Hoover's blog

Been kind of procrastinating for this post since I finished my last, not a whole lot going on these last couple days but, this post was intended to be directly following my first. ANYWAYS, so I met this girl about a month and a half ago, her name is Kassie, I met this girl through a friend of mine on Xbox who lives in Colorado (now I know, oh so you're into the whole long distance dating scene bullshit; false) turns out while we were talking to this chick I looked at her profile and she listed her location as "Sacramento", which in reality can mean just about any surrounding area, for example I live in Elk Grove, nobody knows where the hell that is, but Sacramento on the other hand, is the capital and people will know...anyways I see her town, and instantly bring it up, I tell her I live in Elk Grove...turns out she does too, turns out she lives about 5 miles from my house, small world doesn't even BEGIN to describe that luck.

So, we add each other, and continue to play games over the next couple days, somewhere in that time period I get her number, then on about the 4th day she throws out "Hey, when the fuck are we going to hang out?". At first, I'm shocked that she decided to jump on it before I did, at first I'm slow at processing what just happened and was slow on the pitiful response ".....uhhhhh.....i dunno?". She then replies something like "What are you doing Tuesday?" blah blah blah, basically, we make plans, I was going to get her at like 1 then drive back to my house and hang out. We made these plans on like the Thursday before. Here's where shit gets real. Now in between Thursday and Tuesday we continue playing with one another, during which we continue to attempt to get to know one another better, we understand each other pretty well (Now, I like to imagine life as a giant scoreboard where it's me vs. God/Karma/Super natural power/ what the fuck ever, and it seems about 99% of the time God wins...by a lot, anyways, right now for this particular part, its Me: 1 [because i somehow stumbled upon this amazing girl] God: 0) so some how she gets to telling me about how she is Bi-Sexual, I for one think that's hot, (Me: 2 God: 0), she also mentions she has a girlfriend and has been dating her for 4 years......(Me: 3 God: still 0) she then goes on and drops a bomb, she's got a boyfriend...been dating for 2 years...(at that point it's like the score just flipped, Me: 0 God : 3, at that point I can just picture a figure of God holding the 3 'points' in his hand doing a victory dance).

So at this point my heart felt like it was stopped, and I know that sounds sad seeing how I hadn't known the girl for 2 weeks yet, hadn't met in person yet, and was still some what assuming I would just snag this chick and start dating her, but in truth I was pretty hyped and thought I just might have had some what of a shot. So I dusted myself off and continued on as if nothing was the matter and continued on. Tuesday rolls around, call her around 1, "getting in shower", 15 minutes later "not feeling good, can't do it today", in my head I'm thinking "what the fuck...?" so we end up rescheduling to like Thursday, she finally comes over. She had wanted to meet two of my friends who she had talked to once during a Xbox game, Phil and Danny, so she's at my house, we waste about a half an hour Danny shows up, he hangs for a bit we all play some games, he leaves early, hour after that Phil shows up, now me and Phil consider ourselves Mav and Goose, always got each other backs and shit, basically a couple of badasses until he gets me killed, anyways he shows up, play games, etc then we start a movie, Phil comes to my computer outs my headphones on and watches some TV show. Now while this movie is on she somehow discovers that I'm ticklish (I just feel slightly girly just saying that, but it is in fact true) and starts trying to mess with me, this eventually evolves in us wrestling each other trying to tickle one another and whatever, usual boy/girl flirtatious bull shit....anyways EVENTUALLY Phil notices, and decides to leave in case of potential third wheel or whatever, just kind of being courteous. So I decide I'll walk him out...we get to the front door and I'm like "DUDE, what do I do.....(i told him about her and the bf...blah blah already) this is confusing as fuck and I don't want to ruin anything.". "Well....I mean she's got a boy friend right, honestly, I think that anybody doing that kind of thing (the wrestling) wouldn't have a boy friend." when he said that I felt he was right, but, I wasn't about to try and do something with some girl who's already involved, that is just a "no-go" to the max.

So he leaves I go back to her, we wrestle more, then shit gets real. She starts cheating to the point where if she saw my crotch exposed she would instantly go for it via her foot, attempting to kick/smash my junk with it. By doing so she's got me pinned and I can't do anything, and starts saying "Ok, so, here's the deal I'm going to ask you questions and you're going to answer...no bullshit (i'm a good liar but not when it comes to these types of situations....ex. hot girl and me being extremely nervous). So, question 1 "do you find me attractive?" Me: *buries face in pillow* "........shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit" *digs foot in a bit causing a huge amount of pain* "FUCK! FINE!.......yes." "Yes....what?" "....yes I find you attractive" "Next question....Do you find me attractive....sexually?" "god.....dammit........uhhhh..."  "Answer. *pain* "OW OW OW, OK FINE....yes I do find you attractive sexually......." "Look me in the eyes and say it". I did. She removed her foot but still sorta had my arms and legs pinned. I get the balls to ask, "....how do you feel about me?" She avoided the question. (still can't tell if that's bad or good to this day) We then get interrupted by some bull shit and for some reason the question I had attempted to ask totally slipped from my mind. We finish the movie finally and some more time went by just talking, eventually 10:30 rolls around and i gotta take her home, we show up at her house, she wants to show me her dog, and does, we do a weird friend hug and I get in my car and drive off.

This was the 1st time we hung out and i still can't honestly say how I think it went, now I like this girl i would be fine just being friends, but some how it seems like she always finds a way to keep me interested in pursuing her and a chance at a relationship with this girl. We have hung out 2 additional times since in person all at my house and I plan to eventually talk about both, but I'm done for today..

I've never actually made anything like this before, by "this" I mean a blog/journal/diary or anything of the sort. I don't even know if anybody is ever going to even read this but, it just feels instantly better just by writing my thoughts. I'm writing this because I feel that I am in a point in my life where even I can't decide what I expect out of life. Before, I get into those reasons I guess I'll lay down some background information about myself, I am currently a 19 year old white guy who lives in California, more specifically I live in a city just outside Sacramento called Elk Grove, now Elk Grove is one of those towns that wreak of stereotypical suburbs, but this isn't about where I live. I spend most of my free time playing video games, kind of sad, I know. Anyways, that's me in a very small nutshell.