I lost a World

I lost a World – the other day!
Has Anybody found?
You’ll know it by the Row of Stars
Around its forehead bound.

A Rich man – might not notice it –
Yet, to my frugal Eye –
Of more Esteem than Ducats
Oh find it – Sir – for me!
~~~ Emily Dickinson

In January of 2008 I discovered, to my surprise and joy, that I was pregnant. After a cluelessly happy and easy few months of pregnancy, I learned that my baby suffered from a congenital diaphragmatic hernia. We did everything we could to give our son the best chances at life, but our beautiful Teddy was born on August 15, only to die the following day. This is how I lost my world. This blog is part of my attempt to figure out what world I’m in now.

A longer version of Teddy’s story can be read in Surprises (a very long post).