After posting my previous post,(A life of Covid 19), I certainly did not expect any replies. Let’s face it, people say they want the truth, but what they really want is lies. In my previous post, I did not point any fingers at anyone. I merely stated that we are ALL to be blamed. We are all to be blamed because of the lies we tell each other and ourselves. We tell each other it is not your fault. We say to ourselves that we cannot change anything. Both are lies and too many fail to see this. I pointed out our wrongs and I also pointed out the truth. The truth is, just as we allowed this to happen, we can also make certain it never happens again.

So obviously, I expected no one to else to share responsibility for our world and I expected no one to challenge the truth of my message. What I did not expect was my egotistical mother to reply, after she has been asked over and over again to leave me alone. I did not expect her to take a message meant for everyone and make it about herself. Just to demonstrate I do not lie. Here is a screenshot of her reply to my post. I cannot show it any other way. Anyone who owns a blog here knows that once you approve a comment, every comment from that person will be automatically approved. So here is the screenshot-

As you can clearly see she takes a post meant for humanity as a whole and makes it about her. But what should you expect from a self-centered, pathological liar?

I was wondering if kicking your son, wife, and grandchild(both wife and grandson had the flu) out to the streets and then telling the entire family that is was our decision to leave, was a lie of omission? How exactly did covering the atrocities of your actions count as protection?

How about lying about coming to pickup the grandchildren and then at the last minute changing your mind to spend with your friends instead. Thus leaving the grandchildren sad and wondering if they even mattered. How was that a lie by omission? How did that protect me?

Then after having had two other chances at being a decent grandparent, you turn around and accuse me of not inviting you to my son’s wedding. As if my son could not decide who he wanted there. But of course, my mother always blamed me for everything everyone else did. In fact, it seems like it was her life mission to blame me for everything. No wonder the family believed her when she said we were not kicked out of her house. I am sure she had been directly lying to them all those years. Anyone out there want this woman for your mother? Please do take her. She only lies about her lies. Completely pathological!

She went out of her way to ruin my life. No, this is not some teenager ranting about his parents. This is a very sober, and very tired of their shit, adult of 55 yrs. old talking. Let me state some examples:

She ripped me from Iowa knowing that I had spent over 4 yrs. in school learning electronics. I was going to be in a special co-op my last year of high school to get on the job training for a career. This little selfish act cost me a lifetime career. But she had to move away from her career in Real Estate to be with her family that single fucking year.

She kept choosing abusive alcoholic men to hook up with. So, I could sit downstairs and enjoy the screaming and physical fighting when I was but a small child. Talk about trauma!

She let her younger alcoholic brother babysit us. Because letting an alcoholic, druggie who molests young boys and throws parties while my mother was doing who knows what, was the best babysitter she could find. Later on she managed to find an abusive woman who’s husband owned a dog that chewed a child’s face off. That was indeed a step up! Not sure if you believe she would leave me with a child molester? Here is a screenshot from a recent text of a childhood friend, who was molested by him, and then was dumb enough to trust Rick( the younger brother)with his child.-

A little bit more proof that I do indeed tell the truth.

She kicked me out so many times, I actually lost count. The reasons(lies) as to why were always different but it was always the same story. When I had no money to give her, she kicked me out. That is what it always came down to with this so-called mother. It did not matter if I was on probation, parole, in college, or actively looking for work. (A side note, that meant going out of the house and walking all day in the lovely Texas heat, without any money for even a drink.

She let her brother come over and harass me into drinking for an entire week just after I came back from prison. She could not stand to have me back sober. Then she would have no reason to blame for me having no money, except herself.

She would tell me that if any women put her hands on me, it meant they disrespected me and I should return the favor. Then time after time would proceed to physically attack me. When I one time moved her back away from me, she blatantly lied to current husband and told him I hit her. I got sucker punched for that. Let me make that clear, I got hit in the belly, it knocked all the air of me and I dropped. This happened because I tried to stop from being hit repeatedly by my mother.

When she could no longer beat me hard enough with a belt to get a sound out of me, she had her abusive husband beat me so bad, I could not sit down for a week. Needless to say, I got out of school for a week. We could not have our son with welts and bruises on his legs be seen in gym class shorts.

She left me completely unsupervised when I was a small child. Forcing me to eat nothing but cereal for every meal. I get that she was sick, but how fucking irresponsible can you be? You could not had someone, anyone come check on me?

Her abuse did not end with the physical. It was always something I did wrong, even if it was someone else who did. My youngest brother broke something while I was going to the bathroom, my fault. Then there was the outright vulgarity. “Your a worthless piece of shit who will never amount to anything”. She said that so many times, I have it memorized!

Can you begin to see how it would appear that this woman went out of her way to create a monster and then punished me when I became one?

I tell her to go away. I tell I want her leave me or my family alone. I tell her, but she just does not listen. I guess the only thing left to do is to start building a harassment case.

Can you see why I would want to forget my past, my family, the abuse, the lies, all of it? I want to but I know now, I won’t. I will never forget and I will never forgive. I won’t forgive because the lies never end. You cannot forgive someone who admits to no wrong.

Now the world knows, at least a portion of my horrid childhood. Do you envy me? Feel sorry? I doubt either. The world needs to at least change the second part of this, if we are to change things. We need to start caring. Caring about each other and and about the world we live in. That is how we changes things. The lies will never fix anything!

JB