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Apologies for having forgotten this blog. I have too much stuff I dwell on, eating all my time and energy. Quite frankly, these past couple of weeks, I’ve been feeling consumed, unhappy and stuck. I was living a life I despise. I lack the passion and drive. This is not who I want to be, not what I want to do.

One day, someone asked me what I was waiting for. I told him “I don’t know. Maybe a miracle.” And just randomly he said,  “Don’t get too down or feel too trapped. Become the person that you want to be and not what others expect of you. Do it for you.”

In that moment, it just hit me. I spend all my time whining and not doing anything. I am trapped because I settled. This was what I chose. 

But it is not too late. It is not yet to late to live.

DREAM. TRUST. HOLD ON.

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Major Major

So there had been a lot of fuzz regarding the answer that was said to have caused Venus Raj the crown. If I were in her place, I don’t know what I would have said too. But I’m a totally different case. I wasn’t trained for that.

However, my brother is.

Over dinner, I asked him the same question: What is the biggest mistake that you’ve ever made in your life and what did you do to make it right?

He answered, “I don’t believe in mistakes. I believe in lessons.”

Quite deep for a 15 year old, don’t you think?

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Vanity Teen

Hey you guys! I haven’t mentioned here before but I’m contributing for the Vanity Teen website now. Mainly, I write about male models. Typical. haha. But there. I hope you guys check it out if you have time.

Here are the segments that I am writing for:

https://vanityteen.es/categoria/the-other-side/

https://vanityteen.es/categoria/male-model-street-style/

https://vanityteen.es/categoria/new-kid-on-the-block/

And here is my profile:

https://vanityteen.es/contributors-carmel-co/

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So you think you can dance?

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cos James Smith sure can.

watch the video here.

P.S. I’m calling dibs on this boy.

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Androgyny

I remembered the time I started to like models. I got so crazy with the skinny punk boy look. Think Cole Mohr, Ash Stymest. As my growing fascination for models continued, the types of boys I liked evolved. Mostly they were still the skinny ones, but there came a time when I liked the beefy Brazilian ones, one in particular (Francisco Lachowski). It’s kind of like mood swings. Flavors of the month. Phases.

If you read my blog from time to time, you’d probably have guessed that I’m in to the androgynous male models now. It’s the oddness that makes it really beautiful, I think. With that, I would like to share my top 5 favorite androgynous models.

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Marcel Castenmiller – Duh! This was so obvious, right. I’ve made quite a number of posts about him already. There’s just something about him that makes him so cool. I also feel like he has a good personality. And I don’t think I could say it enough, but he is just soooo beautiful. Possibly the most beautiful I’ve seen, ever. And I think other people are feeling this too since he’s been booking a lot of shows last fashion week and note 2 major campaigns for FW10: Versace and Fujiwara!

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Jaco Van den Hoven – Now this is not surprising either. How could you not love this boy. He’s so charming. And those blue eyes just pierces right through me. I wish he would get more work though. I’ve seen him doing a lot of work in Japan but I think he would fit the Parisian look. I hope the casting directors see that. ‘Til then, I would just be continuously routing for this boy.

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Tomek Szczukiecki – This boy is just captivating. He is so beautiful, I’m out of words. He’s like a gypsy. Always always takes stunning photos and looks marv on the runways too. His beauty is just so in demand this season booking the Paul Smith and Versace FW10 campaigns, kudos Tomek!

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Michael Tintiuc – A recent favorite. After following his lirfons tumblr, he started to grow on me. Not only does he have a stunning face, he also has a great style and he styles and designs clothes too. And oh, did I mention he skateboards? Is that just cool or what?

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Paul Boche – One of my favorite Germans. He’s got very strong features and I think it really looks great, especially on pictures because it gives off a strong character.

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Spin your top

With movies, I normally have very low expectations. It’s so easy for me to like a movie, cos I don’t really set a level, you know. I want the movie experience to be stress-free and light. So most of the time, I enjoy watching movies except if it’s really bad (e.g. local movies. no offense.) But the thing about me is that I only enjoy it one time. The next time I watch it, it would bore me already. I think in economics, it’s called Diminishing Marginal Utility. The happiness and experience you got from the first time you did something, would never equate to when you do it again.

