Coevals Perception

Wow. Been awhile. 


Not up to reading all the old posts, reliving the feelings..
No.


Not now.

I have met up with an old friend. We have been able to squeeze in a few moments of time here and there, and I am feeling a little more grounded. I have been taking time to go on slow drives down long dirt roads, I have been learning to relax, I have been taking things in one at a time, I have been learning to appreciate me and my worth. I have been spending time with my sister and mother, and daughter lately. This is my favorite time of the year - so far.

Having been getting to know my "new" routine has been unusual... but I'm coming around. I'm learning that I do NOT need to answer to all - though it is hard to break that when I've lived that for too many years to count. Friday night my daughter and 4 kids spent the night and we went to my nephew's marching band performance at the High School Homecoming game. We had a very nice time, and a very good visit until the wee hours of the morning. Saturday I stayed with the little ones and gave her money for a tire, one that she had not noticed, front driver's side was completely slick. She returned shortly and had the kids vacuum and pick up their things and left. I had the place to myself by noon. I heard from an old friend and was invited to go out to the country for a little R and R and though waiting on other plans to materialize, I just decided to throw an overnight bag in the car and go, so I did. And I had the most amazing, relaxing time.

We danced in the kitchen We experienced the mountains We laughed. We caught the butterflies We absorbed our surroundings We laughed. We spoke of living We spoke of dying We loved.

With changes come hope. With hope comes focus. With focus comes progress. With progress comes peace, one moment at a time