be.a.Voice.not.an.Echo

Vision pt. 1

September 12, 2008 at 4:57 pm (Uncategorized)

So I’ve realized that i am not really good at this whole blogging thing, because i hardely ever actually write on here. But oh well ill give this a try…

I’ve been working part time at Ressurection Fellowship church with 3 year olds, and i just want to start off by saying that i LOOOOOVE it! We got up to 24 kids in a room that is supposed to hold at least half of that, needless to say it was fairly choatic, (and most the kids had runny noses, which at that age is to be expected!) I had 2 kids that clung to me almost the entire time, which i thought was cute, except it made it hard to move when some of the kids were hiting each other. Anyways i survived those 3 plus hours and am looking foward to the next time we have a million kids! Now i was thinking last night, that although i loove that age group of pretty little kids, i’ve also been feeling called towards a little bit older ones like 6-8th grade (especially girls of that age.) I’ve felt this call for a while but i have been fighting with it because i cant stand most kids that age, so i am finding it strange that God wants to put me there as well..I guess saying that i find it strange isnt exactly how i feel about it, because I know that through this God wants to teach me as well as the girls of this age group some important things. One of which came to me last night, i really feel that at this age like before high school is a critical time. That is when most girls are trying to find who they are, they want to fit in to certain groups, act and dress a certain way (mostly to impress the boys) But the word that kept comming to my mind was IDENTITY and before they go into high school and try to find who they are, i think its important to show them that they have an IDENTITY in Christ. I could go on about this forever, but maybe ill write more about it later on!! (but i highly doubt that i will…) Anyways my heart towards missions is still strong as ever, and i cant wait to start fulfilling my dreams of becomming a missionary! Im beginning to wonder how i can feel such a call to so many different things.

So to wrap it all up i’ll leave you with this one question that i have been asking myself a lot lately, you dont have to necessarily respond on here, its more important that you just think about it.

*WHO ARE YOU WHEN NO ONE IS LOOKING?*(if you really looked down way deep inside and saw your heart in whatever condition it may be in, what is ONE word that describes what its like?)

Thanks for reading, Love you all! -Kimmi3

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UNDEFEATED

May 29, 2008 at 3:59 am (Uncategorized)

Ok, so if you’ve been around me at all this past week you prolly would have noticed my attitude being not quite the best..Actually its been pretty darn bad. BUT i decided a couple days ago to give God another chance (not like he did anything to make himself not deserve another chance..) But anyways thats besides the point..Sooo i walk into Catalyst totally feeling DEFEATED not really feeling like i could accomplish anything in life, and then i remember ok better attitude..so im trying (which is very difficult) So worship starts and i find myself pondering about just like stupid stuff, and im like no this is not going to happen, so i put all my focus on God and get completely LOST in worshiping Him! And then Pastor Travis starts talking about what he “Wished someone would have told him at 15”. i think to myself well im not exactly 15 so this wont really apply to me (lame). So anyways everything that he is saying is really speaking to me, about not giving up, not quitting. And im like hmmmmmm ok ok, i think im really supposed to be hearing this right now..And then he said that you may have come in here tonight feeling DEFEATED(and im like umm yes.) But you dont have to leave that way..you can leave VICTORIOUS! And i think to myself, wow, this is awsome.. He also said a quote by Winston Churchill and it was 4 simple words, “NEVER NEVER NEVER QUIT!”…I was like ok im not quitting, im getting back up, dusting myself off, and taking a step foward…SOOOO we close with some amazing worship, with everyone crammed up at the front jumping around hands raised, and just the feeling of everyone so completely in LOVE with God, it was really cool… Ok so to close i just wanted to say that being DEFEATED is a choice and you definantly dont have to stay that way.. Jesus has already DEFEATED EVERYTHING! even DEATH itself.. So whatever your going through its not too much to be VICTORIOUS over through CHRIST! Much Love! -Kimmi3

“For i know the plans i have for you,”declares the LORD,”Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future!” (Jeremiah 29:11)

“The LORD will fight for you;you need only to be still” (Exodus 14:14)

“I am writing to you who are young in the faith becuase you have won your battle with the evil one.” (1 John 2:13b)

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Worship

May 14, 2008 at 10:05 pm (Uncategorized)

Soo this is my first post and as i was sitting here trying to ponder what to write about it just hit me…Worship! Last night all of Cataylst combined with the regular wed. church service and had an AMAZING worship night…Even the little kiddies came down from upstairs for a couple of songs, that was pretty cool. Ok so anyways, as i was singing i really felt that God was saying to me like lay it all down, im really good at laying what is easy or what i dont want in my life anymore down(and im sure everyone can relate) but its the stuff that you want to hold onto so tight that you really just have to let go of. i sadly tried to ignore that- but it just kept comming back. For these past couple weeks i’ve almost been fighting with God, which is quite hopeless, bacuase he’s right your wrong, end of story….Well me being the incredibly stubborn person that i am, kept trying to prove to God that i can both praise him,and live in a world full of lies. Huh, uh yea clearly that wont work, its definantly one or the other, so as hard as it is im TRYING to choose the ONLY praising him part, which ehh is definantly not going to be easy..Ok so i kind of got side-tracked, anyways so besides laying it all down you just have to let go..And ooo those 2 words, some of my least favorite ever. i feel like in the past year i have let go of soooooooo many things, and still being asked to let go of more seems almost un-fair, which doesnt make sense because it is in my best interst. So i just keep on worshiping trying to ignore that one also-not working too well…

Then Pastor Reece goes up and says that he feels like the holy spirit is telling ppl to come up and say some word for someone or something encouraging, and im like O no, please God dont tell me to go up there, but sure enough even as i was saying that i heard him telling me what to say. I was like ahhhhhhhhh no, God thats just mean, he’s like do you trust me? i just stand there, thinking yes, but trying to think of some good excuse to not be able to go up there. Then one comes to mind, God im still trying to work on issues of my own, im still broken, i need help. But then i hear him saying again, when your broken i can use to reach other broken people. this doesnt make sense, i always think that you have to have dealt with your issues before you go up and tell ppl to deal with theirs. But thats not what God had in mind, so after some time i walk up to the front(freaking out…) and ask pastor Reece for the mic, i turn around looking into some very bright lights thankful that i cant see everyone in the room and start talking…Now if you know me at all thats NOT what i do, in large groups of people i dont exactly voulunteer to talk, but when i was done it wasnt that bad, i just walked back to my place and started to worship again..

Then i was talking to my amazing friend Carrie Hayes and she said something that really hit me, she was saying that i shouldnt feel like i have to go back to CA cuz i have been called here.And i was just like oh, wow your right, it was kind of hard to hear cuz i miss CA, well not really i just miss my friends and family, but i also think that if i was still there i’d most likely be dead, kind of harsh, but very true…i know that i was called here, not sure why, but i was, and thats why im having a hard time thinking about what to do with myself when my family moves up north, cuz i dont want to go AT ALL.  thats another story tho, so anyways as we were talking more she also said that the person she met and who i am now are like totally different(cant remember the exact words..) and as i think about that she is right, its actually kind of strange. i remember one time we were talking and i was like umm yes theres no way im going to want to change (this one thing), and i had absolutly no desire to, and then like a couple months later im actually doing what i said i never wanted to do..hmmm strange, i honestly dont think that i would have been able to make it this far without some of the most amazing ppl that i’ve met at ORCC. so i want to really thank Carrie and Holly B becuase they are both outstanding women of God and i look up to both of them a lot!

Soooo basically if you live in Denver, or in the near areas, you should DEFINANTLY come to Catalyst on wed nights 7-8:30ish.Love you all! -Kimmi3

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