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A week ago, because of the rage with this Inception movie, I decided to go see it for myself. Boy, was that awesome. I know I have low standards, but even if I had high, I’d still like that. My heart was beating so fast the entire time. It was so intense. And not to mention, JGL was the best. The most chic ever. With the sleek back comber hair, and the three pieces suits and cashmere, I can almost see an editorial. haha. But going back to the story, that was seriously a mindfuck. After the movie, I felt like I lost track of everything. I kept asking myself, “Where the hell did I lost it?” I thought of reading spoilers and explanations online, but then I realized that it would confuse me more. So I watched the movie again. I guess, the thing about these kind of movies, is that it plays with your head so much, you have to see it again to understand. Unlike the other films I’ve repeated, watching the movie for the second time was quite a good experience for me as it enlightened me. It wasn’t as heart pounding as when I first saw it, but it was nice. I still am not certain about the plot but I understand it more now.

And oh, because of the movie, I think I want to name my future daughter, Ariadne. It’s such a nice name, don’t you think?

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Scottish Skwatings

So, menswear fashion week is done, World cup just ended and NYFW doesnt start til September. I have nothing left to do. So I decided to watch Trainspotting. I heard from a person I follow in twitter that it was good so I decided to give it a try.  And I loved it. I loved every bit of it. 

I’d like to let the movie speak for itself though.

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I’d like to come up with more reasons why I loved this movie but, as Mark Renton would put it,

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XX

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Octopus Dinner

Last night was such a bad game, I can’t even. I woke up 2:30 am with hope in my heart that Germany would make it to the finals. But that game crushed my heart. The last minutes I couldn’t even watch. It was too painful. I was so frustrated because we kept losing possession. We spent so much time defending (which was good defense, in all fairness), and had very few attempts at the goal. I couldn’t help but wish the Mueller was there. He could have done something, that’s for sure. But, despite this loss, I’m still so proud of Germany for making it this far, for giving us such good games, for letting us gain new friends as we all cheered for this team. I would like to give them all a hug. Klose, Schweinsteiger, Podolski, Kroos, Lahm, Özil, Neuer and everyone else.  Danke Deutschland. We’ll still be cheering on Sunday. 🙂

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And of course, I’d still be watching the game on Monday and sport my FIFA eye bags. I love my Dutch boys too. Van Persie, don’t let me down.

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p.s. I didn’t know World Cup could cause me so much stress. I was just in it for the boys when this all started, tbh. :))

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The Case of the Lost Pants

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So I woke up to the voice of my sister, shouting at me, saying that I lost the pants I borrowed from her. I wasn’t in the mood to fight with her so I pretended to sleep. It was 12 in the afternoon, and I still have a headache cos I stayed up all morning, watching Holland win. I tried to sleep but I can’t anymore. My sister doesn’t leave for school until an hour. I don’t want to get up. She might see me awake and I’m still to lazy to deal with her and the lost pants. So I just lied in the bed with my eye mask still on. I have nothing to do but watch the time go by. I started to think of stuff. Stuff probably unnecessary, irrelevant, but I had the time and I had nothing left to do. I think about how hard it is to pull out another all-nighter. I haven’t recovered from my lack of sleep from the previous game. But regardless if I recover or not, it’s certain I’m going to stay-up for later’s match. Klose, Podolski and Neuer will haunt me in my sleep if I miss it. Plus I have to prove the psychic octupus wanker wrong. And oh, I forgot to mention, later’s game would be an eye-candy overload. Definitely not missing that. And then right there, in the middle of my battle against myself if I’m staying up for the game, I had a realization. I am obsessed with sleep. Oh well, fine, I had that realization a long time ago already, but today I realized why I love my sleep so much. I have nothing to look forward to. Nothing. Zero. I’m thankful that I live a good life but I lack life itself. I excessively sleep  because I’m blank. I have nothing to give, nothing to offer. Not to anyone, not even to myself. I sleep to waste time. I sleep because I cannot make myself worthwhile. But don’t fret. I am not depressed or anything. Frankly, I’m relieved that I am able to realize something. Maybe soon enough, I’ll even try to make sense, for a change. haha. I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore. I better go.  Deutschland für Weltmeister! 

p.s.  I posted a picture of a stunning german boy in hope for a victorious germany. Go Deutschland!  😉

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Sticker Board

I’d just like to share the new background I made for my tumblr.

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It looks like a sticker board, doesn’t it? 🙂 I remember when I was younger, I love collecting stickers and putting them on sticker boards. But now that I’m all grown up, I’m replacing ponies and rainbows with pretty boys. Also cos I suck at photoshop and this is the best I could do. 🙂

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