Emotional Connection

From Saudi with love - my Tatay took a vacation to take care of my Nanay...A dedicated husband and certified caregiver...Most of the times, I was just silently observing him - how he light-heartedly served his wife.

I recall one incident...While I was lying on the floor in our sala, I got awake and saw my Tatay covering my legs with blanket...I was so touched as if I'm still a teenager who's being protected by a father.

His hospitality is natural - he's always ready to offer anything to our visitors...His favorite is hot espresso served in small cups...He's a good listener and has wit and humor...My Nanay's circle of friends is very much amused of my Tatay - how he cracked jokes as "tagabola" in their weekly Bingo social.

There were countless little acts of kindness he has done for us - not only to his family but to others.

I want to thank and honor my Tatay for spending a meaningful vacation with us....I really appreciate all the sacrifices he's been doing for us, his demonstrative love for my Nanay, his simplicity, and faith in God....

I hate this feeling...so many questions on my mind - why and what went wrong? I really don't know the answer....no matter how i keep myself busy, thoughts of the past keep disturbing my sanity...i'm tired of being emotional....Can't help myself but seek help from my one and only dependable friend whom I've ignored in some of the critical decisions in my life...oh, help me GOD!!!

It's true, sometimes "my ways are not Your WAYS." Be My Guide, and help me lead a good life because my ultimate goal is to be with YOU....Searching for my own happiness is never-ending and unattainable....only in YOU can I find true peace and happiness by forgetting myself and finding joy in serving others and expecting nothing in return...Teach me how to love even more, to forgive easily, and to trust once again...