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for the better part of a year, i’ve been holding my own domain and mulling over how best to craft it into something uniquely mine — my landing strip, my home on the web.
and now it’s ready.
so, my friends, please update your bookmarks, blogrolls and feeds, and follow me here:
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children learn to smile from their parents. (s. suzuki)
i can’t think of a better example than my dad — happy birthday to you!
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the waves echo behind me. patience — faith — openness, is what the sea has to teach. simplicity — solitude — intermittency . . . but there are other beaches to explore. there are more shells to find. this is only a beginning. (a.m. lindbergh)
]]>goodbye to deadlines and proposals, commutes and traffic, meetings and conference calls.
hello to laughter and sandy beaches, late nights and bike rides, boardwalks and seagulls.
every year, i return to the shore, along with my family, to relax and recharge, to listen as the sea shares her secrets with me. every year, it’s something different i find, and yet it’s always exactly what i need.
this year, i think it’s peace i seek. a little bit of sacred, golden peace — plucked from setting suns and salty breezes and sand dunes.
enough to sustain and enough to share.
my gift from the sea.
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light thinks it travels faster than anything but it is wrong. no matter how fast light travels, it finds the darkness has always got there first, and is waiting for it. (t. pratchett)
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the time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,
and say, sit here. eat.
you will love again the stranger who was your self.
give wine. give bread. give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
sit. feast on your life.
(derek walcott)
]]>- shared a shot of 100-year-old grand marnier. twice.
- visited the ‘burgh.
- bought my first dSLR. and then my second.
- said more hellos than goodbyes.
- spent a night under the roanoke star with lloyd dobler.
- got a new job. now considering another new job.
- discovered beauty & truth in new and unusual places.
- went to the national zoo for the first time since high school.
- learned that wisdom means having more questions than answers.
- spent a week in indianapolis, indiana.
- met a new friend who i feel like i’ve already known for years.
- had drinks in the milk bar at 6 lounge.
- wrote one blog entry per day for the entire month of december.
- discovered the joy that is the ‘twilight‘ series.
- discovered the joy that is robert pattinson.
- saw two rainbows.
- tied up some loose ends.
- learned a few new songs on the piano.
- drank the cool aid and bought a wii. and a wii fit.
- cheered my steelers on to another superbowl victory.
- was told by one of the world’s leading astrophysicists that i have “smart eyes”. fancy that.
- learned that poor communication is usually at the root of all misunderstandings.
- was told that i am a “textbook INFP“. i took that as a compliment.
- visited the george washington masonic memorial in alexandria, virginia. promptly added it to my list of “creepy” places.
- joined my country in voting for change. yes i did.
- started shooting in RAW. haven’t stopped yet.
- walked along the tidal basin under a canopy of cherry blossoms.
- experienced the release of another new tori album.
- traded in my prius for a new BMW.
- redecorated my living room.
- took a photography class.
- said goodbye to my friend of 16 years.
- was reminded that family and friends are what make life worth living.
it’s been a good year, filled with promise. goodbye 33, i’ll remember you fondly.
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when you have only two pennies left in the world, buy a loaf of bread with one, and a lily with the other. (chinese proverb)
]]>maybe repeating is the point.
i know enough of my life to realize that i’m always teetering between the highs and the lows. the lows, as dark as they may seem, serve to reset things, to force a little introspection, and ultimately to put me back on track for the highs — the truly exhilarating highs. and come they will, they always do.
i’d much rather have a see-saw existence of highs and lows than live with the steady, flat, even pace of contentment — completely lacking passion, excitement and course-altering revelations. a life anesthetized.
no thank you.
it’s in these times of struggle that i find clarity.
i wouldn’t want it any other way.
]]>[from the archives – i originally posted this one year ago and yet i find myself at exactly the same spot today. i need to get out of this cycle. i seem to be stuck on repeat.]
my house has many rooms.
i occupy but a few.
i heard this about a month ago and have been wanting to write about it ever since. for some reason, i’ve had a hard time finding the right words. i think maybe because i’ve been struggling a bit lately and this seems to cut close to the reason why.
despite wanting to live a life of beauty and magic, a life that fills me with pride and accomplishment and peace, i’m feeling generally uninspired and unfulfilled. it’s a hard thing for me to admit, but the truth is that i’m unhappy with both my personal and professional lives, and i have been for some time. the thing that scares me most, though, is that i don’t feel a driving force to change things. instead, i feel tired and discouraged and frustrated and apathetic.
it’s a dark place.
i know i could be doing so much more with my life — i have so much more to give — i have so many other rooms to explore, but i’m just not sure where or when or how to start.