I have some extremely interesting epiphanies (or realizations):

Everybody is acting out of their past experiences (trauma/ pains/ wounds). Everybody is on their own path and that has nothing to do with who we are

Everybody is trying to heal from their past and trying their best to live a normal life

That is expressed through silence, tears, anger, frustration, overdoing things, and so on

No one is really responsible for my happiness

Also, all souls are connected in some way or another. We are not really separate. Although we are different in the way we look and behave. On some level (I cannot term the word currently), we are connected by our experiences, beliefs, wounds, our acts.

The more I understand about the universe, meet different people in my life, the more I look back at my life, after the experience is over, I realize that life is always teaching me something. But that’s a boring and condescending way to look at it.

I would re-frame it: Everything that is happening to me is happening for my highest good.

To become a whole version of me.

To become more aware.

To be the expression of love.

Recently I have had some experiences that caused me some pain

As I got some time to sit with myself and my triggers/ thoughts, I noticed that there is so much pain in my body.

I noticed my eyes….

I talked to my eyes in the mirror.

I noticed and observed the war that existed in me

That wanted to be FREE

To be finally free.

To stop judging my own self

And then I burst into tears.

It was a huge relief.