I return to work tomorrow after nearly two weeks off. I needed the time off and this time, I actually rested-- well, the snow/ice/snow/ice/frigid temps/high winds helped with that quite a bit. On Friday, my anxiety started to rev up. My heart is racing, my ears ringing, my head throbbing, my neck hurts (that's due … Continue reading Chicken Feet, Chicken Feet

I wanted to jump in here really quickly and remind you that I'm still here, I'm just caught between four deadlines, a pile of paperwork, an administrative assistant who went on leave indefinitely, and nagging emails from locals telling me that I didn't do enough this past year while buried deep in paperwork regarding all … Continue reading Farthings and spindles

I had a conversation with my endo a couple of weeks ago and it went like this... Me: My blood sugar has been crazy lately and as a result, I have this perpetual headache. I think the generic meds aren't working.Dr.: We'll just up your dosage 100x what you're taking now.Me: I don't think that … Continue reading Phoney Baloney

12 hours after I returned to work after my mini-vacay, and I'm sick. I'm pretty sure that I broke the record for the most amount of liquid to pour out of a nose.  I asked H, "Do I have sick eyes?" He always says no, but then I'm knocked out for  days. (His sickdar is … Continue reading Excuse me

This past week was rather challenging nationally, from the woman murdered on a train to Charlie Kirk's murder and 9/11 to school shootings and other random -not-random violence. I need a break from our society's collective insanity, please. It is getting to the point where I think I'm better off staying home & not going … Continue reading Not not it

My anxiety decided to jump a few levels tonight all of a sudden. Even w the new staffer, I still have a tremendous amount of work to do, none of which I even had time to attempt this week. Next week will be even worse. I can't focus. I'm running in circles. I've barely eaten … Continue reading Flubbergastic

I've been watching the sequel to Sex in the City lately, and it made me miss writing posts... so, before you think I've disappeared into the nether regions of the back alley of nowheresland, I'm here. I'm here until the post is completed. I may be here more than that, but who is to say. … Continue reading And All That

Whew... it's been a while since I've graced the hidden passages of this page. But, I'm here, right now, ready to spill the tea. I've been through a lot this year. My demonic staffer was sent off into the great beyond in a less than tactful manner. I stood by and was stunned speechless (and … Continue reading Catchup 22

It's been more than a month since the infamous CW was let go. My blood sugar is back in range. I'm sleeping mostly better. I'm dreaming again. Is there a connection? H thinks so. Granted, I still have work stress, but I dont have former CW stress.

I am trying to thrive at work. My CW in another office has been "mean-girling" since she was moved into.our department. In a meeting today, she threw a nasty comment and attitude towards a new supervisor. Then, she turned on me. I snarked back. I've been berated by this CW since she started. The other … Continue reading Larry Birdbrain

It has been a few weeks since former CW (or Effer) was fired. Going through the files that Effer was to have spent MONTHS working on are a high Holy mess. Hidden docs in drawers, scribbled notes, and more. On a daily basis, I come in and say, out loud, I'M SO GLAD YOU WERE … Continue reading Yelling into the cavern

I am not made for math. I am not. In 8th grade, my creepy math teacher (who was affectionately referred to as "the Alien" by my classmates) told my parents that I was math inept and would never be successful. What a nice thing for an 8th grade math teacher to say, right? What never … Continue reading Fumbling the Ball

This weekend, I've been on the #t2d rollercoaster... mostly lows. For those who aren't #t2d, the goal is to stay in your blood sugar range. #t2d, much like #t1d, sometimes, no matter what you do, you won't be in range. Some days are just like that. After MONTHS of being all over the place, with … Continue reading Belly up and feet down

I just woke up from a dream. If I don't write it down, I'll forget. I was with the Point Break version of Patrick Swayze and three other people. We were jumping into water from a high scaffolding that overhung a hotel. The image of PS careening into the water several stories below looked like … Continue reading Point Break Hotel

I was finally able to let out the breath I've been holding since CW was let go. Whoosh. I feel a little better.