Sometimes I get bored enough to actually decide to stay awake at the time which I should already be sleeping. But most of the time, I’m more of thinking about things rather than just being static and/or scrolling down through the Facebook News Feed (which is actually very boring and annoying). So since I have the resources (mostly just the time and the internet connection, really), here are some of my random thoughts at around 5am.
To add to the randomness, here is a random photo of a dude trying to levitate a pizza with his swag.
#1 I don’t think it matters what those “Readers are better lovers/people” articles say. If you’re a good person, you’re innately good. Reading is a plus for vocabulary and imagination, but I believe being open-minded is what’s more important.
#2 I appreciate guys who take occasional selfies where they are trying to be funny or ironic, but if they’re just really vain, I think I should look away.
#3 Sometimes people limit themselves with how they think people are thinking about them, which is kind of like a box they build and trap themselves into. That shouldn’t be the case with how we should live, I think, I feel. Because if it were, I think we’re all just limiting ourselves to how we control the perception towards us.
#4 I’m 19 and I can’t cook and/or distinguish the names of vegetables from one another. Except eggplant and cabbage. I know how they look like. All other veggies are gladly eaten, but the names are usually forgotten (both the English and Filipino names).
#5 Most guys I talk to never really sense if there is something wrong with me. Actually, they do but they have to ask the “Are you okay?” crap first when, in fact, the better question is “Have you been having a tough time lately?” or “Did something wrong happen?”
#6 I am happy I have good grammar. It’s not perfect, but it’s better than how I master my National Language… which is not really something to be proud of. I should probably brush up on my Filipino more.
#7 I overcompensate my sadness by over-posting funny things. It’s practically the same as how I overcompensate with my insecurity by posting my happiest-looking face portrait and getting likes and good comments for it…. which kinda makes me feel bad because I’m not really being honest at all?
#8 I think when I make side comments, I sound quite snarly… which is, I am guessing, the main reason on why guys just stop dating me. lol
#9 Guys apologize to me using cliches. Guys, really? I have been reading literary works from different cultures and you expect me to swoon over some pop song line, or over a John Green quote? Oh gosh. How about you end your speech and reassure me your affections by asking “Okay?” to which I might respond with “Aight.” or most likely with just a nod of approval. Well, you know what, maybe that’s what cliches are for. They demand to be said (by people who can’t think of anything original to say, apparently).
#10 Honestly, I am torn between deciding to live my passion, or to live to earn more. These times are hard. Must I think to be more practical over being ideal?
#11 If I saved up all the money I used in buying clothes from thrift shops, I could have bought that branded blazer that I really had my eye on, or I could have bought myself a new phone. But I’m happy with my full wardrobe. My fashion philosophy stands the same, I guess. “Quantity > quality”. Quality can still be saved by how you take care of things, anyway. Well, almost always. Hehe
#12 One time, I thought to myself “Hey, if you have an idea on how a guy should treat a woman, why don’t you go and try dating a woman yourself?” I tried, but apparently these things are actually a lot easier when I was executing them inside my head.
#13 Am I really snarly when I make sarcastic comments? I think not really? Maybe it’s in the words that I choose? Hmm. I wonder. If I had a chance to judge myself from another person’s perspective, I’d take that chance.
#14 I am annoyed by how I can imitate people who annoy me (e.g. Kris Aquino, some of my college instructors, and others).
#15 I really want to go on and post more thoughts but it’s 5am and I should be asleep now. My body clock should be well-conditioned before I take my board exam so yeah, I have to fix this immediately.
If you have any thoughts, reactions or answers on some of my statements up there, please do comment them below. Your sentiments shall be appreciated, given that they should be related to any of what I have shared in the post. 😀
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