na-realize ko din naman na…

"Success is not defined by never giving up to challenges. Sometimes, you have to let go and let the fate bring you to your success…"

Magsisimula ako ulit pag-uwi ko. And since I learned from my experience, I am looking forward to start again just right.

 

Love,

JG

 

Posted in 1.0 Life Connect, 1.4 Events, 3.0 Feature-of-the-day

R⚫️E⚫️S⚫️P⚫️E⚫️C⚫️T

Big word but means alot!

I saw this post from someone unknown in Twitter…

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This statement is sarcastically true lalo na sa panahon ngayon ng eleksyon. Sabi nila ‘respect begets respect’. Do you show respect when you allow other people’s opinion to be expressed? Do you show disrespect when you react with someone else’s opinion? Respect is really a big word, to the point that it is hard to give and hard to receive. It is not imposed, nor gained.

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Saw this post of TV host Bianca Gonzales yesterday and I must say that yes, maraming nagpopost ng grudges nila sa hindi nila iboboto at nanlalait pa ng opinyon ng iba sa mga iboboto nila. Nakakalungkot isipin pero totoo nga atang Philippines is at its dirtiest during election. Sinasabi nila na opinyon nila yun at dapat irespeto pero hindi ba sa sinasabi nila ay nagpapakita din sila ng hindi pagrespeto? Again, ‘respect begets respect’. Kung gusto mong irespeto ang opinyon mo, matuto ka din na irespeto ang opinyon ng iba. It is a two-way process and not just one. Alam nating hindi nawawala sa politika ang bashers. Ironically, kailangan pang siraan ang iba para maibenta ang manok nila. That’s a bad practice, pero hindi ba mas nakakapagpakita ng respeto kung iaangat mo na lang ang mga kandidato mo at hindi mo na sisiraan ang iba? We are talking about respect as freedom of expression in a positive way and not freedom of humiliating other people. Kung okay sayo ang kandidato mo, focus ka na lang dun, wag na mang-bash ng ibang kandidato para walang magrereact sa sinabi mo, at para wala nang argumentasyon. After all, both of what two parties expressed is just an opinion, and with opinion, nothing is wrong, so walang mananalo.

Posted in 1.0 Life Connect, 1.6 Lessons, 2.0 My Interest, 2.2 Travel and Adventure, 2.4 Music, 3.0 Feature-of-the-day

A Bucket of My Etceteras in 2016

Last year (2015) was indeed a good year for me. I got to experience so many things that I considered my ‘firsts’. Most of it were travel, adventure, activities that made my 2015 wonderful.

This year (2016), I must say is more special. It is my ‘silver year’ because I am turning 25 exactly next month (February 22, 2016). I am already in my first quarter of life. Though a lot of things did not fall into place the way I want it to be about 5-10 years ago, I have decided to just live my life as it is. Despite some of my plans were not fulfilled, (like having my own savings, starting to build my own two-storey house with atique, planning to get married, etc.) I could just simply go with the flow and enjoy. Yes, enjoy! It’s because of the principle called YOLO. You Only Live Once!

Since this is the 25th year of my existence, I have come up with 10 of the things in my bucket list for 2016 and etceteras.

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1. Experience surfing
I am not into swimming, but I am not afraid of water. I am courageous enough to go against the current of water flow. I’d like to try surfing and measure my strength in doing this. Good thing is we are going to Calaguas Island this February 6 & 7. One of the itinerary is going to Bagasbas Beach where we can experience surfing! So excited!

2. Buy DSLR camera
I am fond of taking pictures. I am a very sentimental person that I want to treasure and keep every special moment in my memory. I just use my 8MP camera phone most of the time, or sometimes, I use my 12MP digicam my sister gave me when taking photographs. Since my devices are now a little low-tech and not so Instagram worthy, I am planning to buy my own DSLR camera from my own money. Looking forward to this the soonest.

