I am Hannah, I dont have any nicknames, and just go by Hannah. I am freakishly tall and rather giggly, I have dark hair that goes through stages of being un-brushed and unloved or perfectly groomed. Most bloggers put something funny here or a picture but I will save that for my posts.
When I was very young I wanted to be a teacher or a lawyer or a doctor like most children of my age. Now I have no idea. This is the main reason why I am at university, in a big northern city to be precise, well that and the social life. I spent most of last year not working, not really doing anything, just being unwell so when I found I had got into university it was a great surprise. I had planned to spend this year in bed playing sims, or being a Patrick Wolf groupie. Instead I am spending alot of time in bed thinking about all the journals I should be reading and listening to Patrick Wolf while sticking random pictures to my wall. I am a Londoner at heart and am now up here, its better than where my parents live but you can’t really compare it to London it’s so different. I pretend to be sporty and go to the gym when I feel like it, however, most of my exercise comes from walking to the supermarket a few times a week to buy sugar free jelly and watermelon.
I like charity shops, Laura Marling, American politics, the bagel shop on Brick Lane, talking exchange rates, spending hours on facebook, Johnny Flynn, and bbc iplayer. I really, really dislike egg, dirty fingernails, Boris Johnson, cold tomato, Chaucer, the BNP, and people who play music on their mobiles on public transport.
I started off with a diagnosis of depression, I was not happy about this but then at that time I was not happy about much at all. When they gave me antidepressants I became manic and psychotic very quickly. After being forced into hospital twice I was told I had bipolar. On good days I deny that I have manic depression and on bad days I deny that I have manic depression. Occasionally I believe that my diagnosis is correct but most of the time I am angry, bitter and twisted.
Coloured mind and scattered thoughts 
Laura Marling. Laura Marling! Yay, you said you like Laura Marling (OK, and Johnny Flynn) so I am of course coming back to your blog. 😀 Plus I think it was you commented on mine earlier…? You didn’t leave a link but the username was the same, right? colouredmind?
Anyway. So, hi. I’ll be back.
Su x
“…the bagel shop on Brick Lane”.
Yes, cream cheese with smoked salmon. Also, early morning on the Sunday market the eccentric stalls are brilliant. There was a guy last Summer who sold nothing but rusted old cogs.
Oops! While I was here I meant to say that your comment on my site got trapped in the spam queue. I’ve untrapped it and it now appears. I did see the R D Laing article.
Mental patient- i was on brick lane yesterday to get bagels and i saw someone selling keys, no locks or doors to put them in. Just an ssortment of keys all different ages and sizes- I was very confused
Ah, well. Many people collect keys. Me, for one.
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No, I don’t. But my sister does.
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No, she doesn’t. But someone must!
Suzy x
people who play music on their mobiles on public transport
What if they use headphones? 🙂
You remind me of a friend who also lives in London and gave her A Levels last year.
Rock on! 🙂
Suzy- I lost the key to my bedroom door its a really old original thing. Maybe if I buy enough old random keys I might find one that fits my door. Or you could put them on necklaces to look ummm cool. Actually they would be quite good to throw at people you dont like, you know slightly heavy and pointed. I better shut up, I am not showung myself in a very good light.
Ashish- Nice to see you, welcome. yeah headphones are cool unless the music is so loud that you can hear the music still really I hate it when you get loud giggly kids on the back of a bus or train playing it from mobile speakers. Unless of course they are playing music I like and then that behaviour must be rewarded.
Lol. I use noise-cancelling ones which don’t let outside sounds enter my brain [other than the song] and don’t emit the sounds going in my brain to the outside. 😀
But yeah, people playing songs on mobile speakers are annoying.
Have a great day. 🙂
If you’re interested in such things, you’ve been tagged for a meme.
Why o why do you dislike Boris? How can you hate on someone with hair like his? 😛
Suzy x
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Just stumbled accross your blog today. I have never really gotten into the whole reading or writting a blog part of the internet as of yet, dispite having been using it for years and years (like the rest of the population 🙂 ).
I think that could be about to change 🙂 !
