While, maybe…

Because the warden got tired watching iron bars fatigue with sad stories and inmate dreams sidestepping an eternity of promised Sunday miracles, you woke up too late to be of any use to the beggars hanging around your powder puff wish list of daydream prayers, demanding more than pursestrings, manna or redemption.

After dark the road less traveled, spirals downhill to nowhere, and belly dancers shake shake, and shoppers clamor for true believer bargains, and the scores to settle and thought bubble battles get mediated by stiff arm crossing guards at the gates of the field of fictitious dreams, everyone wants to play ball in.

Just about that time lepers wake in alms houses, loud with wagers betting on better body parts, the one legged man trying on pants, the handless women stretching into fingerless gloves, and no one is more surprised than this poet, how dark a poem this turned out to be, on its way to anticipated birthdays, and quite slumbers.

It’s Not Simple

I wish there was a simple explanation,
a truth or two wise enough to pierce
through walls of indifference

Sad tadpole, inebriated fetus, unaware
vagabond, not prescient enough to expand
upon what is nascent of your curiosity

If small words had a chance to move you
from your stance, then you would already
live in a different neighborhood

But bullish on the temperament of made
up promises, you insist there is a
nirvana worth dying for

I wish a simple explanation for the
blindness binding us to the hope of a
someday eternal salvation, existed

But small words are not so special…

I found mirth on a street corner, lonely

How does it feel, not owning your parts, hearing about yourself from the tongues of strangers alive on different shores, taking credit for the greatness they created from your meanderings and loose lip pontifications, as they walk up a stage and accept awards for their borrowed distinctions?

Faded and fading still, the photo of you taken by a memory, eager you’ll sing for mom; answer questions for teachers, or stand tall like a hero. Instead, you’re in a cathedral, praying for the day everyone gets along well enough to go for a drive near a cliff, and have no one tempted by the devil to dive up and over. 

The street between you and your greatness, is crowded shoulder to shoulder with salesmen, intent on messianic outcomes, with their own worlds to save – you’re to obey, pay, and agree to make do with as little as you deserve, and be prideful of their great and well earned achievements, Hallelujah!

A Love Affair With Genies

Lazy people, the unimaginative, look for genies,
wanting to bask in the glory of some unearned
destiny, because they believe in deservedness

Genies are like fat promises, others should do
for you, allowing you to collect rewards
without the remorse of getting your hands dirty

Genies take more than they give while wearing
pointed toe slippers and garish turbans, hollow
laughing at your approval, gullibility & consent

You, undeterred, want to meet more genies:
one to make you beautiful, two to make you
rich, three to grant you an infinity of wishes

You May Always Wish For Better

(I)

The floor changes daily, its geometry is never
even, never stable, never safe enough for gravity
to assert itself like Newton might argue it should

Rumbles are the soundscape clapped like thunder
by unseen hands always at the busy to disrupt what
wishes to remain quiet far from the bell men

It is not a passing fancy to notice heat rising. It is not
a faithless fear that keeps those who know away from
the shore, that edge is no place to peer into the future

(II)

It may seem like you do not have enough, but your
neighbors surround your successes like sick puppy
vagabonds lusting to consume your every morsel

City and town, spark kindle towards greed and
abandonment – where good times go un-noticed
like toys and mechanical remedies often do

There is no forever, change is reliable though, a train
will eventually arrive at some station and perhaps by
chance you will find yourself able to hear its whistle

Well?

Wealth without tenderness or calming mercy;
trains without backbones of conscionable
destinations; terrains without variegation,
powdered skies or romantic notions; momentum
without a forward plan or direction; music
without cadence, lilt or sound; love without
the embracing of duality; houses without a
home sweet home orientation; trade without
consensual and permission granted agreements

A mother and a daughter bruised by the
antecedents of a father’s rage, live in a mansion
across the street from a pedigreed polo field;
unknown about, invisible really, and are as
forgettable as the death of one of them in the
backyard pool, glared at by a sky crossing sun

Bounce without vibrance or enthusiasm; smoke
without forest fires signalling aggressive
intentions; hope without blind prejudice;
symmetry without saddle sore mimicry,
paintings without the profanity of bigotry;
prayers without soul crushing beggery; cliffs
without compliant and loyal lemmings; hunger
without edible or locatable food; crime without
culpability, and white men without the comfort
of their guns

In my past life

There was an equator, an inside and an outside.
Deflections and distortions littered reality, with 
misunderstood encyclopedic meanings. Lizards
tattooed floors, and distant wails faked solitaire
as their attempt at conversation.

On Sunday, lottery prayers sailed upwards, brows
sweated defeat down and over furrows of one thing
and not enough of another; no one was sober, nor
was there a reputable authority to lob a question
to and check on the veracity of the word, Jesus.

Cyclically it all seemed like the same day but
really, a great many days had been torn from the
calendar, like pages subtracted from diaries; the
prayers could have been about something, but
smoldered like something much less than less.

Then an all together unexpected rain arrives to
blur the scene, flowers begin growing through
concrete, stillness becomes movement and a
relief to those with the temerity to have
endured the wanting.

If you listened more…

Child laughs, distant voice cascades, the past; an echo that might have happened. Big men, little babies, indistinguishably dreaming; one a father the other a child, in the blurry orchard shadows making up songs of remembrance.

A mother with longings beyond childbirth paces, then drops to the floor writhing and incoherently garbling songs about industry and stair climbing with almost no historical precedent, far from the story, away from the myth, into a different doorway.

You, nothing more than you, wanting to be anyone on their way to a somewhere better place up a steep hill out of harm’s way like an assured monarch in no real need of nursery rhymes or bible hymns, or the praising of one thing over another.

All places are dioramas of past occurrences without the content of fact, concurrence, or actual histories; not even the flies on the wall are accurate or truthful witnesses to what imbues our magical, thank god, we still breathe metaphors, though they will try their best, too.

A Short Stream of Unconsciousness

Meaningless words about glorious things spray like aerosol from tin cans of man mouths, repeating like mantras: everlasting but simple origin and destination explanations, until everything is sticky and wet with spiritual or science glue – but still too late, about face, and as ever, confused.

Mighty particulates of gray matter mosaic tile spatter a hopscotch of lurid facts, despotic wisdom rages and ignorance, making intellectuals double think through the hazards of retreating to any previous saintly safe place near cliffs, monoliths, or distant seashores.

(A fixed concept becomes either more or less believable depending on whether or not a mass of people become willing to simultaneously relax their belief muscles, with enough time to course correct against their impending sense of better than thou righteous panic.)

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…surely, madness…

what follows being led by fools