3. Enroll for a photography class
Since I am already planning to buy DSLR, next in my list is to enroll in a photography class. Why not be pro in photography? It’s a new line of interest, anyway.

4. Experience Panagbenga Festival
I love flowers, and nature, and cold weather, and serene place, and everything about Baguio. Since I am also planning to go to Baguio for my birthday celebration with Kimy (my favorite cousin) we decided to have it scheduled during Panagbenga Festival’s grand street parade and grand float parade. Another excitement!

5. Explore Vigan-Laoag-Pagudpud
This was initially my plan for my birthday celebration but one friend invited me for this tour on July. We decided to just go with them instead, so we can have more planned Ilocos adventure! Weeeh!

6. Enroll for Master’s Degree in Psychology/SPED
Psychology/SPED is my dream course, but due to some circumstances I was not able to take it up. Good thing I learned that I can take master’s degree with that specialization since it is somehow related to my course Bachelor in Secondary Education. I planned about it long time ago but I wasn’t able to pursue. I guess this year is the right time to pursue it!

7. Explore Batanes
One place I will never miss a chance to visit is the beauty of Batanes. Since the tour is pricey, I think after my July tour in Ilocos, I will focus on saving pennies for this tour. This will be the highlight tour of my year!

8. Watch KathNiel concert/show
Oh yes! I am a KathNiel fan and I am proud about it. They always make me smile everytime they show an effortless chemistry. They are inspiration for me. That even though I am not fully stable with my love life, I can still smile the way a man can make his woman smile. My goal is to have picture with them.

9. Run 10km for Color Manila
I used to run 3km for Color Manila in 2015. This time I would like to level up to 10k. I challenge myself to do this so I can also push my limit to be fit and healthy this time. I can do it!

10. Enroll for piano lesson
Another new line of interest – piano. I love music! I have good ear for music. In fact when I was just 7 years old, I was influenced by my uncle to gradually hit correct notes for a melody of a song in the keyboard. When I was in high school, I was also assigned to be the foundation of altos in the choir because according to my trainor, I have a good ear for music. I want to involve myself more to music. This means not only by singing, but also by playing instruments. Actually, this was also a plan long time ago but was not pursued because of many circumstances. Maybe this time I can pursue it. And if I learn to play piano, my goal is to use my talent in composing songs. Who knows I might be discovered! LOL

For final words…

We only live once. You only live once. Time is precious and we should keep into our minds that we should not just be contented with our routinary activities. As early as now, we should experience something new, something that we’ve never experienced before, something that we can still do for we still have means to do it. So when time comes that we can no longer have means to do everything, we can tell ourselves “I have no regrets! I did it!”

Love,

JG

Posted in 1.0 Life Connect, 1.6 Lessons

#NoteToSelf v.3.0

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Time is precious. Make the most out of your time. Just imagine how many minutes of supposed-to-be happiness are wasted because of the time spent being disgusted. Okay! Okay! It’s not bad to mourn, be sad or disappointed once at a time. Be like that as long as you want, damn! (LOL) There is always a room for sadness in our EQ (emotional quotient). But whenever you think about it, just look back or be reminded of this quote above. It would be better to spend time being happy than being sad. Back quoting, “Time is precious” so spend it wisely.

 

Love,

JG.

Posted in 1.0 Life Connect, 1.6 Lessons

#NoteToSelf v.2.0

Sagada“Live your life to the fullest…”assenaj22

This might be said a million times by everybody. I personally told this to myself several times, and I must say I never get tired of that. This is a reminder not only for me but for everyone that life is short. There is so much in life that is unexpected, like love, peace, war, hope and even death. We do not know until when can we live our life.

Reminiscing my childhood days, I remember when I am asked to answer a slam note, I used to put in my motto “Live your life as if it is your last day.” I was thinking if this is being pessimist, but I guess it is just a motivation for me to do and choose to experience the best everyday.

Having said this, this will probably be my vision for 2016. I aim to live my life to the fullest this year and the upcoming years.