It’s rather enlightening to read about other peoples way of thinking and feeling and to find that dispite what everyone seems to have been telling me, I’m not the only one that felt/feels the way a did/do.
So, thanks 🙂
um… pls can i ask a noob question… how do you make a note, or ‘subscribe’ to someone’s blog? *embarrassed technophobe smiley*
thanks
x
Fear and self loathing- Well if you go to your dashbord and click blog surfer you can enter URLs and it then shows a copy of each new post by anyone you are subscribed to. Or if you look to the top right of your screen under blog info you can click subscribe but it only works for wordpress blogs. Oh and you might want to put a link in your name so people can find your blog from camments you leave so to do that go to your profile where you added your picture and add your blog URL. Hope this helps. Hannah X
thx hannah – i think i got the subscribing thing down – can’t figure out the linking my name thing tho….. hewp?
lol
seriously – thanks for your help 😀
x
ooh – i think i did it!
did i?
x
Yes you did. X
woooooo!!!!
thanks for all your help honey!
x
I was looking around in WordPress.com and found your blog today and I came to appreciate what you have here. I have added you to my Health Blog blogroll and was wondering if you might add me to yours? Either way, thanks for the great experience of visiting your site and hope you enjoy mine. Thanks Jessie
Duh…I don’t think I left you my url… lol, https://myhealthwisdom.wordpress.com/ I haven’t got a lot up yet but when i find something I like I add it.
Thanks Jessie
Hey Hannah, I love your blog and don’t know why I haven’t blogrolled you already but I have now. If that’s not ok then let me know.
Karen x
Thank you for you comment, it’s nice to hear that people do read my blog. [I’m going 2 read yours now!]
I like to make things postive as I can otherwise we’d all be depressed.
Hope you keep reading.
Thank you!
Hi Hannah. Wow, for 18 you have a really mature perspective on life. Alas, that sometimes comes with the territory. We have to grow up too fast.
I myself have bipolar, and I’m currently writing a book on it. “Now I Know My Father: A Story of Bipolar, Suicide and Hope” is my memoir of growing up with my bipolar father, losing him to suicide, and my own struggles with the illness.
I’m looking for other people who are struggling with bipolar and who have blogs, so we can trade links and keep in touch. We’ve got a growing community and a voice that’s gaining strength every day.
Please check out my blog at darknessandlight.us and let me know if you think we may be able to trade links.
Thanks!
Carrie Cantwell
epitomegirl.com
Hi Hannah-Florence. Can I possibly have your email address? I have a proposition for your blog. Thanks
I don’t know If I said it already but …Great site…keep up the good work. 🙂 I read a lot of blogs on a daily basis and for the most part, people lack substance but, I just wanted to make a quick comment to say I’m glad I found your blog. Thanks, 🙂
A definite great read..Tony Brown
zen
meditation
buddhism
and stuff like this might help you. Not a quick fix, but these things can be life altering. There is an escape, somewhere.
Dear Coloured Mind and Scattered Thoughts,
As the media intern for a non-profit focusing on mental health advocacy, I recently came across your organization in my online search for mental health resources and believe there is an excellent opportunity for cross-promotion between our Web sites.
Peers Envisioning and Engaging in Recovery Services, or PEERS, is a consumer-run agency that is leading the innovative Social Inclusion Campaign in Alameda County, California. The mission of the campaign is to promote social inclusion of and end stigma and discrimination against individuals with mental health issues.
One way we hope to promote social inclusion is by asking members of the community to make a personal commitment to end mental health stigma. By taking the “Stigma Stops with Me” Facebook pledge on our website (https://www.peersnet.org/pledges/makepledge) or on our Facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/pages/PEERS-Peers-Envisioning-Engaging-in-Recovery-Services/82259569303), you will be bringing people together to combat mental health stigmatization and advocate for the betterment of the community as a whole. We also welcome any friends, family, or colleagues you have who may be interested to pledge as well.
In addition, we are interested in placing your link and logo on the PEERS Web site as a “Community Partner” at https://www.peersnet.org/partners. In return, we would appreciate a PEERS logo and link placement on your site if you are able.
Thank you, and I look forward to the opportunity of working together!